18 Sept - Went over for dinner after a day of work 19 Sept cousin outing 21 Sept non cure treatment

17 Sept 2016 - 0000 - 1130 => 11 hours -> 181.5 hours
1400 - 2330 => 9.5 hours -> 193.5 hours
18 Sept 1830-2330 -> 5 Hours -> 198.5 hours
19 Sept 1830-2330 -> 5 hours -> 203.5 hours
21 Sept 1900 - 2330 -> 4.5 hours - > 208 hours
23 Sept 1900 - 2330 -> 4.5 hours -> 212.5 hours


Blk 183 120th
Lake 154.5
Carpark 160.5
First Hut 171st
Morning Half way 178.5
Non Cure Treatment 207

18 Sept

Morning disagreement
Then I work, trying to finished up my work ....managed 1 out of 2 task..... then went out to find her to eat porridge dinner.
Then we did the Word. Did just like any couple did....walk around chit chat..... exploring......all the stairs...but we just didn't do anything.... Enjoy each other presence

Then I went home. After routine at her place...... 8?

19 Sept
Out with cousin.....meet her half way to Potong Pasir MRT.  She wore the same dress as she wore on the blind date.

Simple nice dinner.... my youngest cousin got lost....almost got her to pay.....she also almost become pek chek - wanted to go home

K asking my cousin who I am.  My cousins all share I believe.....  Then I get to use about most of the $400 initial for my Maybank card.

Went back .....routine at her place 9?

21 Sept
She wanted to do manicure/pedicure.... I suggested bishan.....she came over while I try to finish my work
I obliged to her request to eat mos burger. Then we walked around...... for a while....then we leave early..... 2130....to reach her home about 2230......

Then it all started.....2230 is 207th hour...... so I did my routine......then she hug tightly......as it is still early, so allow her to hug longer.....then she said need to take a sit.......then she sat on my lap..... my mind is already off the mood.......then we did more N to N, N to F.... my hands are just fixed a location....refusing to do much.....then she guided my hand to her back..... ...as she sat on my lap..... I put my hand in front of my G.... to protect....but she seems into the mood......anything near.....she can just start..... I find it hard to believe....but she just start.....so somewhat I know nothing is going to stop her.....so i offer my hand.....she rock to my hand......not just once but 2 rounds.........as I think back....what is the need to do so? What is she using to overcome? Yup before that there were some hint about park and carpark....but how does that lead to it..... I maybe hinting but I have no intention..... after her 2 rounds.... in which at some point i just wanted to lay down...... I did that after 2 rounds.... just want to rest....at the corner of my mind think what will she do? ride on me? or others..... she started to move her hand around me..... just focusing on the back.....then after I lay down.....to rest and relax....not expecting anything....she self-help herself to G..... without asking she just did it.... and best part is I didn't stop her..... I also don't know at this moment why I didn't stop her. Only time was the limiting factor....it was about 5-7 minutes......simple slow stroke.... This is the 2nd time she did this to me..... this time she self-serve....she said I have tears in my eyes..... which I don't know why....but guess I was really stunned, shocked or just unexpressive on what happened. I shared with her abit..... It just leave me not sure..... and why this still continues..... I suspect there is a deeper thing....but now I am not stopping.....May God grace reign and be sufficient.....let it not led to a dark journey... I don't deny I may have prayed for it..... or joked about it....But God your grace is more than that.....there is a greater purpose that physical satisfaction. May Your will be done...May your healing start in her life.