This is a type out of the experience I had as a SL trained facilitator at SparkC for Kranji Secondary. Here is how my reflection goes
My experience at SparkC started with a long walk; a walk that is unnecessary if I had asked to ask. I was late for the briefing and to me; it was considered a bad start of the day. Also, my mind was just filled with a list of what to-do-next and I was not concentrating and engaging much in the activities.
Hence are a few key events during the camp I remembered that are dear to me. Firstly, I was surprised by the number of mentors involved in the pre-camp. Perhaps with an unprepared heart as I go, but one with the support of brothers in cell group, it was comforting as times goes by. The 5 of us in the cell group, Zhongyu, Steve, Kenneth, Christian and I, we were spilt into 3 and 2. Christian and I were in the same group and the rest, the other group. It was an opportunity to spend some time with my brother Christian. His presence really comforted me even though I know the people in my group, I just felt a little uneasy. But, again, I wish to thank God for Christian for a later event.
This later event was rock climbing. It had been a while since I last climbed a rock wall. That was like 10 years ago when I went to OBS P.Ubin when I was in Secondary 2. That time I failed to climb beyond 2 steps due to my classification of being a "zero fighter". This time round, I was just a little reserved when they set my personal goal as 600. When I see the girls and the others guys managed to climb up the wall, I was just eager and excited, but yet just hoping that my turn will come a little later.
When in came to my turn, seeing the result and hearing all the advices given, I just step up in faith. Seeing how Christina had done it, I realise that it's important for me: Finish this quick as I may not have the arm power to last me through the wall. As I step forth and start to climb, it was easier that I thought. I was really like gliding against the wall up towards the sky. When it was at the last section, I was a bit stuck as I was unable to pull myself up to get a firm arm grip. However the encouragement and advice that I got to just jump and grip, I did as told.
Finally I was at the top of the wall; I was filled with joy, filled with the "at last" feeling. What I wanted to thank God for Christian is he filmed the whole of my climb. It was a memory of what I have went through thank God for such a brother who has a camera in hand. It was one that I could look back, as too in my life as a Christian, the smooth, God-orchestrated journey. It just allows me to just fill my heart with thanksgivings of His grace in my life.
To end off, despite the bad start of the day, as too with my life, I know one thing for sure. With the experience in the Tunnel, I learnt one important lesson. That is when in the midst of the darkness of the world, a light really shines brightly. God's love is just gets more prevailing in my life as I walked and lived His promises out. As long as I focus on the light, in who is Jesus, the light of our life, I know I will not get lost. as I know, I come to this Adventure camp with a purpose: Going out to sow seeds and imparting life to others. OI believe that this is just the beginning of another exciting journey for me. The long walk of preparation is finally coming to a time of celebration. The starting point no longer matters when we have the ending point in mind.
As I type and re-read this reflection, I really can feel and remember how I went through the experience. It is so different again but yet it still have the same effect: Thanksgiving.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Looking forward to a new year
Yup New Year 2009. New resolution. New things to look forward.
What more is the a new year with new things to do.
Already in the pipeline is 2 major project I have. Handi craft projects. One design is already designed. The other still in the decision stage. Well in all, I believe it will take up most of my time, especially on mondays. Well I believe it is worth the effort. Hopefull the first can be done by 7 April. The other is 23 October.
Anywhere...going to spend quite a lot this year end. Already spent like $500 on board game auction. Another about $250 going to be on the upcoming shipment that I have. Thus there is really alot of $$$ to be spent. I better start to budget otherwise things are a little tighter next year.
What will be the key event next year. Even now I dun really even know what it may be. Perhaps I should start praying about it and asking God what is the key verse for next year 2009. Provided I remember what was the verse for this year 2008. Haha....Guess I forgot already....
Hopefully I did blog on the verse. Otherwise it is so forgetful of me......well on the last few weeks of the year.
What more is the a new year with new things to do.
Already in the pipeline is 2 major project I have. Handi craft projects. One design is already designed. The other still in the decision stage. Well in all, I believe it will take up most of my time, especially on mondays. Well I believe it is worth the effort. Hopefull the first can be done by 7 April. The other is 23 October.
Anywhere...going to spend quite a lot this year end. Already spent like $500 on board game auction. Another about $250 going to be on the upcoming shipment that I have. Thus there is really alot of $$$ to be spent. I better start to budget otherwise things are a little tighter next year.
What will be the key event next year. Even now I dun really even know what it may be. Perhaps I should start praying about it and asking God what is the key verse for next year 2009. Provided I remember what was the verse for this year 2008. Haha....Guess I forgot already....
Hopefully I did blog on the verse. Otherwise it is so forgetful of me......well on the last few weeks of the year.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Its only Tuesday and I feel like it is Friday already
It is just Tuesday and I feel like it is already Friday.....what did I do today?
1. Called SAFRA Toa Payoh
2. Touched up my proposal
3. Tried to call and settle Kalai Pithers drive
4.Called YMCA of Singapore
5. Printed poster for SSC
6.Printing poster for Queenstown CC
7.Send? confirmation letter to Queenstown CC
8. Prepared confirmation letter for Aranda Country Club
To do for tomorrow:
1. Call Kalai Pithers to get the list
2. Call Aranda Country club after consultation of duration of drive
3. To hopefully prayfully hear from MAAD and Red Dot
4. To send approved proposal to respective parties
5. Call Tiong Bahru CC with regards to drive
6. Call Thomson CC with regards to organising drive
7. To call ITE HQ Student Development Head with regards to ITE drive
8. To check whether my date is still on at night....
Work work work work work work work work work work work work work.
Lord I cry out for rest in the spirit with you. Forgive me for all my transgression. Fill me with your Spirit. Let my strength be renewed by you.
All things are possible, through Christ whom strengthen me.
My whole mind is thinking about work. Mininal time to think of others, people, board game. Well it is getting late. I have yet to bath ....and I better go and sleep soon.
Wonder Thursday lunch appointment will come true....I will let God decide and dictate....I just send SMS.
1. Called SAFRA Toa Payoh
2. Touched up my proposal
3. Tried to call and settle Kalai Pithers drive
4.Called YMCA of Singapore
5. Printed poster for SSC
6.Printing poster for Queenstown CC
7.Send? confirmation letter to Queenstown CC
8. Prepared confirmation letter for Aranda Country Club
To do for tomorrow:
1. Call Kalai Pithers to get the list
2. Call Aranda Country club after consultation of duration of drive
3. To hopefully prayfully hear from MAAD and Red Dot
4. To send approved proposal to respective parties
5. Call Tiong Bahru CC with regards to drive
6. Call Thomson CC with regards to organising drive
7. To call ITE HQ Student Development Head with regards to ITE drive
8. To check whether my date is still on at night....
Work work work work work work work work work work work work work.
Lord I cry out for rest in the spirit with you. Forgive me for all my transgression. Fill me with your Spirit. Let my strength be renewed by you.
All things are possible, through Christ whom strengthen me.
My whole mind is thinking about work. Mininal time to think of others, people, board game. Well it is getting late. I have yet to bath ....and I better go and sleep soon.
Wonder Thursday lunch appointment will come true....I will let God decide and dictate....I just send SMS.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Chapter 2: Most Valuable resource
The most valuable resource - People.
"Let Us mae in Our image, in Our likeness" Gen 1:26. Coupled with Gen 11.16 "Nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them". Unlimited creativity with God's given attribute of reason. Things of today are ideas of people of history. Things of tomrrows are the ideas of today. In simple creativity is the key.
Creativity can be defined as the making of something new, or the rearranging of something old. In practical, creativity finds solution to orgainzational problems. Creativity finds new and better ways of accomplishing a task.
Creativity comes from sources which in simple is from God and man. Thus the valuable resource, people, need to be needed. This is just simple truth.
However, organizational tradition limits the use of creativity.
In simple of management activites can be reduced to two basic functions - management of "things" and "ideas".
People is a resource that is not just bought with money, but with others eternity things.
Simple chapter....yeah there is no limit to this chapter.....when is there the limit to a unlimited creativity? Perhaps is the word unlimited.
"Let Us mae in Our image, in Our likeness" Gen 1:26. Coupled with Gen 11.16 "Nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them". Unlimited creativity with God's given attribute of reason. Things of today are ideas of people of history. Things of tomrrows are the ideas of today. In simple creativity is the key.
Creativity can be defined as the making of something new, or the rearranging of something old. In practical, creativity finds solution to orgainzational problems. Creativity finds new and better ways of accomplishing a task.
Creativity comes from sources which in simple is from God and man. Thus the valuable resource, people, need to be needed. This is just simple truth.
However, organizational tradition limits the use of creativity.
In simple of management activites can be reduced to two basic functions - management of "things" and "ideas".
People is a resource that is not just bought with money, but with others eternity things.
Simple chapter....yeah there is no limit to this chapter.....when is there the limit to a unlimited creativity? Perhaps is the word unlimited.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Management: A biblical Approach
Just bought this book as I was walking around just now. Was looking for a book to buy as the book entitled " Anointed for Business" by Ed was returned to it's owner... thus was feeling that there isn't much things to read while on the way to work. Thus as I was praying and listening to what book to buy. There were a few books that I saw, familiar books that I already have. There are also books about relationship which I expressed some interest on the title on the cover.
Despite all these book-title-window-viewing, I was prompted to learn about the marketplace. How to be a effective person in the market place also requires some knowledge too. Due to the fact that I am not not really into my current job yet as a donor manager, I felt led to get a book that will help in the way I work. Thus this book, just a few books away from Ed's "Anointed for Business", is this book. And after a glimpse and reading the back content, I just buy it.
On the way home, I read the first chapter: A biblical philosophy of Management. The verse the book quoted to contain the key ingredients of a successful organization is from Gen. 11:1-9: The Tower of Babel. Here are the four key ingredients:
1. Commitment to work on a goal
2. Unity among the people
3. An effective communication system
4. Doing the will of God.
This was the exactly same quotation example that was used for a sermon recently on : Establishing God's economic xxxxx. which include these 4 points
1. Building ourselves a city - Greed
2. Control & Fear-A tower that reaches up to heaven
3. Pride - We make a name for ourselves
4. Rebellion - We will not be scattered over the face of the whole earth.
There are from the biblical perspective. However as both are co-referencing from the Bible. How practical is the Bible. A passage has so much depth into it.
From these 2 view point of this particular passage, it should the word is really like a show magician with many faces. However as one face changes to the other...in the end of the show, the final truth of the face of the person will reveal. And thus too the truth behind this passage.
In one taking of reading this new book, from just one chapter, I took one principle back to apply: The difference between :Management is getting work done through others; Management is meeting the needs of others as they work at accomplishing their jobs.
Servant Leader or Serving Leader. One is the leader of the servant, the other is the characteristic of the leader. One is a position of what is done, the other a position of what is still doing.
Now I wonder will my blog be really read.....now I not sure....but till due time, perhaps I will know....and how what I have written on these blog, people will know....
Hope it blessed and Bless it Hoped
Despite all these book-title-window-viewing, I was prompted to learn about the marketplace. How to be a effective person in the market place also requires some knowledge too. Due to the fact that I am not not really into my current job yet as a donor manager, I felt led to get a book that will help in the way I work. Thus this book, just a few books away from Ed's "Anointed for Business", is this book. And after a glimpse and reading the back content, I just buy it.
On the way home, I read the first chapter: A biblical philosophy of Management. The verse the book quoted to contain the key ingredients of a successful organization is from Gen. 11:1-9: The Tower of Babel. Here are the four key ingredients:
1. Commitment to work on a goal
2. Unity among the people
3. An effective communication system
4. Doing the will of God.
This was the exactly same quotation example that was used for a sermon recently on : Establishing God's economic xxxxx. which include these 4 points
1. Building ourselves a city - Greed
2. Control & Fear-A tower that reaches up to heaven
3. Pride - We make a name for ourselves
4. Rebellion - We will not be scattered over the face of the whole earth.
There are from the biblical perspective. However as both are co-referencing from the Bible. How practical is the Bible. A passage has so much depth into it.
From these 2 view point of this particular passage, it should the word is really like a show magician with many faces. However as one face changes to the other...in the end of the show, the final truth of the face of the person will reveal. And thus too the truth behind this passage.
In one taking of reading this new book, from just one chapter, I took one principle back to apply: The difference between :Management is getting work done through others; Management is meeting the needs of others as they work at accomplishing their jobs.
Servant Leader or Serving Leader. One is the leader of the servant, the other is the characteristic of the leader. One is a position of what is done, the other a position of what is still doing.
Now I wonder will my blog be really read.....now I not sure....but till due time, perhaps I will know....and how what I have written on these blog, people will know....
Hope it blessed and Bless it Hoped
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Almost so close yet so surprising
Indeed today is something that is almost so close yet so surprising. A few interestings points that I would like to journal to remember.
Firstly will be today is the first YCK drive that I went. It was sizeable and quite successful drive. The first time that I took the Are you my Type pins and give them to distribute. It was a great experience to see how a CC is able to make a blood drive part of their theme and make it a success. It may not be a 100% success, however, it shows to me how one aspect that a CC can do. Bringing the family, providing health screening to attract the crowd and let them have awareness of blood drive. Indeed it seems like a promtion stage.
Unawareness -> Awareness -> Beliefs/Knowledge -> Attitude -> Purchase Intention -> Purchase
Purchase in our context will be the step forward to donate blood. A successful donor will have to go through this process and none will be missed out.
Second will be there is a special guest who came down to support me. It is not just the MP who came down for the drive. Well the MP is really friendly and so willing to talk to people. He is also willing to find out from people. His heart to just be to with the people and looking out for people. The really touching thing to my heart, something that really melts my heart away. It is a feeling that I so willing to serve. A feeling so familiar but yet challenging to me as it brings what is of the past of me. It is a state of events that make me think and challenges me emotionally. However as I talked to Evonne, I realised how much grace and how blessed. The stage of life that God has brought me to and the stage that he is preparing me to. In addition to that, He created a situation to challenge my heart. Indeed it was a challenging. A friend who will fetch her. Woah. Simple words that I didn't take note. The first look seems so subjective. It is really so subjective, however, what I can simply say Thank God. Just from the bottom of my heart that I thank God that He just tailor such a situation to mould my character. I heard these two words from another sister in christ whom just had a news from school. Two simple words, to mould and to release. I just simply was in awe of God's awesome.
Indeed it is a situation that mould me and yet still release me. Initial thought will be to find out more, to find out the truth. The one way is to ask directly. Thank God. Thank God. Although it may through my facial expression that I may have displayed, however truth just a mere 30 minutes. However it was a tense but yet enjoyable 30 minutes ride to church. From trying to get someone to buy subway cookies for both JJ and me, to the driver Kingston? proposing to drop us at hall 6 subway. It is just so interesting. Just before entering church, the truth finally came out. Thanks God for brother in christ. He is someone whom is being evanglised to go to church service. That so reminds me of how I used the same technique, cross-gender evanglism. How thin the line, trending only danger area in which yet God can used the mutual attraction to such great heights. It, like a double edged sword, is a powerful tool that can protect or destroy.
Finally, it will the cross stitch. I still asked although for more pictures. Although there is one I already have one hand. Perhaps the plan I can have now, since I doubt anyone will read my blog at all, though there has being 192 visitors whom I not sure how to access the data. I will still proceed with making the cross stitch. The plan now is by 2 Dec 2008, which is a Tuesday that I will go and get the materials to make the cross stitch. There are a total of 2 design, both about the same. Both will using AIDA 18 count which means the size will be small. Anyway, the deadline for the first project is 7 April 2008. Thus that will give me like Jan, Feb, Mar = 12 weeks to do. 91700 stitches. That will translate to, if 1 stitch takes an average of 2 seconds, about a total of 51 hours. I believe it is worth the effort for whatever the outcome. Here I will decide and commit it to the Lord. In the completion date and the presentation of the gift, it is meant to be given. Regardless the outcome, if received, things will just be simple. A 25th quarter century gift and a welcome to the quarter century club. If rejected, it will be a final product of hard work and perservance of achievement. I can still take it back and put it in my house. It is something that I can take home to remember.
I just have a simple prayer. Lord, may your will be done. Let your will be revealed and let your prepare me for your purpose. As I watched Orpah's big give, I realise to give, to give big is needs big effort. A saying I remember I read, One who give causally will reap causal joy; while one who give effortlessly, whole-heartedly will reap immese joy. Not exactly the usage of the same word as the statement, however the spirit is in it. So close yet so surprising. This is indeed one.
Firstly will be today is the first YCK drive that I went. It was sizeable and quite successful drive. The first time that I took the Are you my Type pins and give them to distribute. It was a great experience to see how a CC is able to make a blood drive part of their theme and make it a success. It may not be a 100% success, however, it shows to me how one aspect that a CC can do. Bringing the family, providing health screening to attract the crowd and let them have awareness of blood drive. Indeed it seems like a promtion stage.
Unawareness -> Awareness -> Beliefs/Knowledge -> Attitude -> Purchase Intention -> Purchase
Purchase in our context will be the step forward to donate blood. A successful donor will have to go through this process and none will be missed out.
Second will be there is a special guest who came down to support me. It is not just the MP who came down for the drive. Well the MP is really friendly and so willing to talk to people. He is also willing to find out from people. His heart to just be to with the people and looking out for people. The really touching thing to my heart, something that really melts my heart away. It is a feeling that I so willing to serve. A feeling so familiar but yet challenging to me as it brings what is of the past of me. It is a state of events that make me think and challenges me emotionally. However as I talked to Evonne, I realised how much grace and how blessed. The stage of life that God has brought me to and the stage that he is preparing me to. In addition to that, He created a situation to challenge my heart. Indeed it was a challenging. A friend who will fetch her. Woah. Simple words that I didn't take note. The first look seems so subjective. It is really so subjective, however, what I can simply say Thank God. Just from the bottom of my heart that I thank God that He just tailor such a situation to mould my character. I heard these two words from another sister in christ whom just had a news from school. Two simple words, to mould and to release. I just simply was in awe of God's awesome.
Indeed it is a situation that mould me and yet still release me. Initial thought will be to find out more, to find out the truth. The one way is to ask directly. Thank God. Thank God. Although it may through my facial expression that I may have displayed, however truth just a mere 30 minutes. However it was a tense but yet enjoyable 30 minutes ride to church. From trying to get someone to buy subway cookies for both JJ and me, to the driver Kingston? proposing to drop us at hall 6 subway. It is just so interesting. Just before entering church, the truth finally came out. Thanks God for brother in christ. He is someone whom is being evanglised to go to church service. That so reminds me of how I used the same technique, cross-gender evanglism. How thin the line, trending only danger area in which yet God can used the mutual attraction to such great heights. It, like a double edged sword, is a powerful tool that can protect or destroy.
Finally, it will the cross stitch. I still asked although for more pictures. Although there is one I already have one hand. Perhaps the plan I can have now, since I doubt anyone will read my blog at all, though there has being 192 visitors whom I not sure how to access the data. I will still proceed with making the cross stitch. The plan now is by 2 Dec 2008, which is a Tuesday that I will go and get the materials to make the cross stitch. There are a total of 2 design, both about the same. Both will using AIDA 18 count which means the size will be small. Anyway, the deadline for the first project is 7 April 2008. Thus that will give me like Jan, Feb, Mar = 12 weeks to do. 91700 stitches. That will translate to, if 1 stitch takes an average of 2 seconds, about a total of 51 hours. I believe it is worth the effort for whatever the outcome. Here I will decide and commit it to the Lord. In the completion date and the presentation of the gift, it is meant to be given. Regardless the outcome, if received, things will just be simple. A 25th quarter century gift and a welcome to the quarter century club. If rejected, it will be a final product of hard work and perservance of achievement. I can still take it back and put it in my house. It is something that I can take home to remember.
I just have a simple prayer. Lord, may your will be done. Let your will be revealed and let your prepare me for your purpose. As I watched Orpah's big give, I realise to give, to give big is needs big effort. A saying I remember I read, One who give causally will reap causal joy; while one who give effortlessly, whole-heartedly will reap immese joy. Not exactly the usage of the same word as the statement, however the spirit is in it. So close yet so surprising. This is indeed one.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Still thinking about someone....now even doing cross-stitch half way
Yup....now thinking about someone....who can guess or know who the person is? Indeed it is just me. Thinking about someone as usual. Not doing the cross-stitch that embroided with = For Someone Special. Special Calligraphy.
It looks simple but yet delicate. Going to do a purse / bag out of it. Wonder when will I be able to complete it? It is something to be wondered....on 31 x 30...yet I will still take some time to complete it due to the opening thread and closing thread for multiple areas.
In simple, I am still thinking about that person. However it is not the end of 2008. Well I just have to wait till 2009. For timing is in His hand. In His all knowing hands. Well 9 Nov...YCK CC Blood Drive...Another interesting one to go. Another one that is all settled by the BMO. Nothing much I need to do. Just go ahead and look look. Already mentioned to the person. Now just depends whether the message get through.
Well the person is busy with work....so let it be just great time... :)
Great to the Glory of God
It looks simple but yet delicate. Going to do a purse / bag out of it. Wonder when will I be able to complete it? It is something to be wondered....on 31 x 30...yet I will still take some time to complete it due to the opening thread and closing thread for multiple areas.
In simple, I am still thinking about that person. However it is not the end of 2008. Well I just have to wait till 2009. For timing is in His hand. In His all knowing hands. Well 9 Nov...YCK CC Blood Drive...Another interesting one to go. Another one that is all settled by the BMO. Nothing much I need to do. Just go ahead and look look. Already mentioned to the person. Now just depends whether the message get through.
Well the person is busy with work....so let it be just great time... :)
Great to the Glory of God
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
3+30+31 days more to 2009.
What is so special about 2009. It is like 64 days more to it.
By 2009, I will be with a job already. I will be starting a new year with a new resolution. I have yet to complete my current year 2008 resolution. Though I know that I have my current prayer book finishing soon. Wonder who out there wil lbe getting one more prayer book, the one that I usually use. And will I received such a gift?
The one whom is the the one. ?How non constructive the statement is for it is filled in the enptiness.
The mysterious about mind. How much more to think about before things to start to fall asleep. In His name, I give thanks for HE is great in all things.
By 2009, I will be with a job already. I will be starting a new year with a new resolution. I have yet to complete my current year 2008 resolution. Though I know that I have my current prayer book finishing soon. Wonder who out there wil lbe getting one more prayer book, the one that I usually use. And will I received such a gift?
The one whom is the the one. ?How non constructive the statement is for it is filled in the enptiness.
The mysterious about mind. How much more to think about before things to start to fall asleep. In His name, I give thanks for HE is great in all things.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Finally it is given away
It is finally finished....something that is one year due and finally I get to finish it up and give it away.
Next year gift awaits. Now thinking should I what should I make next year. WOah....it is indeed something that is nice. An art piece that I myself feel honoured. The more I look at the scanned photo, that more I really like it. I wonder when will I too have such privilege to received such delicate gift. Well ....it is just so true, when one give causally, one get causal joy. When one give effortlessly, thoughtfully, creatively, one get immense joy.
How true and the truth is as above.
How tempting it is to make one for someone I wish to know more....
Saturday, October 25, 2008
A day to remember
Today, 25 Oct is really a day to remember. A day that I just follow my heart and the outcomes is how it is going to be. How platonic friendship is so shallow. How an action reveals how a person act and reacts. How one's thinking and thought of principles. Whichever the case, even as I know how the person is, it is still curiousity of why the person will react that way. Or it is just leave to be as it to be. So friends are just as being. Perhaps there was nothing in the first place.
When should I ask again. When should I ask again. Perhaps the inner truth are not ready to reveal. Perhaps it is not time. There are a few perhaps. There is only one for sure. That is God is in control of the situation and nothing will go beyond His Control. Only how we see it as being out of our control. In the first place, when has it ever being within our control?
GYP....new 3 letter......Wonder will I remember who in the future?
When should I ask again. When should I ask again. Perhaps the inner truth are not ready to reveal. Perhaps it is not time. There are a few perhaps. There is only one for sure. That is God is in control of the situation and nothing will go beyond His Control. Only how we see it as being out of our control. In the first place, when has it ever being within our control?
GYP....new 3 letter......Wonder will I remember who in the future?
Monday, October 20, 2008
Everyday is a new day
Indeed everyday is a new day to me. Everyday is a new challenge to me. Today is just Monday and there are just question that I feel unsure already. Today is the year of 2008. Next year will be 10 years since 1999 = 2009. Perhaps this is the stage of life that I am going through that I am to take hold of the decision and the desire of what I have. Thus forth, as after a while, since I last really go for something that I really wanted.
My current job is one interesting one that involves multi-tasking with the interactive with people and also the time to be in office.
What more can I ask other than the practical question of life. It pays reasonably and it allows personal growth. Other than it is still performance orientated, which is common in most, or view of all organisation. There is a purpose for such organisation to exist and one that does have, it exists. There are no accident. There is always a purpose behind things that happens, it is just that how do we view it.
Writing out my thoughts is just a great relief. Speaking it out too is something of interaction that has such special significance in life. Supporting someone in life is just a completely different experience. Blessed to be a blessing. A blessing to be blessed. In both ways, it deals with the fact that bless is the root word and it is the key thing in it.
Writing quite a bit, but yet I feel I am not writing out the thoughts that is stuck within me. Or is it that via this channel is just typing it. Just like the status question I am setting for myself: How do ONE know that ONE is in love with someone, or just like to be with someone? Today is just 20 Oct 2008. There is another 2months and 11 days = 72 days to the end of 2008. What is the statement for year 2008. At this phase is Inter-dependence. There is also a phase of Intimacy. There is still another I phase which I can't really remember. How ironic. But yet perhaps it is the seasons. A leaf that has turn brown will not turn green in the autumn season. What is lost is not necessary lost forever. What is lost is just temporaily. What is lost is also relative. Lost perhaps it just something else gaining. Indeed whoever the person is, I remember the time, the time of commitment, the time of faithfulness, the time that God is sufficient and His community is just there. The love and comfort, the mircalous way God work through His people for His people.
Keep faith for He is faithful. Lose faith for He gain favour in you. The proccess is so simply special. Nothing can separate the love from Him. Only nothing can separate the love from Him. Indeed His love is so great what more can I say but know that He is Lord. He is the finisher of the beginner; the beginner of the finisher. Blessed is His people. Too I feel blessed going 8 years of knowing Him. So what is difference of 1 years 9 months of knowing her? Wait till next year and let God take the lead. He will decide. I will just propose, He will dictate. For in Him, He has the best in mind. For in Him, He has the best in time.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Personality Test - Report
My Personality
75 | |
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Wednesday, October 08, 2008
When thinking too much is just thinking too much
Perhaps I am thinking too much now....too much that I can't reduce the amount of choice that I have. I remember something I learnt from Othello. A perfect winning game is not just one with many choices. As more choice means a higher chance of taking a second best move. Where-else if you have only one good move, there is only one choice - a perfect good winning move.
Same principle but however not as easily applied on real life. Though other than things of the world, am I thinking too much about some people too....guess I am a little AA and just being AA. Well. Let time flys and let the sessions speaks of itself.
The book about 12 Christian Beliefs....woah it is really so interesting...going to read more of it...
Same principle but however not as easily applied on real life. Though other than things of the world, am I thinking too much about some people too....guess I am a little AA and just being AA. Well. Let time flys and let the sessions speaks of itself.
The book about 12 Christian Beliefs....woah it is really so interesting...going to read more of it...
Saturday, October 04, 2008
It is coming.
Work work work.......still at the learning stage. Still trying to figure out how work can be done, fixing up the system and making sure that I get the habit and routine of working. I wonder wonder......Lord, I cry out to you...sustain me in this place if this is the place that you have for me. My heart cries out that I am so powerless without you. May you lift me up in your presence and fill me. Direct me and give me the strength to do the work. Give me the heart to obey you and the courage to do your work. Let nothing of me prevent your works for you have a wonderful plan and future ahead. Thank and all I pray and seek in JEsus' name, Amen.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
HURT - Here U R There?
Hurt - Here U R There?
How can one person be here and also there? There is one part of how hurt is felt. It is a feeling, an emotion that is felt here, which is the very moment. This relates to the past or some happening which is "there". The Hurt is also dervived from a state of confusion too. It is where the divided self feeling to be at two different location but at the same time. The divided uncoherent state can generate the confusion stage. How Confusion is related to hurt, indeed it is a huge difference that I do agree and fail to explain. However HURT is somehow relates to the time frame of life, the experience of life stopped at a particular moment. The growth is just THERE while in real time, we are already HERE.
Some sharing about HURT : Here U R There?
How can one person be here and also there? There is one part of how hurt is felt. It is a feeling, an emotion that is felt here, which is the very moment. This relates to the past or some happening which is "there". The Hurt is also dervived from a state of confusion too. It is where the divided self feeling to be at two different location but at the same time. The divided uncoherent state can generate the confusion stage. How Confusion is related to hurt, indeed it is a huge difference that I do agree and fail to explain. However HURT is somehow relates to the time frame of life, the experience of life stopped at a particular moment. The growth is just THERE while in real time, we are already HERE.
Some sharing about HURT : Here U R There?
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
New Book.......reading currently
Hi to those who are reading my blog....those rare honoured one....yup I am currently reading a new book.
12 Christian Beliefs That Can Drive You Crazy: Relieft From Falst Assumptions
There are a total of 12 assumption and here I start with assumption #1:
It's selfish to have my needs met.
Simple assumption but yet can still drive people crazy....indeed how such needs can be selfish? So what is the root of the problem? We inherited the tendency to dethrone God and put ourselves in the centre of the universe and as we refuse to see God for who he is - and ourselves for who we are - we deny the truth that he is God and we are his creatures. Self-centeredness is at the core of our sinfulness, but also we are to deny ourselves and scarificially give to God and others. As mentioned in Mattew 22:37-40 in summary of two simple commands:Love the Lord your God, and love your neighbour as yourself. And also how Jesus humbled himself and became obedient to death - even death on a cross (Phil. 2:7-8)
These are truths and yet there can a crazy-making assumption to confuse selfishness with stewardship; the oft-repeated maim, "God first, others second, self last."
Blessed to be a blessing. Another commmon used terms that I often heard. Before we are blessed, one at some point will recognise one's incompleteness. However, that does not discount our needs, our incarnational needs, our logical needs.
Here is a story that I read from the book. Conservation group which all spoke about learning to depend on others for their emotional neediness which upset Raymond, servere depressed patient. He resisted coming into the program, the pyschotherapy group because he felt like a spiritual failure. In his mind, a depressed Christian was a backslidden Christian.
"This subject of needs just isn't valid," Raymond protested. "We are to minister grace to the world and get our minds off that nonsense."
"So it's important to minister to the world?" I asked.
"Absolutely. We are to give comfort, encouragemnt, and hope to those with don't have it, in the name of Jesus."
"I certainly have no problem with that," I said. "But do you also get comfort, encouragement, and hope?"
"That's selfish," he replied. "God doesn't want me concentrating on myself."
"Then God's using you to hurt people."
"What?"
"If your need for comfort, encouragement, and hope is selfish, then other's need for that is elfish, too.l If it ain't okay for you to have it, it ain't okay for you to give it."
How easy mis-assumuption. The author summarised it quite simple into 3 points, how our needs are meant to be:
1. Our needs are designed to drive us to growth
2. Our needs are designed to drive us to humility
3. Our needs are designed to draw us closer to God
Neglecting any of these needs do indeed leads to spiritual and emotional problems....for example in a simple, though not the best example, like I need to speak my feelings out to someone I trust, thus that means finding someone to talk to. Neglecting that will mean bottle up the need to speak things out which in time will become a timed bomb.
Ineed getting our needs met helps us meet the needs of others. In Luke 7:47
....her many sins have been forgiven - for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little
"Every good and perfect gift is from above" (James 1:17) and they often reach us through other people (Acts 9:6-19)
A very brief summary as indeed it is something so simple but yet has such deep roots of knowledge within it.
Want to find out more, you can always find a time to chat with me on the topic.....as you know who I am, we can always arrange a time....regardless of gender. Just dun make it a date....haha
Just an appointment....
12 Christian Beliefs That Can Drive You Crazy: Relieft From Falst Assumptions
There are a total of 12 assumption and here I start with assumption #1:
It's selfish to have my needs met.
Simple assumption but yet can still drive people crazy....indeed how such needs can be selfish? So what is the root of the problem? We inherited the tendency to dethrone God and put ourselves in the centre of the universe and as we refuse to see God for who he is - and ourselves for who we are - we deny the truth that he is God and we are his creatures. Self-centeredness is at the core of our sinfulness, but also we are to deny ourselves and scarificially give to God and others. As mentioned in Mattew 22:37-40 in summary of two simple commands:Love the Lord your God, and love your neighbour as yourself. And also how Jesus humbled himself and became obedient to death - even death on a cross (Phil. 2:7-8)
These are truths and yet there can a crazy-making assumption to confuse selfishness with stewardship; the oft-repeated maim, "God first, others second, self last."
Blessed to be a blessing. Another commmon used terms that I often heard. Before we are blessed, one at some point will recognise one's incompleteness. However, that does not discount our needs, our incarnational needs, our logical needs.
Here is a story that I read from the book. Conservation group which all spoke about learning to depend on others for their emotional neediness which upset Raymond, servere depressed patient. He resisted coming into the program, the pyschotherapy group because he felt like a spiritual failure. In his mind, a depressed Christian was a backslidden Christian.
"This subject of needs just isn't valid," Raymond protested. "We are to minister grace to the world and get our minds off that nonsense."
"So it's important to minister to the world?" I asked.
"Absolutely. We are to give comfort, encouragemnt, and hope to those with don't have it, in the name of Jesus."
"I certainly have no problem with that," I said. "But do you also get comfort, encouragement, and hope?"
"That's selfish," he replied. "God doesn't want me concentrating on myself."
"Then God's using you to hurt people."
"What?"
"If your need for comfort, encouragement, and hope is selfish, then other's need for that is elfish, too.l If it ain't okay for you to have it, it ain't okay for you to give it."
How easy mis-assumuption. The author summarised it quite simple into 3 points, how our needs are meant to be:
1. Our needs are designed to drive us to growth
2. Our needs are designed to drive us to humility
3. Our needs are designed to draw us closer to God
Neglecting any of these needs do indeed leads to spiritual and emotional problems....for example in a simple, though not the best example, like I need to speak my feelings out to someone I trust, thus that means finding someone to talk to. Neglecting that will mean bottle up the need to speak things out which in time will become a timed bomb.
Ineed getting our needs met helps us meet the needs of others. In Luke 7:47
....her many sins have been forgiven - for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little
"Every good and perfect gift is from above" (James 1:17) and they often reach us through other people (Acts 9:6-19)
A very brief summary as indeed it is something so simple but yet has such deep roots of knowledge within it.
Want to find out more, you can always find a time to chat with me on the topic.....as you know who I am, we can always arrange a time....regardless of gender. Just dun make it a date....haha
Just an appointment....
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Last HT Duty of the year 2008
Indeed today is the last HT duty for year 2008. And it too being a surprising one. Changes, adjustments are made with the sudden closing of more sectors, more manpower is needed to be relocated. While I was just have enough people for closing up the C1, C5-6 and Sector D, the closing of Sector C2 increased the requirement for experience more mature ones to channel people. Well unexpected though through request, I got one more person from Sector C. Miss Lin
Well with the shadow team around, there is more than enough people. While I keep the shadow to a mininal things to do, with Joel Goh's choice of not coming, things went smooth. Thank God.
Lot of things went through my mind these few weeks, especially the first few weeks of the new job. It has being a bottleneck-type of emotion for me, with a roller coaster ride. Now finally ICT is over, the job finally begins. Phase 1 of plan begins.....provide I know what the plans is exactly in details.
Well Monday finally lunch appointment. Where to eat, haven decided. Also finally finished reading a book. .....All goes back to the Box. Re-read Too Close Too Soon. Finally finished the book No More Christian Nice Guy.... Now reading the book of Sitting, Walking and Making a Stand.
Miss R is back. So it is back to the asking people out...planning....There seems to be another arrow on the targetboard. Well, I wonder why there are similiar characteristics....same job nature. Well I just take as it is, seems He has allow, I just learn whatever He has prepared for me. My prayer is simple : PAP . Pray - Action - Progress.
Protection all Purposes.
Let my heart be tender and soft to the Lord. Let it not harden but strengthen towards your will.
In Jesus Name. Amen
Well with the shadow team around, there is more than enough people. While I keep the shadow to a mininal things to do, with Joel Goh's choice of not coming, things went smooth. Thank God.
Lot of things went through my mind these few weeks, especially the first few weeks of the new job. It has being a bottleneck-type of emotion for me, with a roller coaster ride. Now finally ICT is over, the job finally begins. Phase 1 of plan begins.....provide I know what the plans is exactly in details.
Well Monday finally lunch appointment. Where to eat, haven decided. Also finally finished reading a book. .....All goes back to the Box. Re-read Too Close Too Soon. Finally finished the book No More Christian Nice Guy.... Now reading the book of Sitting, Walking and Making a Stand.
Miss R is back. So it is back to the asking people out...planning....There seems to be another arrow on the targetboard. Well, I wonder why there are similiar characteristics....same job nature. Well I just take as it is, seems He has allow, I just learn whatever He has prepared for me. My prayer is simple : PAP . Pray - Action - Progress.
Protection all Purposes.
Let my heart be tender and soft to the Lord. Let it not harden but strengthen towards your will.
In Jesus Name. Amen
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Report of 100KM walk with Touch Diabetics
It was indeed a physically, mentally challenging 100KM 3 day 2 night walk around the parks of Singapore. One that really pushes one limit to the maximum. I too was pushed to the maximum and sustains aches and muscle stress through the 3 day of walk.
Like a common saying, no pain, no gain. It is indeed no pain no gain. However, when I see those who have a condition, a medical condition i.e Diabetics; I reflected and relooked. That is more challenging than us. They have to not only overcome the pain and agony of the physically pain, they too have to managed their blood sugar level. My buddy, Bruce, whom seemingly like one fit person, went to hospital with chest pain. A reflection of how fortunate I am. A walk of just taking another step ahead despite all the ache and pain. A journey that starts and continues with every small step ahead. What more can 100KM teaches and challenges not only those who can but challenges those who think they cannot. It is too then not about completing but with the heart and decision to complete the race and fulfil all the objective and purpose that the 100KM walk has acheived. To raise awareness and also the build faith and confidence in all who walk through.
Everything that has a beginning has a ending and everything ending there is a beginning. This 100 KM is the beginning of a new journey for me. To walk the additional mile, to really decide to walk the race that I have chosen to walk through. To be able to move where I was and am called to now. A call is a calling, and it will be a calling when it is answered. Just like a King's call. It will not be a King's call if none of his army or knights respond to that call....the horn call....the majesty call. What so the call of the King of Kings of higher grace and majestic.
Walk on even the road is tough. For what is never done will ever be done once.
Like a common saying, no pain, no gain. It is indeed no pain no gain. However, when I see those who have a condition, a medical condition i.e Diabetics; I reflected and relooked. That is more challenging than us. They have to not only overcome the pain and agony of the physically pain, they too have to managed their blood sugar level. My buddy, Bruce, whom seemingly like one fit person, went to hospital with chest pain. A reflection of how fortunate I am. A walk of just taking another step ahead despite all the ache and pain. A journey that starts and continues with every small step ahead. What more can 100KM teaches and challenges not only those who can but challenges those who think they cannot. It is too then not about completing but with the heart and decision to complete the race and fulfil all the objective and purpose that the 100KM walk has acheived. To raise awareness and also the build faith and confidence in all who walk through.
Everything that has a beginning has a ending and everything ending there is a beginning. This 100 KM is the beginning of a new journey for me. To walk the additional mile, to really decide to walk the race that I have chosen to walk through. To be able to move where I was and am called to now. A call is a calling, and it will be a calling when it is answered. Just like a King's call. It will not be a King's call if none of his army or knights respond to that call....the horn call....the majesty call. What so the call of the King of Kings of higher grace and majestic.
Walk on even the road is tough. For what is never done will ever be done once.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Another boring day.....and asked about asking the same question
Yup. Today another boring day. Another day that I delayed and had to take cab to work. Didn't really managed to teach much games or the games that I would like to teach. Only until the night that a group of 3 guys....though a little attitude, managed to appreciate Power Grid. Yup Power grid. One of them,who tried Bang before, like the game and his 2 other friend too enjoyed the game...though it is a little challenging at first. Overall although it didn't start well for the day, it ended well for the day. Now back at home, typing my daily journal and reflecting upon the day.
But really Praise God that current I am at $180 out of $250. And I realise that I have till 6 Jun to complete all the support raising. It is a tough and tight time....also due to the last minute appeal to people to bless :)
Another thing interesting too.....being asked do I always ask people what they are doing? Hmm....it has being awhile and it is also something that I noticed some time ago...but well haven really found out how else to ask though. Perhaps it may be a time for a change? Or just I am just simple questioneer and preferred listener?
Anyway, it is an interesting point to ponder over and I am glad and encourage to know....someone noticed and asked. In the END...PRAISE GOD :)
But really Praise God that current I am at $180 out of $250. And I realise that I have till 6 Jun to complete all the support raising. It is a tough and tight time....also due to the last minute appeal to people to bless :)
Another thing interesting too.....being asked do I always ask people what they are doing? Hmm....it has being awhile and it is also something that I noticed some time ago...but well haven really found out how else to ask though. Perhaps it may be a time for a change? Or just I am just simple questioneer and preferred listener?
Anyway, it is an interesting point to ponder over and I am glad and encourage to know....someone noticed and asked. In the END...PRAISE GOD :)
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Daily Journal start today? due to work
Yup...as the title mention...daily journal that starts today? due to work.....due to a course to be exact. Certificate in Practical Counseling Course. This is the course that I have already attended 9 lessons and next week is my tenth and final one. Thus as part of the homework, which is an item of self-care, I chosen to write a daily journal which I have not being doing so for a long long time. At least a few years. So here are the accounts for today.
Today is Tuesday. So it is the start of my work week. As I have NDP commitment under TCS, thus I only work like from
Aside from work, the time after work; going down to Bedok Camp to see the performers rehearse for the item. This time round, there is more organized and all of us are assigned to the groups. I was happily assigned to the Dancer group which I am more interested in....though it seems harder to penetrate them. As the SAF Ankim....he is really one charismatic person. With him, he is running the whole show….he is like one equal to 3 Touch mentors. Today rehearsal was really good….all is excited and putting their effort into it…… and the item is coming to shape. And of course I get to meet people…..dancers and other mentors. Well neutral feelings neutral feelings, which is the right choice. Anyway, it is glad that today managed to get more support raising and managed to talk about the PD6 100KM walk. Somehow, there is always a good timing of God to interject and intervene, especially at these time that I am not making the right choices. Well it is a journey that is exciting as in my heart, I feel that God is not giving up, and neither should I. I should prevail for tough times will not last but tough people do.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Times flies
Time really flies so fast as I was looking at all the blog posts and also the drafts that I was suppose to complete. It take heeds and also reflects upon how times really flies. Among it is one that does not look back and say, " I will stop and wait." Instead, it will say," I will look forward and move on."
What matter most is the amount of time we have as all of us have 24 hours,
what matter most is how we spend the limited time we have.
What matter most is the amount of time we have as all of us have 24 hours,
what matter most is how we spend the limited time we have.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
How small matters MATTERS
Learnt a minor but yet potential dangerous issue. How privacy is to be respect and that it can be easily taken for granted.
Just a small incident. But I still thank God for his community. To alert me of such minor incidents. I thank God for He is still teaching me to be really sensitive to minor details, minor action that how such small things are the seeds to bigger things. Just like a mustard seed, it is small in size. How insignificant or unnoticeable it can, after rain and storm, it can grow into a large tree; like a bacteria, so small and tiny, yet it can multiple and be potential harmful in numbers. Thus in all, although I may feel a little discomfort with all things develop without me knowing. I just pray to God one thing: If thy led me to this, thy will lead me from this. Thus I commit myself to God. Let thy will be done, and let thy will be my will too. It is not how I feel and choose but what I choose to do despite of how I feel. I choose now to follow your heart and be sensitive to Your prompting. In all, over all through all, You are the God of my heart and my life. I am yours from the beginning till the end. Let the Me bow down in awe. Make sure my heart remains soft and tender,sensitive to Your doing.
Just a small incident. But I still thank God for his community. To alert me of such minor incidents. I thank God for He is still teaching me to be really sensitive to minor details, minor action that how such small things are the seeds to bigger things. Just like a mustard seed, it is small in size. How insignificant or unnoticeable it can, after rain and storm, it can grow into a large tree; like a bacteria, so small and tiny, yet it can multiple and be potential harmful in numbers. Thus in all, although I may feel a little discomfort with all things develop without me knowing. I just pray to God one thing: If thy led me to this, thy will lead me from this. Thus I commit myself to God. Let thy will be done, and let thy will be my will too. It is not how I feel and choose but what I choose to do despite of how I feel. I choose now to follow your heart and be sensitive to Your prompting. In all, over all through all, You are the God of my heart and my life. I am yours from the beginning till the end. Let the Me bow down in awe. Make sure my heart remains soft and tender,sensitive to Your doing.
Monday, March 31, 2008
Refreshing worship, renewing faith, rebuilding love
Refreshing worship. It was indeed one that was long due for a while for me, personally on Friday, 28 Mar 2008. Also a day in which was a little surprising for me as just a small note that just to mention that my mum birthday, it turned out to be a day off for her....Praise God...And Thank God for it. Nothing is better than to enjoy in His presence and fill up with His love.
Renewing Faith. It was really an renewing experience. I was doing my last HT duty. Managed to speak with YP with a few words...knowing she is on leave for this week.....woah...I wish I can be on leave too.... but well for me ....on leave = no pay......
Well this is not the main point....the key point was after I left expo to meeting Miss E for dinner at Tiong Bahru. As I was early, I was walking around and was alittle tired. In addition, my heart was a little itchy. I was assuming at that point, may I thinking too much of this girl or that girl...or why is it that I am feeling this way... Thus as I look around for a place to sit down, I finally settled to sit at Yakun, not knowing where it will be. Despite not sure of the place, I still finally found it, order my bread and sat down beside someone who is reading a book...that quoted some bible verses.
So finally I sat down. I took a peek at the book beside me....and after I intending to open my usual book - 10 Passion of Man's Soul. A question just asked. "Are you a Christian?" That started off the conservation. Her name is Ruth. A faithful servant of God. The only christian in her family. She is non-chinese, indian. She was not feeling well, and miss service due to that. She is comfortably sitten there in that usual seat. As she was feeling stressed about the situation that happened in her family while God is opening the door mircalously for her into a bible school, on a counselling course on Bible school. With the course just starting in 2 weeks, she felt lost. Just needed a listening year. A 9 year-old christian, however being faithful and her faith level is really of a different level. It was an encouragement to meet to be there as I was really touched by God that He will use me in such accord, such situation just to hear another sister in christ. I was really reminded and touched and convinced with one fact: God, you are awesome. You really love your people. You really love to use your people to bless your people. I couldn't imagine that you will use me in such a way. Lord I cried out....let my heart be tender. Let my heart be obedient to your prompting. It is a joy to serve you.....even in such small ways.
Lastly Rebuilding love. After that dinner, a chat with Miss E. And then went off with her, together with her beloved one, back to her home. The first time after knowing her for like 3 years. However it will turn out to be a night of a difference. As both J and I tried to help her give her article review inputs, her allergy rashes start to appear. As stress builds up, the itch increasingly becomes unbearable, the last straw was upon her then. A & E.....she just want to go A & E....increased frustation and intorelance. It became a challenge for me to keep calm and really encourage and encourage and encourage and encourage. Stress management during such times of high emotional interaction. I thank God that He has input such stability and calmness into me. So both of us, after doing a substantial amount of the work, sent her to the hospital. After medication and seeing that there is no real need to admit her to the hospital, also there isn't any sure and good way too, the doctor sent her home with 3 day MC. It was really heart-felt feelings seeing her going through all the pain and discomfort. However, as I strongly believe, being positive and just be "in control" is the best approach to such a situation. Seeing how one react so impatiently due to discomfort is really stressful. Every act of hurting self.....really like piercing into my heart. But I know, and I told God......this is your area. I am clueless and helpless....You are the only one who can help her. Through this situation, it taught me. "How much do I really love someone"...."If I love someone deeply, to what extent will I remain calm and not be panic" To love someone in distress really test one's love for the person. I only one thing to cry out to God.....not for me to be able to love that person more....but to ask for more capacity to love others more. God enlarge my capacity.
Through these 3 R.....it was really a fruitful week. And in just 3 days, God just taught me so many things. I just only have one simple thing. God dun forsake me and teach me more of you.....
Renewing Faith. It was really an renewing experience. I was doing my last HT duty. Managed to speak with YP with a few words...knowing she is on leave for this week.....woah...I wish I can be on leave too.... but well for me ....on leave = no pay......
Well this is not the main point....the key point was after I left expo to meeting Miss E for dinner at Tiong Bahru. As I was early, I was walking around and was alittle tired. In addition, my heart was a little itchy. I was assuming at that point, may I thinking too much of this girl or that girl...or why is it that I am feeling this way... Thus as I look around for a place to sit down, I finally settled to sit at Yakun, not knowing where it will be. Despite not sure of the place, I still finally found it, order my bread and sat down beside someone who is reading a book...that quoted some bible verses.
So finally I sat down. I took a peek at the book beside me....and after I intending to open my usual book - 10 Passion of Man's Soul. A question just asked. "Are you a Christian?" That started off the conservation. Her name is Ruth. A faithful servant of God. The only christian in her family. She is non-chinese, indian. She was not feeling well, and miss service due to that. She is comfortably sitten there in that usual seat. As she was feeling stressed about the situation that happened in her family while God is opening the door mircalously for her into a bible school, on a counselling course on Bible school. With the course just starting in 2 weeks, she felt lost. Just needed a listening year. A 9 year-old christian, however being faithful and her faith level is really of a different level. It was an encouragement to meet to be there as I was really touched by God that He will use me in such accord, such situation just to hear another sister in christ. I was really reminded and touched and convinced with one fact: God, you are awesome. You really love your people. You really love to use your people to bless your people. I couldn't imagine that you will use me in such a way. Lord I cried out....let my heart be tender. Let my heart be obedient to your prompting. It is a joy to serve you.....even in such small ways.
Lastly Rebuilding love. After that dinner, a chat with Miss E. And then went off with her, together with her beloved one, back to her home. The first time after knowing her for like 3 years. However it will turn out to be a night of a difference. As both J and I tried to help her give her article review inputs, her allergy rashes start to appear. As stress builds up, the itch increasingly becomes unbearable, the last straw was upon her then. A & E.....she just want to go A & E....increased frustation and intorelance. It became a challenge for me to keep calm and really encourage and encourage and encourage and encourage. Stress management during such times of high emotional interaction. I thank God that He has input such stability and calmness into me. So both of us, after doing a substantial amount of the work, sent her to the hospital. After medication and seeing that there is no real need to admit her to the hospital, also there isn't any sure and good way too, the doctor sent her home with 3 day MC. It was really heart-felt feelings seeing her going through all the pain and discomfort. However, as I strongly believe, being positive and just be "in control" is the best approach to such a situation. Seeing how one react so impatiently due to discomfort is really stressful. Every act of hurting self.....really like piercing into my heart. But I know, and I told God......this is your area. I am clueless and helpless....You are the only one who can help her. Through this situation, it taught me. "How much do I really love someone"...."If I love someone deeply, to what extent will I remain calm and not be panic" To love someone in distress really test one's love for the person. I only one thing to cry out to God.....not for me to be able to love that person more....but to ask for more capacity to love others more. God enlarge my capacity.
Through these 3 R.....it was really a fruitful week. And in just 3 days, God just taught me so many things. I just only have one simple thing. God dun forsake me and teach me more of you.....
Saturday, March 29, 2008
A great re-union and a poking
A delayed report on Thur 27 Mar 2008. I finally saw her..... yup after so many years...... since 2002...a total of 6 years But this time she is not getting away....sounds so subjective.... Well I saw Esther, one of my long lost JC mates when she went for an event at Settler's Cafe. Instantly we connected and as she enjoyed herself.......
Really as I looked back and as I had already "dated" (just ask out for just a dinner), I recalled back the goodness of God. He knows in my heart that a breakthrough, in this session of reconcilation of relationship. He knows how much she, as a person, is my life of heart. Thus in all things, I still give thanks to God. I look forward to the dinner appointment, though I am uncertain and unsure where to eat, what to wear. 15 Apr 2008. That will be a day to remember.
The other thing will be the poking thing.....as for the 2nd time in a round, I left out my good brother Zhongyu from a CPD-related thing. Thus this time round, coming wednesday, I will be asking him along, hopefully that my schedule allows. Thus have to keep him in the loop of such events that is coming up.
Anyway, all these things, I just want to thank God. And praise God....coz He is a God that really take care of all our needs. He is tender and sensitive. Yet He is lovely to disciple us and never let us go in times of trouble and needs. No God is like Him. He is the God of Gods, the fathers of all fathers. Blessed
Really as I looked back and as I had already "dated" (just ask out for just a dinner), I recalled back the goodness of God. He knows in my heart that a breakthrough, in this session of reconcilation of relationship. He knows how much she, as a person, is my life of heart. Thus in all things, I still give thanks to God. I look forward to the dinner appointment, though I am uncertain and unsure where to eat, what to wear. 15 Apr 2008. That will be a day to remember.
The other thing will be the poking thing.....as for the 2nd time in a round, I left out my good brother Zhongyu from a CPD-related thing. Thus this time round, coming wednesday, I will be asking him along, hopefully that my schedule allows. Thus have to keep him in the loop of such events that is coming up.
Anyway, all these things, I just want to thank God. And praise God....coz He is a God that really take care of all our needs. He is tender and sensitive. Yet He is lovely to disciple us and never let us go in times of trouble and needs. No God is like Him. He is the God of Gods, the fathers of all fathers. Blessed
Thursday, March 27, 2008
A simple incident today with just a simple word
I was travelling down intending to attend the Family Festival Free Lunchtime Talk@ One Raffles Quay. The lunchtime talk is organised by TCS Family Service in conjunction with the theme of Strengthening marriage and touching family talk, on progress towards Marriage Convention. The topic in the early part of lunch time was about Happy Ever After: How to make a Right Choice?
However there was suddenly another invitation for the weekly prayer meeting at CBD area. Thus I asked the Lord for direction. Which to go? As both seemingly to me some have personal agenda in it. By His grace, He gave me a very simple word from Matthew 6:21 - For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Indeed I fully agree as it was a message that was preached at service before. Where our treasures are,our heart will follow suit. However on a deeper level of thinking, both choices contain treasure. As another form of interpretation, it can be said in another way, where our heart is, there is where our treasure is. Thus I was sufficiently contented about the 1-verse answer and I seek for more. The talk was definitely some that will help me gain more knowledge. The prayer meeting, one invited and told by YP, will be one that is gaining prayerful ground in the marketplace and others personal grounds too. Thus making sure that my heart is right, I seek again.
This time, God just send another word, "Look carefully, observe the Word before." I remembered that as we read and interpret God's word, we have to read them in the context. Thus I read the verse preceeding verse 21. Verse 20: But store up for yourselves treasure in heaven, where moth and rust do not desroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. That required a bit of my thinking and asking. What are treasures in heaven? Knowledge is something that is gained for purpose and use on Earth. Slowly as I grinded the Word, and sense the enlightenment. Prayer is really building treasure in heaven in another way. This is due to the fact that we are faithfully asking for spiritual breakthrough. Or in other words, spiritual clouds that will rain blessing upon the area that we asked and prayed for. That assure and focus my heart, that although I was still a bit conscious, after the release of the Word, I was assure more of my purpose. Thus I went ahead for the prayer meeting instead.
Indeed it was a fruitful prayer meeting. Where I learnt a few things, some personal one and other Godly ones. Firstly, I was panickic afte realising where did I misplace my organiser. Thus I was thinking about during the prayer meeting. That distraction led me to learn as I read the book 10 Passion of a Man's Soul, on the chapter on Self-Perservation. There was a statement of truth takeaway that mentioned: Emotional maturity is being able to handle and process the instability of life with adequate resources. As I recalled, that is something where a few component are required, faith, trust and just pure knowledge of own identity in Christ. This is where growth begins, spiritual and emotionally. Indeed it was a lesson reinforced.
Thus in conclusion, where one is like flies around the counter on a mis-sent SMS. Where one luckily didn't added like a jokingly love for someone. However all these unknown and uncertainity, it really takes a pure heart, a clear mind, an attentive ear and sharps eyes to realise where and to know where God is directing. As in simple, God's plans are higher than mine; His way is higher than mine; His Best is indeed the best of the best.
However there was suddenly another invitation for the weekly prayer meeting at CBD area. Thus I asked the Lord for direction. Which to go? As both seemingly to me some have personal agenda in it. By His grace, He gave me a very simple word from Matthew 6:21 - For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Indeed I fully agree as it was a message that was preached at service before. Where our treasures are,our heart will follow suit. However on a deeper level of thinking, both choices contain treasure. As another form of interpretation, it can be said in another way, where our heart is, there is where our treasure is. Thus I was sufficiently contented about the 1-verse answer and I seek for more. The talk was definitely some that will help me gain more knowledge. The prayer meeting, one invited and told by YP, will be one that is gaining prayerful ground in the marketplace and others personal grounds too. Thus making sure that my heart is right, I seek again.
This time, God just send another word, "Look carefully, observe the Word before." I remembered that as we read and interpret God's word, we have to read them in the context. Thus I read the verse preceeding verse 21. Verse 20: But store up for yourselves treasure in heaven, where moth and rust do not desroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. That required a bit of my thinking and asking. What are treasures in heaven? Knowledge is something that is gained for purpose and use on Earth. Slowly as I grinded the Word, and sense the enlightenment. Prayer is really building treasure in heaven in another way. This is due to the fact that we are faithfully asking for spiritual breakthrough. Or in other words, spiritual clouds that will rain blessing upon the area that we asked and prayed for. That assure and focus my heart, that although I was still a bit conscious, after the release of the Word, I was assure more of my purpose. Thus I went ahead for the prayer meeting instead.
Indeed it was a fruitful prayer meeting. Where I learnt a few things, some personal one and other Godly ones. Firstly, I was panickic afte realising where did I misplace my organiser. Thus I was thinking about during the prayer meeting. That distraction led me to learn as I read the book 10 Passion of a Man's Soul, on the chapter on Self-Perservation. There was a statement of truth takeaway that mentioned: Emotional maturity is being able to handle and process the instability of life with adequate resources. As I recalled, that is something where a few component are required, faith, trust and just pure knowledge of own identity in Christ. This is where growth begins, spiritual and emotionally. Indeed it was a lesson reinforced.
Thus in conclusion, where one is like flies around the counter on a mis-sent SMS. Where one luckily didn't added like a jokingly love for someone. However all these unknown and uncertainity, it really takes a pure heart, a clear mind, an attentive ear and sharps eyes to realise where and to know where God is directing. As in simple, God's plans are higher than mine; His way is higher than mine; His Best is indeed the best of the best.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
To Remember the 3 days of Santification
1st day......was dozing off I guess.....but God just restor that focus for me to him.......felt me with the love and restored me..........was really touched and refreshed by his love....
2nd day....when Ps talks about hubby.....and guys....selfish and ....the things......God spoke to me how I communicated to this sister in christ who stays near my house.....and affirmed how my words can really evoked the beauty of others......I was convicted and convinced......God help me to be that man.....coz you know my heart.....I really want to love ......and teach me in all way
today, 3rd day.......was dis-focus from phone calls that I missed......committed an event proposal to God for the cafe to handle as it was relating to my ex-boss......and Praise God......things cooled down abit....and things are back in God's hand....the love of God just kept my tears when I witness the feet washing 1st point =
self-image n security...trying to relate it as I know it was a time I was surrendering the work to him. The work that he completed after the service. Security and self-image......to know who I am in Christ....to endure the 4 -5 special F words but yet say thank you and remember God loves me for who I am. Praise to be God. I think I was reminded about Shuhui, Grace Gan and the sister and people ( whom are mainly Sister ...faintz) who played some part, by God's grace and timing and position......to crave and mould the person I am.....continue that work God !!!!
2nd day....when Ps talks about hubby.....and guys....selfish and ....the things......God spoke to me how I communicated to this sister in christ who stays near my house.....and affirmed how my words can really evoked the beauty of others......I was convicted and convinced......God help me to be that man.....coz you know my heart.....I really want to love ......and teach me in all way
today, 3rd day.......was dis-focus from phone calls that I missed......committed an event proposal to God for the cafe to handle as it was relating to my ex-boss......and Praise God......things cooled down abit....and things are back in God's hand....the love of God just kept my tears when I witness the feet washing 1st point =
self-image n security...trying to relate it as I know it was a time I was surrendering the work to him. The work that he completed after the service. Security and self-image......to know who I am in Christ....to endure the 4 -5 special F words but yet say thank you and remember God loves me for who I am. Praise to be God. I think I was reminded about Shuhui, Grace Gan and the sister and people ( whom are mainly Sister ...faintz) who played some part, by God's grace and timing and position......to crave and mould the person I am.....continue that work God !!!!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Remind me to write about the experience in RL288 retreat
This is written so that in time I will write down and remember the RL288 retreat experience. So stay due, me, I will get that done.......
Yup now.....after many months 28 Sept 2008.
What I can remember of the camp....
Night of a call - Yup a call came in....and need to talk and calm someone. Well it will quite obvious who....
The notes and message: Family John 15. How remain in the vine. Pruning. Fruitfulness.....woah hopefully all these are integrated already.
Hope I will remember to find those notes to look through....
Yup now.....after many months 28 Sept 2008.
What I can remember of the camp....
Night of a call - Yup a call came in....and need to talk and calm someone. Well it will quite obvious who....
The notes and message: Family John 15. How remain in the vine. Pruning. Fruitfulness.....woah hopefully all these are integrated already.
Hope I will remember to find those notes to look through....
Remind me to write about the experience in RL288 retreat
This is written so that in time I will write down and remember the RL288 retreat experience. So stay due, me, I will get that done.......
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Special Sunday
Today was a special sunday......a day where there is combined meeting....the last day of IT show that I didn't went at all. A day after a 16 hours shift work. A day that my HP hung on me.......the alarm that hung on me. Without the alarm......I woke up only to know that I have 55 minutes to reach Expo for the combined Family service. 55 minutes to travel, bath, brush my teeth. Strongly doubt I could make it in time for service....even if I did....not sure whether will I be admined into the hall.....where like the whole church is in one 7,000 seater hall.....it has to be a grand sight....7000 people worship at the same place.
Stayed at the home the whole day.....didn't managed to finished up much. Looking at my accounts just now.....really something that will be a challenge of faith as I overspend like 400. This month already spend 300. I like post-drafting my accounts.....but I thank God it is still maintaining about the 1000 mark. Any kind people who see this...can sponsor abit to me.........wierd idea.....though how true are things to come.
Journey has a starting point.....and all journeys along the road there are choices, as presented in cross road......especially ones that are in the desert where everywhere looks about the same....thus the way to know where to go is to know what to go to. This is something that will what some says the faith direction. Or direction of faith. More to come and more to go.
Stayed at the home the whole day.....didn't managed to finished up much. Looking at my accounts just now.....really something that will be a challenge of faith as I overspend like 400. This month already spend 300. I like post-drafting my accounts.....but I thank God it is still maintaining about the 1000 mark. Any kind people who see this...can sponsor abit to me.........wierd idea.....though how true are things to come.
Journey has a starting point.....and all journeys along the road there are choices, as presented in cross road......especially ones that are in the desert where everywhere looks about the same....thus the way to know where to go is to know what to go to. This is something that will what some says the faith direction. Or direction of faith. More to come and more to go.
Friday, March 07, 2008
Wierd Thursday
Today is one day that will be very wierd........Check my schedule and realise that I was not suppose to be where I was.....at home thinking that I was not on shift. Thus I had to rush down to cafe via cab........for a not busy night....but I guess it is worth the effort. Getting to see Amy and Evonne as they had their wine appreciation night at WineBose. Also I get to learn 2 games today, Ilad and Fury of Dracula.
Today also heard an interesting news.....seems like TMK is attached already....with who....well...that is something I am not sure about.....well....since noone will read this blog....so no one will know who is TMK.....and no one will ask who TMK is......let history come in to replace the present. No wonder today was a night of a difference........rarely see TMK wear in that way......so not usual....well....at that status....things are just different
Today also heard an interesting news.....seems like TMK is attached already....with who....well...that is something I am not sure about.....well....since noone will read this blog....so no one will know who is TMK.....and no one will ask who TMK is......let history come in to replace the present. No wonder today was a night of a difference........rarely see TMK wear in that way......so not usual....well....at that status....things are just different
Monday, March 03, 2008
Fruitful Week 24/29
2 Meal gathering. One on 24 Feb 2008 Dinner at Wakaru? Japanese restaurant(? ? ?) to have a short time of dinner. Although the main guest was unable to make it for Family commitment, still all had a great time. 3 FCBC including myself and another B.D = from another church. Rain. Haha.... Only my CGL was talking to Rain's friend = from adult network.....they seems to click quite well....or perhaps they found a common topic. Always interesting to hear people talk. Well for my side.....as I was un-conditioned for late nights 2 nights in the row....so a little tired....so does Rain too......just came down from Airshow. But in the end, though the food was a little too much for me.....the overall was good....at least managed to get some private time though.......5 minutes which is a lot......I think the 5 minutes we spoke a majority or the 1 hr plus there. Overall, it was a great time of catching up, in the end, no agenda fulfilled....but all thanks to God.
The second one, which spinned off from this previous one....was a surprise quick-speed to me. Like sunday just called Joanna.....then drop YP a msg....then like wednesday setting friday lunch.....very fast.....although in the end I seems to be the target board of all the questions....well, at least get to catch up with them, Joanna and YP. Hearing how's the working life in Govt. sector. So different from mine. Well I wonder did I let off too much info....not about myself. But about others.....but well...all are in safe hands for my future is in the hands of a all knowing God. Looks like there is quite a chance to have lunch together quite often. Now comes the control system part....how often....well....I guess once every month such be ok......though I still miss someone, 2 to be exact....one for 1 yr coming 2, the other since before Uni. Really hope to see both of them, in whom one is a teacher, the other is an accountant. Seems like I have some affinity/affilation/with opportunity with accountants. I already know like 8 accountants, using like 30 seconds of memory power. Well, what say who, who say where, and where say why, JYP..... Combined name. Crazy.......
In conclusion of both, there is just one very important thing that sums up both gathering....that is a daily pslams with a disciple to fast one meal a day really increase the enjoyment....coz all relationship evolves from the first relationship, relationship between God and Man. Thus, as reading Pslams daily, it really brings joys and comfort, with encouragement and strength to continue the days of trials, the days of faith. believing where God wants to place me. To Him, all glory and grace behold.
The second one, which spinned off from this previous one....was a surprise quick-speed to me. Like sunday just called Joanna.....then drop YP a msg....then like wednesday setting friday lunch.....very fast.....although in the end I seems to be the target board of all the questions....well, at least get to catch up with them, Joanna and YP. Hearing how's the working life in Govt. sector. So different from mine. Well I wonder did I let off too much info....not about myself. But about others.....but well...all are in safe hands for my future is in the hands of a all knowing God. Looks like there is quite a chance to have lunch together quite often. Now comes the control system part....how often....well....I guess once every month such be ok......though I still miss someone, 2 to be exact....one for 1 yr coming 2, the other since before Uni. Really hope to see both of them, in whom one is a teacher, the other is an accountant. Seems like I have some affinity/affilation/with opportunity with accountants. I already know like 8 accountants, using like 30 seconds of memory power. Well, what say who, who say where, and where say why, JYP..... Combined name. Crazy.......
In conclusion of both, there is just one very important thing that sums up both gathering....that is a daily pslams with a disciple to fast one meal a day really increase the enjoyment....coz all relationship evolves from the first relationship, relationship between God and Man. Thus, as reading Pslams daily, it really brings joys and comfort, with encouragement and strength to continue the days of trials, the days of faith. believing where God wants to place me. To Him, all glory and grace behold.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Start of a new era
It is really a start of a new era......new things happening.... Here are some reports and updates since the last time. New developments:
1. Career: Had a job appointment before CNY.....training event business....interesting job scope. Also there is a flexible deadline-tied job scope that I managed to reply somethings back. Well waiting for more details to come.
2. Relationship: Not my main priority....but I guess I am more relaxed than before....despite the unstable career path that I am embarking. Not much of progress and earning not more that the maximum I once got. Thus had to really work hard, learn hard.....Yup as I know more people, I learned what are the actual qualities that attracts me.....and what I feel are the one that may complements.....In all, the Lord is the best Matchmaker.....He has the best person in mind for me. So Happy Fishing......for good fish to steam and eat......I mean to learn cooking.
3. Initimacy, Inter-dependance, Integration: The 3 I for the year of Sabbeth. Where I rest upon the Lord.....and yet still be busy with daily work. However with the a day a Psalms....was really refreshing and energizing to read God's Word daily and have the daily nourishment. With that, I feel more energy to restart my daily prayer soon....I can feel that it is all coming back.....and I feel so overjoyed and excited now....especially with the opportunity to serve again in HT in March. What is more worthy that to have a great time with God....the closest and most understanding friend....
In all, let the new era begins.....and knowing more people.........24 Feb.....a special day to remember.....
1. Career: Had a job appointment before CNY.....training event business....interesting job scope. Also there is a flexible deadline-tied job scope that I managed to reply somethings back. Well waiting for more details to come.
2. Relationship: Not my main priority....but I guess I am more relaxed than before....despite the unstable career path that I am embarking. Not much of progress and earning not more that the maximum I once got. Thus had to really work hard, learn hard.....Yup as I know more people, I learned what are the actual qualities that attracts me.....and what I feel are the one that may complements.....In all, the Lord is the best Matchmaker.....He has the best person in mind for me. So Happy Fishing......for good fish to steam and eat......I mean to learn cooking.
3. Initimacy, Inter-dependance, Integration: The 3 I for the year of Sabbeth. Where I rest upon the Lord.....and yet still be busy with daily work. However with the a day a Psalms....was really refreshing and energizing to read God's Word daily and have the daily nourishment. With that, I feel more energy to restart my daily prayer soon....I can feel that it is all coming back.....and I feel so overjoyed and excited now....especially with the opportunity to serve again in HT in March. What is more worthy that to have a great time with God....the closest and most understanding friend....
In all, let the new era begins.....and knowing more people.........24 Feb.....a special day to remember.....
Friday, February 01, 2008
Obeying God's word
This is something that I came across when I was packing my room. I felt I should, in order to kill more trees, recycle more paper and get this into soft copy.
Happened on 24/02/2002 0133
After G12 Conference, I was too late to take bus to AMK to be able to catch my last 169. 2 suggestion came: Jerome house or Changi Airpot. I SMS home, hoping that my DAD may come and fetch me, but to avail. I followed Christian and Kenny to MRT, blindly faithly, even train to Tanah Merah has been annouced to have left. Upon boarding th bus, I had some hopes that I may be able to catch the last bus down to Yishun and I prayed for God's Ggrace and favour to be upon me. Even before I reached the stop I supposed to alight, I heard a voice "Algiht Now" stunned,only moments later, I realise I missed my last bus and had to walked a little further. It was as of the 1st ttime. I remembered sharing about rejection in my life to J,K,T,C (cant remember who already) and that prompted my unkownly to ask "God, have you forsaken me, rejected me? ...... missing the bus...."
God replied with " Have you, Fredrik rejected me?" I felt guilty of it, of reject God the way people had rejected me. I repented. And God convicted me of disobidence to his word.....
"To honour thy parents" A phrase for 2001 the year of brokeness (BGR). I knew I did not obey God, resuting I was not growing....unstable....broken BGR...laost one that I so-called cherished/valued much. I humbly obeyed to pray for my parents on Sunday 24 02 2002. by God's grace & word...." Blessed are those who humbly obey and serve" Half / 3/4 walking journey back home, when I was already weary and tired after the reflection, a taxi drive (Christian Methodist) picked me up and drove me back home. god's grace upon those who chose to obey him -> God's is in CONTROL. Amen.
Happened on 24/02/2002 0133
After G12 Conference, I was too late to take bus to AMK to be able to catch my last 169. 2 suggestion came: Jerome house or Changi Airpot. I SMS home, hoping that my DAD may come and fetch me, but to avail. I followed Christian and Kenny to MRT, blindly faithly, even train to Tanah Merah has been annouced to have left. Upon boarding th bus, I had some hopes that I may be able to catch the last bus down to Yishun and I prayed for God's Ggrace and favour to be upon me. Even before I reached the stop I supposed to alight, I heard a voice "Algiht Now" stunned,only moments later, I realise I missed my last bus and had to walked a little further. It was as of the 1st ttime. I remembered sharing about rejection in my life to J,K,T,C (cant remember who already) and that prompted my unkownly to ask "God, have you forsaken me, rejected me? ...... missing the bus...."
God replied with " Have you, Fredrik rejected me?" I felt guilty of it, of reject God the way people had rejected me. I repented. And God convicted me of disobidence to his word.....
"To honour thy parents" A phrase for 2001 the year of brokeness (BGR). I knew I did not obey God, resuting I was not growing....unstable....broken BGR...laost one that I so-called cherished/valued much. I humbly obeyed to pray for my parents on Sunday 24 02 2002. by God's grace & word...." Blessed are those who humbly obey and serve" Half / 3/4 walking journey back home, when I was already weary and tired after the reflection, a taxi drive (Christian Methodist) picked me up and drove me back home. god's grace upon those who chose to obey him -> God's is in CONTROL. Amen.
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