Refreshing worship, renewing faith, rebuilding love

Refreshing worship. It was indeed one that was long due for a while for me, personally on Friday, 28 Mar 2008. Also a day in which was a little surprising for me as just a small note that just to mention that my mum birthday, it turned out to be a day off for her....Praise God...And Thank God for it. Nothing is better than to enjoy in His presence and fill up with His love.

Renewing Faith. It was really an renewing experience. I was doing my last HT duty. Managed to speak with YP with a few words...knowing she is on leave for this week.....woah...I wish I can be on leave too.... but well for me ....on leave = no pay......

Well this is not the main point....the key point was after I left expo to meeting Miss E for dinner at Tiong Bahru. As I was early, I was walking around and was alittle tired. In addition, my heart was a little itchy. I was assuming at that point, may I thinking too much of this girl or that girl...or why is it that I am feeling this way... Thus as I look around for a place to sit down, I finally settled to sit at Yakun, not knowing where it will be. Despite not sure of the place, I still finally found it, order my bread and sat down beside someone who is reading a book...that quoted some bible verses.

So finally I sat down. I took a peek at the book beside me....and after I intending to open my usual book - 10 Passion of Man's Soul. A question just asked. "Are you a Christian?" That started off the conservation. Her name is Ruth. A faithful servant of God. The only christian in her family. She is non-chinese, indian. She was not feeling well, and miss service due to that. She is comfortably sitten there in that usual seat. As she was feeling stressed about the situation that happened in her family while God is opening the door mircalously for her into a bible school, on a counselling course on Bible school. With the course just starting in 2 weeks, she felt lost. Just needed a listening year. A 9 year-old christian, however being faithful and her faith level is really of a different level. It was an encouragement to meet to be there as I was really touched by God that He will use me in such accord, such situation just to hear another sister in christ. I was really reminded and touched and convinced with one fact: God, you are awesome. You really love your people. You really love to use your people to bless your people. I couldn't imagine that you will use me in such a way. Lord I cried out....let my heart be tender. Let my heart be obedient to your prompting. It is a joy to serve you.....even in such small ways.

Lastly Rebuilding love. After that dinner, a chat with Miss E. And then went off with her, together with her beloved one, back to her home. The first time after knowing her for like 3 years. However it will turn out to be a night of a difference. As both J and I tried to help her give her article review inputs, her allergy rashes start to appear. As stress builds up, the itch increasingly becomes unbearable, the last straw was upon her then. A & E.....she just want to go A & E....increased frustation and intorelance. It became a challenge for me to keep calm and really encourage and encourage and encourage and encourage. Stress management during such times of high emotional interaction. I thank God that He has input such stability and calmness into me. So both of us, after doing a substantial amount of the work, sent her to the hospital. After medication and seeing that there is no real need to admit her to the hospital, also there isn't any sure and good way too, the doctor sent her home with 3 day MC. It was really heart-felt feelings seeing her going through all the pain and discomfort. However, as I strongly believe, being positive and just be "in control" is the best approach to such a situation. Seeing how one react so impatiently due to discomfort is really stressful. Every act of hurting self.....really like piercing into my heart. But I know, and I told God......this is your area. I am clueless and helpless....You are the only one who can help her. Through this situation, it taught me. "How much do I really love someone"...."If I love someone deeply, to what extent will I remain calm and not be panic" To love someone in distress really test one's love for the person. I only one thing to cry out to God.....not for me to be able to love that person more....but to ask for more capacity to love others more. God enlarge my capacity.

Through these 3 R.....it was really a fruitful week. And in just 3 days, God just taught me so many things. I just only have one simple thing. God dun forsake me and teach me more of you.....