Things I still dun understand

DATE: 10/28/2005 09:19:26 AM

Even since DMH or DMG, changes have being made and situation have changed too. There are still things that I dun not understand. Also believing that this blog noone would bother to come and read, thus there is no fear about it anyway... Also those who are going to read this blog, are likely not be involved. Thus there is no harm to write freely in this. Of course being me, and me, that is the limit.

First to start with, well I have reduced my talking around and avoiding talking to ... well am I making it too obvious. But this is for people to know and find out but well not that I would care less, but I know that God is just doing a work in me, and He is just helping me to stay focus..... there are just so many reason and supporting reason behind it, tons of those that I could get that off my fingertips, except still when so and so is around, I just wonder why I still CMI !!! Behinds I really CMI, and I should just surrender it fully, get back to just focus fully towards God and just be X-CP. Well though I may be complaining now, however, deep in my heart, I can confidently say this, God, you are one and I believe fully in your plans. Just let me do what you wanna me to do is more important. Life is still meaningful and purposeful when withou so & so. Anyway, this issue have degarded to the extent that there are more important things around other than this, unless situation arises that I am caught off-guard and surprised. But from what I understand so & so, things will not happen if I do no lose control.

Secondly, with a great news that may be coming, but why am I affected by it. A great start for someone, but may I trying to do too much last minute work??? May I trying to break things up or just wishing them the best of blessing, giving my best and hope to them the best??? After sharing with my DGL, I know I am far from ready. And too, do I really want, or have I want so much to an extent I already given up hope, and I am doing now is just fanning a rekindled fire??? The desire of my heart is for the person to know who God really is, and from then, God, with great wisdom, and guide the person towards a direction. I guess me hoping to go thru the materials from SOL1 will help and keep in focus, something that should not have a structure and just flows, to be one that is useful and not lose control. It is not about falling into it but growing into it. This is something that I learnt and I wish to remember it. All this is just a seperate thing, but an extension of friendship. A pro-longing of friendship to a different level. Guess despite I may think I know, maybe in actual fact, I do not know anything. But important and best thing is. God is God.

Lastly, regarding surprise birthday. Well, though many many times since then, I may have mentioned that I will disappear from my birthday. But no-one really wish to know what I actually want. Perhaps in the first place I do not know. Perhaps I just do not have the fortune to have such things. A total of 3 such things I have attended, but I guess me being a smart person, it is hard for me to be surprised. But I know, though I am shy to cry in such situation, I dun mind really tearing with joy....but that will take a lot of effort and seriously, no one I know will do such a thing to me for it takes a lot of wisdom to do so...Reason being, since I have already mention this in this blog, when the time comes again, I am unusually sensitive and hyperactive to things around me. I dun mind planning for surprise for others, but unfortunately, I cant plan any for myself. Well, nonetheless, God is good all the time. I will not die without it.

In conclusion, since this blog is not going to be read by anyone, so a conclusion is not really needed. Why conclude when there is no need start in the first place. God bless....God pray....A daily stable walk with God....the best conclusion despite everything. CHS or whatever. There are a total of 4 cai that I know, among, 2 I still know now and the other 2.....just away. then.

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How to reach unity in the Body of Christ via preparing God’s people for works of service?

DATE: 10/23/2005 07:34:43 AM

Preparation work required for God’s people for works of service V1 Live a life worthy of the calling you have received

How?

v2 Be completely humble and gentle; be patient; bearing with one another in love.

Humble to receive, gentle with the calling = gift

Patient to wait for results Bearing with one another in love – Tolerating each other – each endure one another as we are all in diversity

Bearing- to suffer without complaining A life worthy of the calling = service to God = constantly attacked by the evil ones:

Ephesians 6:12 “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”

V3 Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace Why?

V4-6 There is one body and one Spirit – just as you were called to one hope when you were called – one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all, who is over and through all and in all.

Let compare V5 and V6

V5 One Lord = V6 Over all. He is Lord, King of King. He is the Lord, thus he can be considered to be Over all, over all things. Where over can means ruler / Lordship.

V5 One faith = V6 Through all. It is faith that brings us through all things. Faith in Lord is one basis, a point in life where we start to ask from him, a trigger for our desire and a direction change of focus to him to become the source of all

V5 One baptism = V6 In all. Baptism, from our church practise involves immersion, which in terms, in water. As there is only one baptism in our life, we can be in all of God’s given life and blessing once we went through that one baptism. After baptism, we are going into a new life, new beginning that God has given us. Thus One baptism can be related to In all.

As these are interesting side point for ponder, we can somewhat agree in a way that unity can be maintained with bond of peace = diplomacy. Incidents and events in history can prove that there exists some situation where peace can be the mediator of unity.

V7 Recognise the grace and blessing that Christ have apportioned

V8b “When he ascended on high, he led captives in his train and gave gifts to men.” →V1a As a prisoner for the Lord = prisoner of the world but for the Lord!

V11 It was he who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelist and some to be pastors and teachers The chapter begins with “As a prisoner for the Lord”, coupled with verse 11 that speaks of him being the one who gave us the gifts, which are the appointments of role for us in the family of God. The talents and blessings he have given us for his purpose, for his glory, and also creating chances for us, the best knowing way for us to know him more in depth through ministry and daily walk. Recognising the grace and blessing that Christ have apportioned to us is a gesture similar to acknowledge his sacrificial death as atonement for our sin on the cross. Just as we receive a new life as we believe Christ as our saviour, we too receive the calling, the grace and blessing that Christ have apportioned as we recognise it was him who gave some to be .., and he ascended on high, led captives in his train (his pathway) and gave gifts to men. V9-10 further illustrate he ascend and descend, the details to increase our understanding of his action.

A profound equation between one body and one spirit to one hope that we are all called to. There is a relationship between one body & one spirit with the hope. Body = world, spirit = heavenly. One hope = Christ/ God.

Why prepare God’s people for works of service?

V12b-13 Work of service until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ

Work of service allows us to have opportunities to put our faith upon God on things. “Chances” for God to work in our lives, knowing how God works via prayer and his Hand. Just like working together hand in hand with God. More contact time = more chance of interaction = better knowledge of God.

Maturity comes as we experience more with works of service. One can’t deny that through works of service after being prepared for it, that he would be able to understand and learn with the guidance of the Holy spirit, become mature in the way he/she thinks and attain the whole measure of the fullness of Christ. Doing the service itself have so much to yield, and the experience taken back are far more valuable that the books that we read. Thus why some experiences are sometimes hard to pen down.

V14 Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming.

Reasoning, processing verse of the results that are attained for v12b-13. Mature = no longer be infants. Attaining the whole measure of the fullness of Christ = we are saints. Yeah saints that have the wisdom and communication with God that our concern is of God and not of man, thus we will not be blown here and there, just like the spirit, but our spirit is guided by the Holy one. A spirit can be blown here and there by every wind of teaching and the schemes of men. However, one that have the knowledge of Christ, in unity of spirit through the bond of peace, as a saying, the more the merrier, the more the stronger too.

With V 12-14 may be too difficult and wide to cope and comprehend, V15 further simplify matters with: “Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ” After reasoning, a generalising point, speaking the truth IN LOVE. We can just plainly speak the truth, but we know that sometime the truth hurts, and the truth may be a hard pill, or a pill that is hard to swallow. The truth, the word of God, in his spirit, that we will in all things grows up into him who is the Head. This reaffirms points that were mention beforehand:

“Grows up into him” – Mature, no longer be infants “In all things”- Attaining the whole measure of the fullness

Combining these two phrases, we will have fulfilled what was mentioned in V13b, mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ

Here, too, firstly introduced that Christ is the head of the Body, where we grow into him. Grow into him, can be interpreted as growing to be like him, growing towards him, growing to know him more. This point is further illustrated in V16, “From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.”

From him, whom is the centre of things, the centre focus, we are all joined together. As explained in Biology, the head is where our brain is located. It is too, where all our actions, temperature, movement, reactions are controlled. Similar to Christ, He is the one who control all things, who to be saved, how are we going to save them, who to pray for, what to pray for, how our lives can be lived best for him in order for the best for us with the radiance for the glory of God. As supporting ligament can wear and tear, thus we have to grow and build itself up in love. The key words are grow, build, and in love. We can grow and build, but not in love, only with the objective of getting what we want, what we wish to obtain from God. Then how are we going to attain unity in the Body of Christ? We can grow and build in love, but however without each part doing its work, it is still the same effect. Imagine the heart say one day that he want to take a break from his work, then how would the other part of the body get their fresh blood transport goods, and get their waste transport. Similar to that of lungs with oxygen. As a Body of Christ, with Him as the head, from Him we are that joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work. Every word is important and just leaving as one of them out will not allow us to attain the unity in The Body of Christ, Unity of the Spirit.

Application: What are the steps that we should take?

Remember the steps:

1. Live a life worthy of the calling you have received

2. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace

3. Recognise the grace and blessing that Christ have apportioned From these steps on, remember the final stop, where is the ending point.

DMG done...thus evaluating DMH

DATE: 10/11/2005 06:45:55 AM

DMG = Damage is done. However after DMG, alphabetically, is DMH which is the follow points

1. D=Disobedience. True there is still some disobedience on my part, due to lack of faith, doubts and just plain rebellious. For I know that the fruits of disobedience is just disobedience which can lead to multiple things ahead. This being the first letter towards any damage that may possibly be done, it hold the keypoint to the other two things. With this area of my life settled, just like the blind getting vision, all other things of life will get into place. Thus ACtually I could just end of here but to further describe the situation, I will continue to the next point



2. M=Mistreatment. I will not deny mistreatment of others, but perhaps it is just my fault to be double agenda-ed. To speak with no agenda in mind, as being a defensive position is not actually the best way. Let God to be in the picture and his HS guidance with constant communion with Jesus will be the best solution to this. But it seriously hurt and bring doubt (as much as I speak of true concern and not mistreatment). Perhaps this may also manifest into a different form but both are of the same point. As I will elaborate the last point.



3. H=Harrassment. A strong word to begin with but not something to be taken lightly. Perhaps indeed I have overdo it, cross the boundaries and should retreat now before again someone will have to go to the altar for healing every now and then .What a dispressing information to know of the extent of hurt that can be caused upon. Till now, I have yet to seek reconcilation, and still wonder is there a need. Or should I surrender and move on? What is the best solution to this? Same as with now, what should I do now? Will history repeat itself or God will be acting differently now? For without 2 there is no 3, for without 1 there is no 2.

With all these 3 points, being 2 and 3 are more worldly, in which doing what is the easiest is escapism, thus choosing opposite to stay, to remain in the situation, to believe that God will pull me through. However, I could summaries all these to one point, which I believe strongly God is directing me towards, that is a prayful life for me to cultivate. One that is consistent and ever growing deep in relationship with him. With such a foundation in hand, there is nothing that will separate, nor tear apart, nor stumble for the foundation is built on Christ the ROCK. Yeah!

Spiritual maybe empty, but spiritual things can still be learnt through daily yielding to the spirit,.

Personality Style Description

DATE: 10/04/2005 06:42:32 AM

A team player, Mi readily relinquishes personal interests and goals to accommodate those close to mi. Mi is loyal to a fault; but others may sometimes question My unwavering dedication to current relationships and methods. Mi values security, and usually does my best to avoid sudden changes in my environment or situation.

Mi is a fact finder and does things "by the book". Mi can be sensitive if others are being critical of my work, especially if they have not carefully reviewed all the data. Mi have expectations before undertaking new projects, and mi works hard to meet standards. Mi will typically maintain a neat and orderly work environment.

Mi prefers a rational and moderate approach when first entering new situations and tries to avoid extremes. Mi likes the company of others, but Mi is equally comfortable spending a quiet evening alone. Mi is a realist who will always weigh my options before mi makes a decision to move ahead.

Mi would prefer things stay the same, rather than to risk a new venture (unless it is proven and true). Mi is typically peaceful and low key, and is usually seen by those around mi as a good friend and listener. Mi tends to adopt a "wait and see" attitude about things, rather than taking charge of a situation, usually preferring to let others take the lead.

This is the result done from the test at http://www.personalitystyle.com/User_Signup_Create.asp

Wierd URL....but thru this link....managed to get something DISC-evolved test description.

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Cry of my heart

DATE: 10/03/2005 05:54:46 AM

Oh! It being a while since I last blogged anything consistently. When it is due to the fact that I have to undergo a period of my life, to answer certain question which I silently always tried to avoid. Though I have to admit I still struggle and get irritated by it, somehow, there is more freedom in this area...but being someone who use to hope to achieve perfection.

I always remeber this question in my mind.

Qn: What is the reason to find a helper?

Simple question but tough answer...even at this moment I can give some sort of answer, but I dun think I could give a very good answer for that....because there may still be things that I am unsure of myself at this moment.... But anyway, I know personally that God is always in control and he always being through all these time, especially through tough times. My heart stirs and my eyes becomes wet when I reflect back....perhaps due to the past disappointments, however definitely in my heart, knowing the grace and mercy of God in my life.

I wanna to see a breakthrough in this area. Perhaps I am someone who is too, an attention seeker, need security and feel unrejected. High S I with some C character, woah.......mmmmmm.....

Lord, I believe that you are the one whom can pull me through this period of time. Even though it is so much seemingly tougher than just slacking around, doing nothing, but now I have to continue with life and yet be always available to you. But I know, though I may not understand, believing in the light that you shine forth, the direction towards you and away from the darkness....and into a freeland, you bring me to.

With Trust and believe in Jesus Christ, whom a relationship have already being established