Continues on with the prayer....at non night timing

Indeed ....fasting and prayer continues on. Pressing on the first issue. How is it that I am still unable to type it out. Perhaps it is too hurtful? Or is it that I have learnt so much in the past 2 years that helped me to move on from it? Was it really the last straw that breaks that camel back? Or was it purposefully happened in order to for me to humble and draw closer to God...draw more towards God...creating that void ..God-shaped void so that only God can occupy. Oh God, what do You have to input with regards to this issue. What are Your valuable inputs? Here I am hearing, taking care of store...looking at customer...and pondering over it. Let me not drift away....non being forsaken by You.....it is a not so nice experience in the dark valley where it is cold and the light is like miles aways, though visible. I am thankful that there is still light, and thy rod and staff, they still comfort me. Through the valley of death, indeed it is not a nice enjoyable experience. Yet it is still a fulfilling...God fulfilling faithful journey. Can I travel the road that is more comfortable, yet still being reliance on God's faithful provision? Man, despite learning much, including myself, is still vulnerable to fall. This is the vulnerability that cause me to still know that God is the source of my strength, and wisdom starts with the fear of the Lord. Awe -so- Me....with God indeed. "To guard my heart is to show no interest at all?" Just a though to ponder. What I can mention of the event at this moment that it is an magnified act of uncontrolled release of emotion via a not so good means. With this that has happened, I can use it to discount myself from all future relationship. As I did tried to dig in, it feels like digging into empty ground with a empty tank feeling. Like a car trying to run on empty tank, a car riding at a gear too low without hydraulics. It feels like a bottomless pit. It is indeed scary.

Victory on the Cross

The significance of the cross, what it meant 2,000 years ago and what it means today, has changed. Today, it is seen as a symbol of hope, as the triumphant symbol of Christianity. What is easily forgotten, is what a cross actually is. It is tool of extreme torture and death. It is strange from the standpoint that we honor how Christ died, from the standpoint of the world. When someone we know dies, we remember them for how they lived. Their tombstones do not typically depict how they died, especially in heinous situations of torture and murder. Imagine walking through a graveyard full of sculptures of people getting shot, stabbed, and beaten. Jesus did many things in His life, which still impact us today. But nothing that Jesus did in His life is more important that His death or resurrection. That is why remember the cross, because without it, our faith serves no purpose. God took a terrible symbol, and transformed it into something beautiful. He took a symbol of pain, and transformed it into a symbol of victory. And this is how our church should be. As Tim Chester writes, "A church of the cross will be characterized by power in weakness, wisdom in foolishness, victory in shame. Its confidence will be in the sovereignty of God." God does not call us into humility to mock us, or to make us feel bad about ourselves. Indeed, humility is not about us at all, but rather it is about focusing our attention back on God. Christ calls us into these things because He wants His church to recognize what it is, and to realize just what He has done for it. God gave us victory, through an object of scorn and shame. How incredible is that? Living Life