12 Sept 2016 - I meet friend. Meet parents dinner session formally, blueberry session at the park

11 Sept 2016   1200 - 2330 => 16.5 hours => 148 hours
12 Sept 2016 - 1500 - 2330 => 8.5 hours => 156.5 hours

meet parents 1830 - 151.5 hours
Again - 2130 - 154.5 hours

Talking in the morning....mum ask serious question..... I say got to meet her parents first.
Then we are all just joking about last night..... saying perhaps 3 girls and 5 boys...haha
Just a happy time together as a family finally without any worries and things.

Meet a friend....chit chat....chat about the whole process of my dating from day 1 until the day which the official start - 19th day consider 1st day on 14 August. then the whole process. then K came.  They chatted and chatted abit...

Then dinner was simple. simple interaction..... simple family time. Then my mum held her hands.... and things are ok

Then off we went for pasir ris.... went to the same place....the usual place was occupied...we went to a more open hut....we went into the mood....N to N..... but I wanted to finish the blueberry.....we feeded each other.....lip to the fingers.....I believe we know we are into it...

After blueberry, I set aside the things....take out my glasses....in prep......and there we look at each other.... and we started. N to N, hugging each other. Slowly our hands move a bit more...... with permission down to bottoms..... she sat on my lap.... I can feel the tension..... and I was a little into the mood... then there she massage my back....i could feel myself build up.... i am really into it slowly...10-25%.....then she place her hands into my bottoms.....that was sensational......but it triggered my body alarm..... trigger my mind too...... then she kissed me from cheek to neck.....that is the point that my mind started to take over.... I some how know I am no longer into the mood...but I know she is into the mood.  So I just follow along......help her...to rise up....with permission along the way.

Another moment - took her clips off.....rise it up.....then arouse her back......then excuse is to feel her heartbeat.....yup with permission did the cupping.... and that is the limit..... not sure how she feels......then I lift her up....with my hands and she is into it all..... not once......but for a sustained time......2 burst of it....as my arms were tired....then one more time that is close contact with my P. In between I wore it back for her..... through it these, I was already out of mood......I was only in it until the point she miss me around.......

hot and sweaty.....times does not allow....so I send her back.  N to N...K to forehead.....

The surprise thing or some what not special, I am in that mood in the bus..... I could still feel the sensation of her hands in my B. through the bus journey.....not a portion but for the whole journey.... I was like....have the desire to have it..... but I know I just need to stop thinking or imaging....

So back home..... when I was bathing, after chatting with her...... I can't imagine as I touched my back and stuff.... I was feeling sooooooooo desired and wanting that my body reacts..... I feel my legs weaken..... my body really yearned for it....... that was too dangerous....too close..... only shower and some prayer ...calm me down..... Thank God that He has given me quick way to calm myself..... But that lead to maybe next friday may go into another level...... and today I am concerned..... Friday is just 2 shorts aways.....very easy compare to the previous 2 experience.....oh well......

Feeling still lingers and move on.....well I don't know why still the experience still....  One learning is she is firm on the no.....no take out bottom to experiment.... I am glad that she is firm. It will be tough journey since I know the floodgates are open..... It is really overwhelming for her...and I feel bad now....why did I open the floodgates.......all things have its consequence....so I just trust God since He has journey with me, he will not let me sink too deep or drift too far away.....In trust in Him, I just follow with wisdom and strength and just make sure my limits are strong...and pray that God will not allow such strong emotion to cause more harm in the most unexpected situatiohn

Strong emotion love vs hate => a deed => deep wounds for me...which I did a pre stimulated and I can sense the amount of hurt that may come...