Personal stuff as again

It is the time again.....the time has come again....this time with more tactics and more methods. I really not very sure how to proceed from here....it really requires so much uncertainity....like when one is comfortable, one will have to move out of comfort zone. When one is going to have good prospect, one will be tested to move. So when do I really move?

Before I go to Cambodia, I will like to just write down some question that for my own reference.

1. What started my approach to SH? From my current understanding, it started just with one question and now I have tried to return to that stage.....just find out more about SH....to me it is a mere interested to know more....and at that time, I am in no way / status/ stage to progress for anything else....but guess I play the game wrongly

2.What is the reason of fear of being close? This is something I read of a shoutout box from a blog that I found regarding this person.....RWKY....interesting name.....haha well, now as I type this, I realise....both have something in common.....brother man....wonder how would that affect....how how how....in what ways of viewpoints?

3.To start is to end? for a end is just another beginning....I only know when I start to understand I really begin to start loving this person, the end has come. But till now, I know God is in the midst and His way are far greater and far more well-planned out.....and even now, there are still things I believe I have yet to learn from that incident. There are many things God can say and speak, teach and tutor, monitor and mentor. Who but GG. Things of the past are lesson of today. Things of the past are stories of today. Things of the past are testimonies of God's goodness and blessing today.

Should I change? where I am now? As requested by authority of higher from within a building that is close to my home? I seek counsel where He will provide in due time.

In the mid time, spare some time to pray for me....I really need prayer protection....even if you do not know how to....but with the faith of yours to pray, your prayer will see you see God work in my life. To the measure of your faith, accordance should he allocated the results.

A really result-ful and fruitful 14 Dec 2006

It was really a full day for 14 Dec 2006. Only now then I can update regarding it. It all starts as early as 1030....here is how things goes

By 1030, by right my unit meeting should start, however, my AM is late due to jams. Thank God that he know that I need to go off by noon and he did a chop=chop meeting to highlights the points. The steps for RS = 1.Close 2. Collect 3.Consolidate

1. Close is pretty straighforward

2.Collect is to collect services for the people

3. Consolidate is a step, may seems like the same as G12, but with an included pre-step = Win.

After my Unit Meeting, I went over to Marine Square to meet my very shi shi mei and shi di.....haha...took a detour and seemingly shortcut and in the end I had to take a lift from the Carpark, down and then back up to 2 floor and managed to reached Subway despite looking at the Directory. The dumb thing was to arrange for a lunch gathering when I am currently fasting lunch for the past week. Ha ha how oldy I have become....just want to invite people out for gathering and appointment without thinking too much. In the end 4 turned up and after with Angeline, being a cost-saving person, having the coupons, and me being sharp-eye, saw the Student meal which starts @ 2.00pm, we waited till 2pm for the extra savings. Later after that, without having any idea where to go, we went for Pool as most of us have not play it for a while already...Felix and Yinseng really get the games rolling when they start hitting in the balls, which the colour is just black in the end. It was a fun time for me, Angeline and Hannah. Well for Felix, he is just a kind opponent, popping in the black balls and also opponents ball. Angeline, being her usual self, is well-dressed for the occassion....while other than me in office wear, the rest in casual wear.

By 1830 I was back at NUS SRC.....the interesting part.....so much info and also fun climbing the wall/rock. Most of the route I needed a few attempts. Guess at this moment I still have not master putting my weight on my feets, stepping up instead of pulling up,balancing the weight...In the end, it was fun, exciting although it was tiring and now I still feel some effect of it. Overall it was an enriching experience with untold mystery that came by during the climbing.

Encoded as follow is using the person name of reference (Std Coding, 1 round only)

ABCDEFG MT BG TQPC IVTMGCTT XMUB TQPCQGC MG UBC GVT AEMPIMGL. LMWCG H QDLHGMTCD IVU UQQ TPHDD UQ VTC?

Here is another person using the using the other name of reference (Std Coding, 1 Round only)

ABCDCE SVOPVSIH UP LBFI B FK. C XPEHIS?

They are encoded. So have fun trying to decode them. Just minute details that are just remindars, leads for futher information input. Hopefully there is no spelling error.

Well it was great and I just wish to thank God for all His provision in terms of finances, transport and everything else. It all bounds down to how faithful I am to Him. Thus may the Lord be in abundant in my life.....in every situation, in ups and downs.

Give more thanks

Yup. Here to give more thanks to God. The Lord will indeed provide. And also the more rest upon him, the more we are at rest.

How much more He can provide. Just before the prayer meeting, I just almost cleared the 50% mark = $445. Now I potentially heading $900+. Now seeking clearance from my pastor to re-adjust the amount that I am allowed to raise to higher so that I will not worry too much about the amount I need to fork out. This is just the begining. More to come as I reflect back later on....this will act as a remindar....the Lord will provide.

The one verse I seek the Lord for Psalms 14:7

Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion! When the LORD restores the fortunes of his people, let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!

Give thanks and be glad.

Now I do not need to call up the other fellow crusade, including the mysterious one. Rememeber, there is no need already, thus no need already. Remember that.

Give thanks

Here are really some thanksgiving. First thing started with a really dumb, I overslept on bus 167 after G12. And this time round, I overshot all the way to Sembawang Shopping Centre.....I really felt so so so so so......and I just kept on crying out to God....carrying all my luggage and just back from malaysia (20-23 Nov)....walked really a long distance.....hold steadfast and walking everystep, asking God and complaining.....there are no good kind people in Singapore....as I typed this, I also realise how much my heart has gone cold too at times. How much I am not faithful to my tithes and offering for the past 6 months. I have yet to have a total, adding up will be around 360++.... I really wish to pay all these back..... owing up to 500-600 now. But God is still so gracious....he still provided the transport,after walking till Sembawang Airbase. I am still touched by God....
He is still so real concern to me.

The trip up to Malaysia with my Good pal to do training for the new team at PJ, KL. I really see God working, from the booking of the hotel, till the daily training and work, how God opened the hearts of the new management team. Really had a wonderful time up there....Opened up my horizon about meeting up with people, meeting stubborn people, but I recognise, it take really God to open hearts and break ice. God is so real, and he will always be. Faithful to him, listen to him often and he will speak in powerful revelation. What more can I describe about his reality in my life.

Also thank God. The news is finally here.....Information is already at hands. Now it is the time to act. For God to be glory, for him, he deserve all praise and worship. Who knows what, what know who, for it is not the what or who, where now, to where should I go. Guide me along God. I know thy will.

PS. Holy Spirit knows all, so does the opposite.

Praise God

Praise God. Things are now improving in the house... My relationship with my mum has a breakthrough after like 6 months of tension, misunderstanding.... Really Thank God.

What the real issue was just simple communication inadequacy. but the love and relationship is still there....unexpressed love is not healthy as shown. As this may lead to openings for unreal thoughts and point of doubts that will lead to biased judgement and intrepretation of words and communication.

But Thank God. It is all over. Now it is a restart of a new begining. God is just so gracious. Healing back this relationship and restoring his power in my household. Also as I write this blog entry, know what, my good friend CBY came online....really miss CBY alot since CBY's birthday on 08 Aug. So much things has went past happening.... Really miss such a dear friend. Looking forward to see CBY soon.  Joy of tears and .... Much more as I pray asking God....bless CBY....draw CBY closer to you thus should be able to experience the reality of who you really are.

Praise God who is just so real in my life....

Tour with P6 Kids

On 12 and 13 Oct were 2 days of ~4hrs each day of a return work for me, back to ATC. But now this type is different. I am leading the students by myself, alone. Woah.

Excited and yet still reserved I went to lead the students, now to Little India, a Entrepreneurship Tour. The first day, I got top class....Thank God. I also had a good, controlling teacher who is able to manage the class for me. Although from what I personally feel, it was the best I gave, but at least it was a learning experience that benefited me the next day.

13 Oct, the rest of the class....And God's grace is really so provisional. I got the smallest class, and they are the most well behaviour class I have seen. Although they are a bit playful, but not too playful to the extent I have to instil some discipline.

In conclusion, the two dates had really carried me up a little. They really showed me how much God still about to carry me through the difficulties....now it is all about riding on his favour, faith upon him, to sit beside Him on the table. How great He is indeed.

For those who have yet to experience Him, it may be so far fetched, but this is how true He can be in the little things, although it may be not clear.....I just pray that as you read, your spiritual eyes will be open. All this I declared and commit in Jesus Name. AMEN!

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

Do u believe in such things.....haha

Never Date a Cancer

Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches. And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return. Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system. And while this may not seem big, it can be. It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes. You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

What Sign Is Your True Love?

For fun.....haha

Your True Love Is a Taurus

Why you'll love a Taurus: Romantic and sentimental, a Taurus can provide you with the security you need. And you both share a fondness for the finest things, from great food to luxury vacations. Why a Taurus will love you: You have the honesty and direct approach that down to earth Taurus desires. And enough elegance to show a Taurus a few new decadent delights!

What Sign Is Your True Love?

How Powerful Are You?

Your Power Level is: 54%

There's a good chance you feel pretty powerful, and with good reason, you're already fairly successful. Keep developing your goals and skills, and you'll be surprised by what you can really achieve.

How Powerful Are You?

How Sarcastic Are You?

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge. In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead! And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in. Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?

What Age Do You Act?

You Are 21 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life. You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance. You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines. You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed!

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a giving soul. Way too giving in fact. You often get stuck doing the dirty work that no one else will do. Your look is put together, classic, and stylish. You always look fashionable without trying. You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it. In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

What's Your Theme Song?

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack, I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos. But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

What's Your Theme Song?

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

Your Life Is Worth...

$873,000

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

How Selfish Are You?

You Are 38% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well. But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How Selfish Are You?

Hide a name within the words

This is a chinese poem / writing I created some time ago....can't remeber did I put it up on this website....

才艺智慧

贤淑慧偲

交相辉映

侪殊未知,

guess a person's name?

When u are able to guess the name. do please kindly tell me how difficult it is Thank you very much

The Three Question Personality Test

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Your Personality Profile

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Your Linguistic Profile:

35% Yankee

30% General American English

20% Dixie

10% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

Inside the Room of Your Soul

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

What Is Your Love Number?

Your Love Number is 6

Who you fall in love with is all about who you trust. Loyalty is important to you, and you want the most faithful of lovers. In return, you never let your heart or eyes wander. Open and honest, your relationships tend to be free of secrets.

What Is Your Love Number?

What Element Is Your Love?

Your Love Element Is Earth

In love, you have consistency and integrity. For you, love is all about staying grounded and centered. You attract others with your zest for life and experiences. Your flirting style is defined by setting the scene, creating a unique moment in time. Steady progress and stability are the cornerstones of your love life. You may take things too slowly, but you never put your heart at risk. You connect best with: Fire Avoid: Wood You and another Earth element: need each other too much to build a good foundation

What Element Is Your Love?

How Much Do You Weigh?

You Should Weigh 151

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight. If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

How Much Do You Weigh?

What Color Flower Are You?

You Are a Red Flower

A red flower tends to represent power, seduction, and desire. At times, you are loving like a red tulip. And at other times, you're very enthusiastic, like a bouvardia. And more than you wish, your passion is a bit overwhelming, like a red rose.

What Color Flower Are You?

What Type of Ex Are You?

Wonder will this change in months time???? wonder!!!???

You Are A Guilty Ex

You weren't the greatest to your ex, and you admit it. And now your remorse is keeping you up at night... While feeling a little remorse is good, your guilt is preventing you from moving on

What Type of Ex Are You?

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

What's Your Ideal Career?

Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy. Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems. You would make an excellent: Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.

What's Your Ideal Career?

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

Funny quiz.....wonder how true it is haha.....it is just so funny after looking at the results....haha

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

CSH is your soulmate.

You truly love Abra's.

You consider G.G your true friend.

You know that Dolphin is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Ade for the rest of your life.

You secretly think S. PSH is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that CBY is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that KHB is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that KHB changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Cyth is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Cyth has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

Your Emoticon Is Smiling

Right now, you're feeling cheerful and content - without a care in the world.

What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

Are You Addicted to Love?

You Are 46% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're addicted to love. You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it? Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships. Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself!

Are You Addicted to Love?

Woah!

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

How Weird Are You?

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

How Lucky Are You?

Your Luck Quotient: 67%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

How Lucky Are You?

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm" You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone... Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-) You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear. Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing. The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person. Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life. You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face. Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance... But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective. You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

How Logical Are You?

You Are Pretty Logical

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

How Do People See You?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a giving soul. Way too giving in fact. You often get stuck doing the dirty work that no one else will do. You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style. You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it. In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Your EQ is 140

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional

The Simpsons Personality Test

You Are Ned Flanders

A good neighbor and a devout Christian, you are a community leader. And you are called to make the world a better place, especially for left handed people. You will be remembered for: your goofy expressions - "hi-dilly, ho-dilly!" Your life philosophy: "I've done everything the Bible says - even the stuff that contradicts the other stuff!"

The Simpsons Personality Test

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I remembers

I remember there was one time when someone comment.....you blind didn't see me....haha....as I reflect back....haha well guess God's hand is in it I believe....

A talent and gift that has being passed down by my mother....or something I pick up from my mother....that is called sense....just like the force....

However this ability / talent works on certain people. And only when I am spiritual sensitive. Well now after comment so much....do you believe that I am still as blind as before??? I wonder why God gave me this gift / talent. But I just let God do what He wishes to as He has the best idea in mind.

Wonder whether the person will remember such a thing.....such a minor thingy....or I am just become more like an auntie already....haha

How Observant Are You?

Your Observation Skills Get A B-

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time) And it takes something big to distract you!

How Observant Are You?

What type of SOM character I am

Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?

***You Are 63% Passionate, 37% Compassionate***

You are very passionate, especially when it comes to love.
In fact, it's sometimes difficult for you to tell between love and lust.
You jump in head first, and figure things out later... usually when it's all over!

Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?
http://www.blogthings.com/isyourlovestylepassionateorcompassionatequiz/

What Season Are You?

***You Belong in Spring***

Optimistic, lively, and almost always happy with the world...
You can truly appreciate the blooming nature of spring.
Whether you're planting flowers or dyeing Easter eggs, spring is definitely your season!

What Season Are You?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatseasonareyouquiz/

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

***Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage***

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyouridealrelationshipquiz/

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your Brain is 73% Female, 27% Male

Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

http://www.blogthings.com/whatgenderisyourbrainquiz/

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Are You Right or Left Brained?

You Are 55% Left Brained, 45% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

What Kind of Friend Are You?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Refreshed, retrained and celebrate

Woah. After typing the title, I realise something..... woah....I didn't realise that I was refreshed, re-trained and then celebrate.....

1. Refreshed: I was refreshed after the 2nd Sat of SWW...... surprising as I was writing the survey form, I couldn't remember anything but I prayfully hope all that is learned, touched on will be into the subconscious....but in time to come, will be done practicially

2. Re-Trained: I was re-trained with my gift again.....the gift of vision, now in another way = visionary prayer. How many weeks of waking up early for 7am prayer.....cant remember already....I think 2 times already. But I really thank God for the walk to Khatib MRT station. I was really a remindar and re-training too for my walking fitness. The times of that reminds of what reason I walk and not take bus (coz bus service not available). But those times were good and now too the times. Re-trained back....I just hope some one will understand....or at least one I can speak of my worries and troubles.

3.Celebrate: 2 days of SWW training and it ended off with celebration of Sarah (without Abraham) heading a special age birthday. Made a cookie that bears her name....for a long time ever since I hand-made anything for anyone....guess for 6 years. But I Thank God for the opportunity....at least I am good at decorating cookies. Nonetheless, it is just another breakthrough that I may not fully understand now, but I believe in time to come, I will remember this moment in time.....I made something for someone finally.....haha....

Updating my bloging regularly....guess because I am abit more free....before I start to study for my new job. Well, thus I thank God that I am still able to hit back to the books, my thai language.

What I actually took back from SWW, in the midst of my free time. It revealed one crucial area: Family. Fear, Rejection and lonliness.....these are before this crucial area. Remember to follow through I should.

SWW....2nd gone....now it is time to put all known to practice as the Lord leads....

I lost my HP

I lost my HP....so sad.....it slipped from my pants pocket while I was in the taxi....how sad....lost all the contacts of my past 1 year.

Anyway.....I hope I am able to retrieve all the database back and well bless that "B" who got my phone and refused to return to me....May The lord touch "B"

However see this and knows me, do give me your number if ya wish to keep in contact with this friend of yours....ok!

Starting a new book after Drawing near

Yup. I had finished reading Drawing near by John Bevere. Now thinking of proceeding to another book which has the theme of Being Nice is not good enough. When being Nice instead of Good hurts men, women and children.

The other book that interested me at this moment is a book that is left on the shelves: Hearing God: Develpoing a Converstaional relationship with God by Dallas Willard. Fairly interesting although now it the time for me to find a book on mission. Drawing near helps me to understand better who the master is. To know someone, one of the ways is to draw near to the person, communicate more with the person and understanding the person's heartbeat. God is a person to know his will and heartbeat, we ought to draw near to him. As He yearns to draw near to us, however he who loves will not force his loved one to draw near. Thus, it is our choice to draw near to him. My prayer is simple during the LM: from the message of the parable of where the seed is being sown, I realise I am at the stage of mixture of on dry (not hard) just infertile ground and with thorns and weed. I just prayed a simple request....Lord please clear away all my weeds. Just help me set me heart upon you and be rooted in your word.

Recognise the importance of Consistency

DATE: 09/04/2006 09:55:12 AM

As i start to pray, I just have this reminder/revelation about consistency.

It seems to be a very yucky one, but I will still share. For the past few days, I was trying to diet, also at the same time trying to save money that are spent on transport. I was keeping going to the toilet more often....daily to be exact....and now I go again ....haha

The biological purpose of passing motion, defecation is the mean which the body excrete all its biological / unprocessed/ unfinished products and waste materials so that they will not reside within the body to let any of the toxin be absorbed into the body. The longer the time the waste products stay, the high possibility and more of the toxin will be absorbed by the body. This is not healthy for the body in the long run.

As what the bible has mentioned that our body is the temple of God.

1 Corinthians 6:19 (New International Version)

19Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;

Toxins are poison to the body. The parallel equvialence of it in the world will be ungodly thoughts and principle. As in

Galatians 4:3 (New International Version)

3So also, when we were children, we were in slavery under the basic principles of the world.

However if you dare to try, make it a habit to go to the toilet to pass motion daily; or make it a conscious effort to do so, perhaps before you know it, it will soon become a habit. Why do we need to do our daily cleaning up.

Colossians 2:8 (New International Version)

8See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ.

Toxin is a parasite within the body. Although it is not a living thing, it reside within the body and cause disruption to the normal process of the body. Thus toxin are excreted, not reacted upon by the body immune system. Without the body immune system acting upon it, it means the body is not aware of the presence of such toxin. Same goes with the principles of the world that are not based on Christ, we may not know that they reside within us, within the temple of God.

As mentioned in the bible,

Titus 3:14 (New International Version)

14Our people must learn to devote themselves to doing what is good, in order that they may provide for daily necessities and not live unproductive lives.

We should learn indeed to do what is good, in order that they may provide for daily necessities and not live unproductive lives. If you see in the spiritual realm, if we see and learn to do what is good to the spiritman, in order that the spiritman can provide the daily necessities, i.e. prayer, intercession, labouring and loving thy neighbour, and not live unproductive lives, live the servant whom hid the talent that his master gave him.

Just one simple application to learn - go toilet more often and try to make it daily....haha....Things just go naturally and easily....

A great time at Joel House

DATE: 09/02/2006 10:53:53 AM
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Yup.....glad to hear that everyone had a great time at Joel's house, a supposingly House-warming event....haha....Thank God for Mabel from Settler's Cafe Holland Village whom kindly lent 2 nice games.... Wonderful time of just coming together to play games all thru from 4pm till 10pm.... + 1+ hr dinner..... = 4 hrs of gaming....woah......great fun. Thank God for that..... His grace is sufficient.

As too was the night before this, God really ministered.....or just as I just prayed to him....let him do what he yearns to....I just wept and wept........ hurt, failure....I just wept.........but I just thank God.....at least it relieves me as it always has being since I am young....well I am still young....I should mean younger ....haha ....

Psalm 25

1To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;

2 in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.

3 No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.

4 Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;

5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.

7 Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you are good, O LORD.

8 Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.

9 He guides the humble in what is right
and teaches them his way.

10 All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful
for those who keep the demands of his covenant.

11 For the sake of your name, O LORD,
forgive my iniquity, though it is great.

12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ?
He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.

13 He will spend his days in prosperity,
and his descendants will inherit the land.

14 The LORD confides in those who fear him;
he makes his covenant known to them.

15 My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.

16 Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.

17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied;
free me from my anguish.

18 Look upon my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.

19 See how my enemies have increased
and how fiercely they hate me!

20 Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame,
for I take refuge in you.

21 May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope is in you.

22 Redeem Israel, O God,
from all their troubles!

Praise God.....he is a God of comfort indeed always... A nice Psalm, a song of praise, a song from the heart to God.

Worship back again

DATE: 08/31/2006 10:18:14 AM

Yup it is the time of the month where it is the duty of the cluster I belong to, to worship God on stage. This sunday will be one since last December. Yeah I just feel so excited despite all the joblessness and everything......

Praise God for everything He is in control.....I still think about the one.... now different term already....Me sighing that I still CMI....well I got to get back in focus to the 2nd M..... Hard Hard Hard...not only the difficulty but let my Rock be too

My 3 M policy not up yet....and lots of other things not journalled, or written down for future reference. For further usage as life examples.....Lazy bum me.....yup yup

Anyway....I really thank God....as I surrender the little that I can, He just bless me back with so much more back....What more can I say and offer....

How can I show what God has done in my life to those around me....to be the salt and light to my family and friends....

Hmmmmmmmmm is me.......Ermmmm....is the one...haha

A trip on one's place

DATE: 08/07/2006 08:24:34 AM

Yup, today, 07 Aug, went to a place of a difference. Someone home, in which of such nature, was so long long time ago.... it was like about 5 years back since I entered somone of such nature's home. Relatively near to my house, but have to take 2 bus to reach. It was a good experience. Nothing much learned but one thing I know, it is a great time. Just a short update only.

Yup, I am making preparation to move on. The concern I have, how ready and willing I am. But at this moment, I will be following the 3 M life policy that I am still drafting, labouring in drafting as I am reading Drawing near by John Bevere. Got very interesting revelation and insights. Let me understand more of who the Master is. I will not elaborate now as there are many many more exciting things are still undigested. Thus there are more to come.

So stay tune for more to come as I finish the book and summarise the 1st part on 3 M life policy

3 M Life policy

Despite just moment after I hear the message, or perhaps a statement regarding this 3 M message, it can be so quickly eroded away from the memory. Here is a brief outlook of the 3 M principle.

Shared with the legacy from my S.P and my spiritual father(my cell leader in other terms), the 3 M prinicple comprises of these 3 words starting with the letter M: Master, Mission and Mate. In this article, I will jolt down some points first, thus this may be a quite unorganised article, but well, it is basically mainly for my own reference.

Master, who is your Master of your life. In another way of saying, what governs your life. As like falling of things is governed by the Law of Gravitation; energy transfer is govenered by the Law of Conservation of Energy. As something is being governed by the Law of something, the Law becomes the Master of it. The Law is also something that controls the thing of concern. Like Law of Gravitation, things more dense than the supporting environment (air) will fall as the uplift force is less than the gravitational pull.

This may perhaps be a far-fetched analogy. Here is another one closer attempt. Perhaps just a simplier as the word implies, master, the person in control of those who are under his care, control and authority. When we acknowledge someone as our Master, he is in control of everything of our lives. Also the master is one whom we will seek to serve and satisfy his needs. The Master is one that will fill the person life.

Mission is to complete a task for something or someone. Without a Master, there will be no meaning behind a mission.

Mate is a simple term.

2 Handsome Thai Guys stay my place

DATE: 07/30/2006 08:36:19 AM

Yup. It is true....2 handsome Thai guys stayed at my place, as a homestay with my service as a Singapore Host (hostress whatever)....They are really so shy ....17 years old only....

It was a great and different experience hosting them. Didn't know that they really were into after the TCS Walkaton on Sat 29 Jul 2006....5.5 Km....and here I am, completed and sitting in front of my computer. It was being a tiring 3 days, since friday when they touched down. 3 more days of exciting GCYC2006 coming up. A total of 50+ thais came to Singapore to attend GCYC2006....exciting.

Silent excitement maybe....but not manifested.....wonder wonder.....

Anyway this month has become more critical....less time more decision to make. How? Patient, patience, to wait upon the Lord is necessary....The Lord is faithful in all.....and for all that faithful waits upon him. CSH, CSH.....oh boy....no more whys as why will only lead to more whys. Now it's God turn.....It is now your show....Just like water that is being poured out, it can not be recovered without God's intervention.

A day without food is okay for Man does not live on bread alone. But a day without the nourishing water, the living water and living word of God, how can one continue? With reference to spiritual constipation, spiritual truth is essential...A world without TARGETS.....but there will be goals and objectives instead. They are just different terms of the same thing. Similiar to what I face now, they are just different view of the same person. Guard thy heart and thy mind, take a daily effort to renew the mind of the world with Godly thought. What more can I seek for.....already get to see the person....can recover since last dec....I can't remember how to quote a phrase.......expect miracles with expectation / anticipation. Just a short phrase, but with a great idea.

To wait upon the Lord. YUp Yup....To wait upon HIM.

A report of my big day

DATE: 07/26/2006 10:44:29 AM

Woah....I received great things for my big day. 3 books, 3 clothes, 2 display items, 1 pen. Woah....and one of the clothes is really so small that my mum can wear it. One of them was for my future interview. Well I was being "requested" to wear that as someone said that I rarely wear it. SweatZ!!!

But anyway, I really had a great time, especially if I had planned it earlier, I guess I would more friends coming. But anyway, it was a great time not to be missed. To marked the end and beginning of life. I didn't realise how prepared I was at that time as I now reflected back. Perhaps because the person is not there, thus I feel more relaxed....HA HA HA.....

But anyway, due to last minute changes, I had to confess certain things through question....one is true of which...yup target.....target is still target, it does not means captured or whatever.

Anyway, I guess I am poor in illustrating in such things, and I should not dwell into it too much or I may just lost a bit of focus. Let God decide it all. I should try my best to wash my hands of this. For God is a faithful God, and he will always have the best plans laid ahead, even when we take a small detour.

I just wish to Thank God that I finally managed to share a small, unillustrated spiritual truth to my friends and prayed for them. I seriously hope they will be bless, with faith I believe that seeds are planted, planted seeds are water, faith is strengthen. What more can't my God do for the love of his people is far greater than my love for my friends.

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The big event

DATE: 07/22/2006 11:50:33 AM

This sunday is the big event......well total of 37++ people coming..... So far I have yet to arranged with such a crowd. But anyway, it will be a good time ahead. Guess the next time most prob be 4-5 years down the road, or marriage, whichever comes first

Anyway, as one said, without the person, one should still can go on...However without God, it is not times that are easy. "How long I wish to stay in this stage", a question prompted very clearly and simple. So now it is for me to answer it. For me to answer it yup to answer it is the way to answer it from the time of now. You get the point right? If you don't, re-read it again and you may get the hint. I just have to say, Thank God, you are always in control in all things. I just need to focus. Currently I guess in the 3-M principle, I am at the second M now, firming up my first M. While the 3rd M, well, may I making preparation for it??? I hope I am not forcefully, but I guess the 1st 2 M are of higher priority

Making effort to communicate more, when guess the largest room is the room for improvement. Thus it is just me. What more can I speak of myself....you should know better I think....

God God God.....where should I go now???? Please direct me thanks

More updates

DATE: 07/13/2006 06:44:47 AM

Now the time has come. After a camp and mid july now, it is the time for me to find a job. A decent job. Before that, direction. Where is the direction I should take? I can't possible wait for some rich one to pick me off...... The time now has come for me to seriously decide, what the route to take for the next. The paths lay simple, yet I'm not sure which to take. Teach, serve or earn hard, 3 clear cut choices but hard to choose from them. Teach will have to wait for next year, serve will need clearance from church side, earn hard $$ => really go all out already. So what is my choice and such be my choice.....so far only God knows.

Anyway, now a total of 6 (from my counting) knows who is the person I am interested in. Am I progressing or whatever, it is not an issue now. The important thing at hand is go get up, get back and push on. Now within the team one knows, well just due to the fact that the was a crystal clear communication. Anyway, as one of the assumption of this blog is the person whom I am interested in will not come to this site and read this blog. Thus I believe it is realatively safe for me to write in it. Especially when I do not put it clearly in words, thus this will make things harder and cause people to think. With multiple possibility, some processing time is needed before any progress is made, same goes with me.

All type of scenarios may happen, and one of them I see and ask myself, if the person directly ask, how should I respond....Well at this moment, I think the answer is quite clear cut, with the basis that the possibility of it from my understanding of the person, I would still remain having the same stand at this moment -> I will not deny it, but it will be all up to the progress of both parties and most important, only when God moved, moves and will be moving.

Thus best luck to me in the progress on job seeking, as for this area....well 6 months of conditioning, should have results already. Anyway. Wish me luck in job seeking and career ahead.

Spiritual Constipation

DATE: 05/28/2006 10:56:20 AM

Constipation is a status / symptom where the passing of bowls is hindered / made difficult due to the lack of mositure / water. Water is essential for the well-being of the whole body, and the body is accustomed to adjust the water-re-uptake in the intestine/ileum and big intestine / colon?. It is pre-programmed with a normal gene. When we take in less water than the body required via drinking, the body will have to take in the water from other source, that is from our food in-take. This will result in the increase fluid up-take from the digested food, which in turns causes the hardness of the bowl as a result. When we are to remove these waste / by-products, we have difficults in it.

Why do we need to remove all these by-products / bowl daily? The fundamental reason behind it is to remove all these potential hazard / toxins so that they will not residue in the body to cause any unnecessary harm. Leaving this toxin / hazard will in time spell increased risk of other more dangerous diseases.

In simple analogy, how does this relates to a spiritual life. Bowls may be infer into 2 ways. Positive will be in terms of talents, giftings, ability; negativie will be sin, disobediences, rebellious nature etc,. The fluid / water will be the water of life, the very rama Word of God; the Living Word of God. Body will be our being, our spiritual being. A deep relation upon our common medical condition, constipation, how does it relates to a spiritual-related constipation condition.

Proverbs 14:12 There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death.

This is a small part of the whole chapter of Proverbs 14 which at this moment I can't summarise it. But the one way you can understand is to read it. Contrast the Upright and the Wicked is the title given in online NSAB version. Simple direct title but the application is more widely applicable.

What more can be advise when in the state of constipation, what will be the good long term treatment for it? That is to take more fluid, and allowing time for the excretion of bowls. If time is not allow for the excretion of bowls, then how can one not allow so expect it to happen so?

Simple solution and it just take a simple step of faith. Of course here we are not consider the complication of genetics, family gene-tree and pre-medical history. We are here just dealing with normal genetic normal person. Common man.

Just do it!!!

It is never nice to slack with food of God

DATE: 05/07/2006 08:51:34 AM

Yup yup, it is never nice to fast. We can always fast from food, fast from games, lifestyle fast, Daniel fast....but have we encounter that sometimes we accidently are fasting from God's word. We know how it feels to fast from food for a whole day, but do we have the same hunger when we fast from God's word.

How could the spirit man survive with fasting of God's word? With God's word being the word of truth, word that will last forever, shouldn't we take it more seriously. Ha ha that is talking about myself.

This is just a food for thought that came across my mind. And reminded with todays sermon about believing in miracles. From Luke 5:1-11, be available for God to use, be attentive to God's voice and act on his prompting. Simple words of truth but yet with great power if we execute it with faith. A remindar and also too take comforts in it. To be available for God the first step, secondly be attentive and alert for his instruction. Lastly, having the faith and obedience to act upon his prompting.

How scaring it is when I feel lead to bless people for Gen 12. It is not those whom I could freely bless, but it is the one whom I wish to bless but fearfully consider should I? I remember from Judges 6:25-27, obedience is not the same as fearless, obedience does not implies one will be fearless. Well I just thank God. Finally I chose to bless CSH. Though I was debating within myself, should I, do I, may I, is there a need for me to? Though I know she will not ask and I personally believe God will provide her needs, two good argument from my point of view, what matters in the end, a choice to bless or not to bless.

Now I yet to have a conclusion, but I know one thing for sure, God is also conclusive. He does not leave room for delusive. Hee hee.

Thank God for all glory to him. And also for my good friend Joseph whom got his dream job.... All glory to God.

Realised I was so back-dated due to....

DATE: 04/21/2006 09:40:41 PM

Woah.....2 months I have last posted any thing here....guess the past 3 months or so I was really tied up with the issues of life. But the Lord has never fail me for he is always faithful.

The past 3 months, although was time in which I was lost, I was not sure, though focus on doing certain things, like prayer and fasting for answer to some question and light to certain direction, He never fails not to answer.

This semester was not a great semester but it is one that have deepen my faith. Also it had helped me to further realise, God chose us and we have a choice to choose him when the opportunity arise. We have to freedom to make the choice, in everything that we do and hope to do.

Today, as it is, Sat, the first sat of the examination. The last examination of NUS that I am going to be involve. 1 year has past since the last time I came out of my retrenchment. I wouldn't have seen today 1 year ago. Yet God is the one who bring me through these period of trials and also testings.

I am glad to annouce, I may not have fully overcome everything, but I know unregretfully, with my confidence in the cross of Jesus Christ, that I have gave my best. Relationship with my mum has being better before, my heart is more settled and more focus on seeking. What really hinders me is just how dilligent I am to seek him.

There isn't much I could report now as the exams are not over yet and there are things in my mind that are clear enough for me to put down in words. Perhaps just didn't have the time to do reflection and writing down all my thoughts. But overall I could conclude with one thing, I thank God from the bottom of my heart, what more can I say.....

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The prelude to what is being a promise

DATE: 02/19/2006 06:15:41 PM

About 10 months or so ago, 2005 was the year. At that moment, I was already considering in mind whether to go for a Gen 12:2 trip for crusade. But at that time, I was not ready, neither was I in any shape to go. I was considering special semester and didn’t put the trip on a higher priority. It was only when I was at
after my down stage that I really missed going for the trip. Since then, I made a commitment: to prepare myself for the next trip in 2006, a finale one in someway, but to also a setting of a goal and commitment; too I was to be prepared for the trip to come. This desire arise, perhaps maybe not of good
motive which I will not deny (I wouldn’t deny due to the fact I can’t really remember the initial thought already).

However, through the time to pass, I started to be diverted from it. Doubting it at some moments of the time, and also forgetting what the things essential things I need to do were. One of the important things that I should do is to seek God for his will in this trip. The word that is supporting the fact of why I should go for this trip did not really alert me to it. Normally word only come when I need it for a particular situation = crisis, but I do this less often when I am going for a trip like this, in which I must admit it is mixed with my own agenda in mind. However, through what I have being through the past 10 months, I do realize that there are some desire that just surface with an intention that I may not be able to accept at that time, but with a purpose that is far from being understood by me. This may be due to the fact that my daily interaction with God is not
intimate enough to be able to hear clearly everything thing that he communicate. One thing I am pretty sure for this promise is: I am willing. I am available.

There are things that happened that are in favour of this promise. The things that are needed to be of concern were ICT and NYJC SL project. Those were the
two things that are beyond my control. But I strongly believe that it is by God’s grace that my ICT now is from 10 -14 Jul and NYJC SL project is most likely to
be the later half of the year. These two, maybe minor things just make me wonder that the trip may be quite feasible for me. In additional to that, other than external matters, there were personal matters too. With regards to whether am I going for the trip due to the fact to know someone, I believe God has dealt with it on December 2005. It was at that moment and already some week beforehand that I told God that, please clear me up, make my desire pure to go for this trip with a pure heart, with a mind in focus and in delight that you will be opening up a new ministry area for me. A vision of an opening door to a valley brings a different level of hope for it. Agreed that vision with a supporting word is pretty hard to be sustained, thus it can only be a minor supporting factor. As I typed to this point, I was reminded of a passage that God lay upon my heart a long time ago, Ezekiel 34. I believe it was during my NSF time (to be exact 01 Feb 2002). The message that I got out of it was servanthood to gather/heal/strengthen the sheep. It is till now, a word I remember but still yet to be fulfilled. But I believe it is something that will come to true.

How the passage Ezekiel 34 does relate to the promise? At this moment I am unable to give a concrete connection, one that is from experience. However what I can speculate is the key words gather/ heal / strengthen? What exactly can be found in the passage? I remembered a crusader staff once said that there are some misunderstanding between the Thai churches and Thai Campus crusade. This is something that makes me ponder why. What is the thing that is in the gap of understand?

Set aside perhaps some of the curiosity which may be answer in this trip, which are just plain of my character. When I was challenged why, I realized that
I am unable to confidently say why. I fully agree only 4 days later that I understand why with a God word, one will believe and go all out for God’s word is flawless and his word will last forever. Thus I took up the “challenge”, perhaps too because of the deep desire to go for the trip, to quiet my heart and hear
God. The first 2 Bible clauses that God told me will familiar but frightening. Isaiah 40:21 gave me the first impression that I have heard it already, but I
was not concentrating. I forgot about already impression. Or something I didn’t understand in the first place. This was followed by Deuteronomy 23:21-23
with the issue of vow payment. What were the commitments that were made? I was immediately reminded of the commitment that I have made with regards to PC Gaming (in reference to the coming trip) and also a life of holiness. Failure to “pay” these commitment will lead to 2 Chronicles 24:20 – where the priest was
asked why he disobeys the Lord. As similar to failure to fulfil a commitment is sin, it is like forsaking the Lord and he will do the same in response. You will
not prosper. That is also a response from God. Understanding from a different context, this refers to not only my life, but also this trip. I was quite
discouraged and was slightly led astray. Who am I worthy to serve God? At that moment I was just ready to reply Jerome, “Jerome, I think I am not worthy to
go for the trip. I should not even think about going at all. I should stop all too.” An easy answer I though that will solve the situation and ease Jerome situation; he do not need to consider whether in the first place going for the trip is best for me for I am already not qualified for it. What an easy way out. However, I am not satisfied with such a word. I seek further but with a changed attitude and a repentant heart. The voice that said, “I will allow you, but let God and surrender it to me.” Comforted me the voice does as it slowly soften my heart to release to him. The Word of comfort came later in form of 2 Samuel
22:21 but I felt led to read the whole passage. It was a praise song of how God had deliver David from the hands of his enemies Saul. To me, it was a song of
praise of victory. I was reminded that this year will be a year of victory for Jehovah Nissi, the victory Banner of my Lord. In this trip, there will be
victories won and I know I will sing high praises to him.

Another Psalms 103, one more reassuring song, by David to assure me that I am still able to serve God with whom I am. The Fredrik that I am now, is already
transformed and changed in the spirit, purified and cleansed in a deeper way. A changed and resurrected person in Christ, for that is who I can say I am now.
With these I seek further till God send another message Isaiah 21:11-12. This finally put a temporary halt to my seeking for 3 nights. “Come back yet again
for the answer will still be the same.” This prompted me to put the seeking to a halt till after the Friendship special, to give my fullest prayer for Friendship special. Also, I know one thing for sure “Morning is coming.”, thus why ask some more.

The next night after I halt seeking, there was a sharing at Life Meeting (Mini service) for Campus Crusade. A sharing from Isaiah 6:1-8 in which the
message with the following points:

1. Meet God intimately
2. Serve sacrificially
3. “I’m ON! Send me!”

Although this was what that was shared, however later I understood it in a different way – Isaiah’s commission and a willing heart to go where God send.
The reason being, God have cleansed Isaiah. With this trip and also the events to come, I know the commission of me too will come about. Thus this trip
perhaps is a trip of commissioning.

With all these, that is what I can share from my side of the story. But I believe God is in control of all things. At this moment I finished typing this, I realise that 1 team has already being filled i.e. 12 members. I wondered whether 13 will means 1 team or whatever. But with faith and hope, though I will not
deny I feel really very anxious. Let God reign. Let His will be done.

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