3+30+31 days more to 2009.

What is so special about 2009. It is like 64 days more to it.

By 2009, I will be with a job already. I will be starting a new year with a new resolution. I have yet to complete my current year 2008 resolution. Though I know that I have my current prayer book finishing soon. Wonder who out there wil lbe getting one more prayer book, the one that I usually use. And will I received such a gift?

The one whom is the the one. ?How non constructive the statement is for it is filled in the enptiness.

The mysterious about mind. How much more to think about before things to start to fall asleep. In His name, I give thanks for HE is great in all things.

Finally it is given away

It is finally finished....something that is one year due and finally I get to finish it up and give it away.

Next year gift awaits. Now thinking should I what should I make next year. WOah....it is indeed something that is nice. An art piece that I myself feel honoured. The more I look at the scanned photo, that more I really like it. I wonder when will I too have such privilege to received such delicate gift. Well ....it is just so true, when one give causally, one get causal joy. When one give effortlessly, thoughtfully, creatively, one get immense joy.

How true and the truth is as above.

How tempting it is to make one for someone I wish to know more....

A day to remember

Today, 25 Oct is really a day to remember. A day that I just follow my heart and the outcomes is how it is going to be. How platonic friendship is so shallow. How an action reveals how a person act and reacts. How one's thinking and thought of principles. Whichever the case, even as I know how the person is, it is still curiousity of why the person will react that way. Or it is just leave to be as it to be. So friends are just as being. Perhaps there was nothing in the first place.

When should I ask again. When should I ask again. Perhaps the inner truth are not ready to reveal. Perhaps it is not time. There are a few perhaps. There is only one for sure. That is God is in control of the situation and nothing will go beyond His Control. Only how we see it as being out of our control. In the first place, when has it ever being within our control?

GYP....new 3 letter......Wonder will I remember who in the future?

Everyday is a new day

Indeed everyday is a new day to me. Everyday is a new challenge to me. Today is just Monday and there are just question that I feel unsure already. Today is the year of 2008. Next year will be 10 years since 1999 = 2009. Perhaps this is the stage of life that I am going through that I am to take hold of the decision and the desire of what I have. Thus forth, as after a while, since I last really go for something that I really wanted.

My current job is one interesting one that involves multi-tasking with the interactive with people and also the time to be in office.

What more can I ask other than the practical question of life. It pays reasonably and it allows personal growth. Other than it is still performance orientated, which is common in most, or view of all organisation. There is a purpose for such organisation to exist and one that does have, it exists. There are no accident. There is always a purpose behind things that happens, it is just that how do we view it.

Writing out my thoughts is just a great relief. Speaking it out too is something of interaction that has such special significance in life. Supporting someone in life is just a completely different experience. Blessed to be a blessing. A blessing to be blessed. In both ways, it deals with the fact that bless is the root word and it is the key thing in it.

Writing quite a bit, but yet I feel I am not writing out the thoughts that is stuck within me. Or is it that via this channel is just typing it. Just like the status question I am setting for myself: How do ONE know that ONE is in love with someone, or just like to be with someone? Today is just 20 Oct 2008. There is another 2months and 11 days = 72 days to the end of 2008. What is the statement for year 2008. At this phase is Inter-dependence. There is also a phase of Intimacy. There is still another I phase which I can't really remember. How ironic. But yet perhaps it is the seasons. A leaf that has turn brown will not turn green in the autumn season. What is lost is not necessary lost forever. What is lost is just temporaily. What is lost is also relative. Lost perhaps it just something else gaining. Indeed whoever the person is, I remember the time, the time of commitment, the time of faithfulness, the time that God is sufficient and His community is just there. The love and comfort, the mircalous way God work through His people for His people.

Keep faith for He is faithful. Lose faith for He gain favour in you. The proccess is so simply special. Nothing can separate the love from Him. Only nothing can separate the love from Him. Indeed His love is so great what more can I say but know that He is Lord. He is the finisher of the beginner; the beginner of the finisher. Blessed is His people. Too I feel blessed going 8 years of knowing Him. So what is difference of 1 years 9 months of knowing her? Wait till next year and let God take the lead. He will decide. I will just propose, He will dictate. For in Him, He has the best in mind. For in Him, He has the best in time.

Personality Test - Report

My Personality

Neuroticism	75
Extraversion	39
Openness to Experience	40
Agreeableness	73
Conscientiousness	44

You don't usually get angry too easily but some things can annoy you, however you experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You are tenderhearted and compassionate, feeling the pain of others vicariously and are easily moved to pity, however you are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done.

Take a Personality Test now or view the full Personality Report. ugg boots

When thinking too much is just thinking too much

Perhaps I am thinking too much now....too much that I can't reduce the amount of choice that I have. I remember something I learnt from Othello. A perfect winning game is not just one with many choices. As more choice means a higher chance of taking a second best move. Where-else if you have only one good move, there is only one choice - a perfect good winning move.



Same principle but however not as easily applied on real life. Though other than things of the world, am I thinking too much about some people too....guess I am a little AA and just being AA. Well. Let time flys and let the sessions speaks of itself.



The book about 12 Christian Beliefs....woah it is really so interesting...going to read more of it...

It is coming.

Work work work.......still at the learning stage. Still trying to figure out how work can be done, fixing up the system and making sure that I get the habit and routine of working. I wonder wonder......Lord, I cry out to you...sustain me in this place if this is the place that you have for me. My heart cries out that I am so powerless without you. May you lift me up in your presence and fill me. Direct me and give me the strength to do the work. Give me the heart to obey you and the courage to do your work. Let nothing of me prevent your works for you have a wonderful plan and future ahead. Thank and all I pray and seek in JEsus' name, Amen.

HURT - Here U R There?

Hurt - Here U R There?

How can one person be here and also there? There is one part of how hurt is felt. It is a feeling, an emotion that is felt here, which is the very moment. This relates to the past or some happening which is "there". The Hurt is also dervived from a state of confusion too. It is where the divided self feeling to be at two different location but at the same time. The divided uncoherent state can generate the confusion stage. How Confusion is related to hurt, indeed it is a huge difference that I do agree and fail to explain. However HURT is somehow relates to the time frame of life, the experience of life stopped at a particular moment. The growth is just THERE while in real time, we are already HERE.

Some sharing about HURT : Here U R There?

New Book.......reading currently

Hi to those who are reading my blog....those rare honoured one....yup I am currently reading a new book.

12 Christian Beliefs That Can Drive You Crazy: Relieft From Falst Assumptions

There are a total of 12 assumption and here I start with assumption #1:

It's selfish to have my needs met.

Simple assumption but yet can still drive people crazy....indeed how such needs can be selfish? So what is the root of the problem? We inherited the tendency to dethrone God and put ourselves in the centre of the universe and as we refuse to see God for who he is - and ourselves for who we are - we deny the truth that he is God and we are his creatures. Self-centeredness is at the core of our sinfulness, but also we are to deny ourselves and scarificially give to God and others. As mentioned in Mattew 22:37-40 in summary of two simple commands:Love the Lord your God, and love your neighbour as yourself. And also how Jesus humbled himself and became obedient to death - even death on a cross (Phil. 2:7-8)

These are truths and yet there can a crazy-making assumption to confuse selfishness with stewardship; the oft-repeated maim, "God first, others second, self last."

Blessed to be a blessing. Another commmon used terms that I often heard. Before we are blessed, one at some point will recognise one's incompleteness. However, that does not discount our needs, our incarnational needs, our logical needs.

Here is a story that I read from the book. Conservation group which all spoke about learning to depend on others for their emotional neediness which upset Raymond, servere depressed patient. He resisted coming into the program, the pyschotherapy group because he felt like a spiritual failure. In his mind, a depressed Christian was a backslidden Christian.

"This subject of needs just isn't valid," Raymond protested. "We are to minister grace to the world and get our minds off that nonsense."
"So it's important to minister to the world?" I asked.
"Absolutely. We are to give comfort, encouragemnt, and hope to those with don't have it, in the name of Jesus."
"I certainly have no problem with that," I said. "But do you also get comfort, encouragement, and hope?"
"That's selfish," he replied. "God doesn't want me concentrating on myself."
"Then God's using you to hurt people."
"What?"
"If your need for comfort, encouragement, and hope is selfish, then other's need for that is elfish, too.l If it ain't okay for you to have it, it ain't okay for you to give it."

How easy mis-assumuption. The author summarised it quite simple into 3 points, how our needs are meant to be:
1. Our needs are designed to drive us to growth
2. Our needs are designed to drive us to humility
3. Our needs are designed to draw us closer to God

Neglecting any of these needs do indeed leads to spiritual and emotional problems....for example in a simple, though not the best example, like I need to speak my feelings out to someone I trust, thus that means finding someone to talk to. Neglecting that will mean bottle up the need to speak things out which in time will become a timed bomb.

Ineed getting our needs met helps us meet the needs of others. In Luke 7:47

....her many sins have been forgiven - for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little

"Every good and perfect gift is from above" (James 1:17) and they often reach us through other people (Acts 9:6-19)

A very brief summary as indeed it is something so simple but yet has such deep roots of knowledge within it.

Want to find out more, you can always find a time to chat with me on the topic.....as you know who I am, we can always arrange a time....regardless of gender. Just dun make it a date....haha
Just an appointment....