To do Cold or Hot

DATE: 05/04/2005 05:07:23 AM

There are pleny plenty of things that can be blog, but firstly hi hi to all.....this is the first personal blog, after finished typing my spiritual blog. I will try to update both blogs as often as I can, but the spiritual one will have more data as it is more easily to extract data from Holy spirit to type in than me trying to type in the data from my personal life which sometimes have to go thru filtering as I am not sure who will be looking at my blog at this moment and I have not figured out the way to have "view restriction"

Starting off, coldness and hotness. After today comments, wonder should I start learning some hot words instead of freeze-biting words that send shivers done people spines. Thoughts and thoughts, that seemingly filles my life and maybe the kick start of this blog...an archive of my thoughts....which should in ways become an archive of my activity reports. = Online diary?? not sure at this moment with my brain in trembling with 2 issues in hand....I called "M S" issue and Singapore military history exam. "M S" issue have being mention to certain people.....of course my spiritual father (SpF) knows about it. M S is really a hot and cold issue. But I know that God is in control. God knows my heart despite all my hidden agenda and blah blah blah....but I desire most is his presence. Isa 30:15-27.... a word given by my SpF, I believe God is dealing with the idols of my life. Ever since 2001, there are "idols" erected in my life due to a breakup. Even before that, some "idols" already existed. In any way, M S, is really something that I believe will continue, and also I learnt a number of things of myself and how God speaks and how doubtful I can be......currently

Name 1 issue for example, only when a comment of coldness was mentioned, then I realise why God wants me to offer a word of apology and a word of thanksgiving to M S. Unfortunately, due to delay, I missed the opportunity. Timing! Timing! To go through M S really takes mi walk even closer to God. From my point of view, other whom get to know what M S exactly means, a word of warning, knowing M S will requires a greater part of your side to grap hold of God...why? The reason behind is due to an event that the details on the hands of 2 people, SpF and BY. If you need to know, please pray hard and just merely due to curiosity enter the field of my unknowing world. Codenaming it KHB2003, it took me 1 year to overcome the aftermath effect and all the adjustment, and now, I still suffer abit of the remanents of it. The factors of this issue are different for the breakup, thus measures have not being full erected and the issue not fully resolved with complete satisfaction.

2. my vulneability in such a area as involved is M S is still prevailing despite ...... concurrent with the personal goal that I wrote down in my Dream on Book, it is a tough area for me mah. But thank God with the prayer that I made....disrupt anything that is not of you......guess I am one that really can eat vinegar.......not good not good.....better change man.

Blank mind with reluctant offer of cold jokes...only dumb ideas filled mi.......bad thoughts that required "in name of Jesus I reject ...."......quite tiring but the more they come,....the more I will squeeze the juice out of God.

A few lingering thgts......should I just give....or wait for God's sign....I know why I said to the measure of faith ask and it will be given.....a buffer zone before both I had to compremise. Sorry God.

M S, how it will progress.......well, guess I have typed too much for the day and many many more to come.......long blogger mi.....oh boy....very L S me . Long-winded. Should cut short.........

I like this concluding act of statement:

May I so cold that I can say only cold jokes.......do I need to be starting warming up for warm jokes..(oppssss that go me again....sigh)

HaHa.....I guess I am going crazy....help

The Parables

DATE: 05/04/2005 04:37:43 AM

A couple of things that I learnt from the book Autobiography of God(A book given by Christian for my 2001 bdae). I will touch on the illustration of the parables of new patches and new wine (Luke 5:17-39)

There's a great difference between the God of our experience and our experience of God. A mere shuffle of words will make such great difference. God of our experience, what I could understand, is he is the Overlord of what we do, how we do, when we do. God of our experience does not require an encounter with Him. We just let him do the controlling and we follow. This is almost like a Master-servant relationship where the servant does what he is order to do, which is not what HE wants. HE wants a relationship with us, just like the father to his children, a relationship based on understanding and knowing each other. To know someone, we need to interact with him. Interaction is a form of experience life with the person.

Interaction is always an ongoing process. We cannot communciate today and tomorrow we live in our own isolation. Such action will not only halt progree, but it may increase a relating distance between the two parties involve. An increased in distance will ultimately decrease the ability of reliance of one party on the other. Thus in the case with God, our reliance on him will slowly switch to other means. The most tentable one will the if HE is the God of our experience, in which we will be in dependance on the past, the past blessing of God. This could be become an idol as God never intended for us to know him as the God of the past, for HE repeatedly emphasize that HE is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow....the I was, I AM, and I Will. But the most often used the The God of I AM....the present God. This, entail, HE is a God that we can experience, not a God of our experience. Thus in Job 32:19, Joshua 9:13, Isa 43:19, Ezek 11:19 all can conclude that God is an innovator, reflecting persistently, relentness newness of God, whom we can declare him as Lord of new beginnings. Would it be such great excitement to have the great I AM, being our experience of God daily that brings forth innovative and new beginning of our life that beyond what we can image.....as HE mould us more more Chirst-like.

Just to encourage, a life in the spirit, allowing God to move with full surrender plus obedience will result in a fruitful experience. This, in turns, will allows us to fully appreciate the proning work of the Father. Remember, since HE is holy, and all things belongs to Him as his creation, we have, especially as we are images of God, what it takes to follow him.