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CRUNCH TIME!!!! "Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional"--- Haruki Murakami on What I Talk about When I Talk About Running, a memoir

A energy draining evening and a restoration

This is a one day delay...thus I am referring to what has happened yesterday.

Yesterday , I got a phone call....a low energy/low volume phone call....ask me to go out to be pei-ge....so since I have almost done most of what I need to do, so I agree. I was delayed in going out as I was watching Naruto....which quite interesting and addictive.....thus I didn't get to photocopy what I wanted to give Miss Chia....Sharon Chia Pei Yu... :)....potential partner, Biz and employer. So I went directly to Bugis as usual. As I was personally delayed, I was there 5 minute later than arranged time of 1545. This is due to the fact that I will need to walk from the bus stop I alighted to the arranged meeting place at the bus stop, bugis village. In the end I was early as Miss E has not arrived. So I waited for 15 minutes before going to Iluma to shop and for aircon. Thanks that I saw a Couple Lab there and managed to ask pricing, workmanship charges as according to the design I was looking at..

This is the inside of the ring design

This is the external of the ring design

The person who attended to me, after I briefed her about the requirement of the design, initially mentioned the limitation and can/can't but what comforts me is she mentioned she will ask her boss again.... that is nice of her service.....whether or not it is feasible
Thus after that...about 1615-30 I think, after my short tour on the Abode? shop on level 3, gift shop, Miss E arrived. So met up with her...so she do her rounds at 2nd level of Bugis Looking for bag, looking at clothes....asking me about how I view what type of fashion trend and clothes she would wear and not wear....also discussed about what type my ex and possible YP will....haha...talking about fashion...something I am interested to hear....and also honing my skills and senses.
After that, went off to Bugis Junction, I carry her bag with her netbook and my own book(usual weight) ...walking around in Bugis Junction. We went to the Silver ring at Lvl 1 escaltor.....No service until I asked for it...they only sold ring but no engravement service.....too bad.....the funny thing is we stood there for a while and no one serve us.....faintz...
Later she went to find out about wireless modem.....Starhub, Singtel and M1......exchanges our knowledge of the market share in Telecommunication...was surprised to know Wireless Modem that M1 may be a major market share...... the event that was the last straw/trigger after I didn't had a good night rest the night before... as we were looking at the M1 wireless plan....perhaps also due to the way I was apprehensive on the gift a wireless router for only a normal mobile wireless plan which affect the way I expressed myself. Thus for that, I was being treated with a raised voice which somehow it was piercing to my heart....not the ears. My emotions were stirred and it seems like the bubble within me has pierced and burst. It was not an easy feeling and I had to control myself and my emotion. It was just that short stint and it really affected me. How does it? After sending her off for her school, I took bus back....and I felt really drained....somehow I felt tired....my mind, body, emotion is all stirred and shaken. It all seems to be like a complusive reaction to a so familiar reaction. It all seems to be like in the past that I had encounter it before...Now it has returned to haunt me. I even missed my bus stop despite how much I tried to remember that my stop is nearing. Well it was seemingly a really tough night ahead for me. Thus I made all efforts to restore myself back....Restoration is the top priority. I tried to avoid...as I am still introverted...and tried to hide my emotions. I tried excuting measures that I know...talk, smile, encourage.....whatever tricks that I know to keep myself going. These are the times that I how I also wished that I were a girl, and then there was a shoulder for me to lean on and cry my heart out. By the truth, that is not and I still had to go through it.
God is still gracious and faithful. He is tender to those who are heart broken and attentive to those who are crying out to Him. He hears His People's cries and I thank God that He heard mine. He is faithful to restore me back to where I am now that I can have the energy, restored and being able to type this blog now, even part was done at home, part was done outside with my laptop with me, roaming around.
Looking back at the evening and doing an analysis of it, I have a couple of findings. Firstly, I still sense that Miss E, may still plays, in my view, plays a significant person in my life. And also how I react I believe also shows who she is to me in my prespective and also her weight within my heart. Perhaps it is the amount of brotherly love that I have for her. Perhaps it is the amount of time and effort I spent with her. Perhaps it is just human feelings responding to this. Also perhaps there is something installed for me and also me for her? No one knows until God reveals. That is the mystery and uniquenss of God. God just know us before we are borned because He is our creater and create us in His imagine. This situation has so much to speak of itself. It speaks of the how vunearable I am; how I see and handle such situation; rooms for improvement; issue to reflect upon; strength to reinforce; weakness to restructure and re-examine.
Second, it is how much I am still feel for Miss E. However that is quite a reflected thing in my life. And now I am still constantly looking for systems, litmus paper to test and still try. System that will help me realise myself and her too...the interaction.....purify and enable a better time always when we are together. At this moment, at her stage of life and my expectation and needs of my life, it is difficult and so difference. However at this very moment, I am quite sure of one thing which I had spoken to her mum and only God can change, because it is only God who can change her now: I will not marry her. I will treat her as my sister... Marry is Love. Sister is also about love. The only thing is my way of view the two aspect and how love is different is in the two aspect. It is still boils down to how I view how I would love a wife and a sister.
A wife: co-worker, life partner. Sister: Same Family. Will not be my wife. Thus perhaps this is the easiest way I can put it in words why. And I am just too lazy to fill up the explaination as there are so many things that are still uncertain and unsure; many more to learn. So if you wish to find out, you will have to find out from me. I have already listed out the list of qualitites that I wish to see in my future mate. And I will sort of stick to that to ease my selection process and place my faith that God will provide me the best one. Indeed I had to agree with Sharon Chia - I am someone who wish to marry...a person with marry in my dictionary. She isn't, Sharon isn't...she is a career woman. Well, she has just contribute another quality for me to ponder over: Interaction Communcation Engagment level and depth. ICEld in short...haha...that sums up most.
Recovery and restoration process...I managed to chat Miss E and my lab manager back in HK on MSN and FB...then just roaming around FB...commenting to people....sharing a bit of my feelings....that helps and is therauptic. It show the grace of God and also how much I can talk to Nat Siu, my lab manager in HK. Hahaha....how weird and yet so blessing....so in the end, I help her and assure her as much as I can and we chat via the CMI chat system of FB till 2am.....we started chatting when she asked me what happened when I posted a status on FB. : xxxx. I shared with her what I know about Wing....and how she can shock Eric Ho, assessor for ISO. We chat until she said she was too excited to sleep...haha...I offered to help her in LIS via remote control....so I see how it can be done. I tried to offer as much help as possible from where I am now....I do really miss Pik Yuk and the rest...and it warms my heart that they also miss me....I wish I could be back there to help out....I wish that the work permit was no an issue....well all these had to happen ...has to happen....For God is in control and He knows what is best for me. I only look forward in future to go back, at least once per year. We also chatted about friends.....expiry date of friendship and relationship......interesting way to describe friendship...expiry date...I like it and perhaps in future I will use that term in many ways.
In concluding words, I wish to pray that Miss E will grow and heal her wounds. Nat will pulled through, learn and grow from the situation....finally no need to scold everyday. I also wish to pray that my family that we can pull through this situation together. I also wish to pray for my dad for speedily recovery. My nephews and niece that they can be touched by God and be transformed to make the home a better place for their parents = my brother and sister-in-law. Also for the pregnant XR to take care and his husband Lionel. Pray also for Sharon to remain soft hearted and open and alert to arrival of Jesus at the door. In all, I just pray too for myself.....squeeze God hard and hold on to him in all situation.

Today...Saturday....it was great.....was doing cross-stitch since friday late afternoon till this afternoon...a total of about 5-8 hours including dinner time. I am glad with my progress.....although the progress is quite slow. It was from

The bottom one is the progress I had this afternoon before I start this afternoon session. I had done abit of the neck and the outline of the body...I will update again if I got the time later today. The initial was when I was still in HK.....and need to include one more day plus 3or more session of 10 minutes before yesterday. Tough to estimate...yup yup.....well just a progress report. Well this is the first self-designed/modificed using Cross-stitch software...then get someone to get the threads for me... Size also pre-determined by myself. It is 4 A4 Page of stitch pattern. 38584 squares....I am aiming to finished by this year hopefully.....this is the goal of this year I set and I look forward to completing it before time...so that I can focus on another project which I had already bought the materials. I did post on this blog which Iwill link to you as follows:

http://multikiller.blogspot.com/2009/03/new-project-coded-0704d.html

Project delayed for 1 year..... now it seems to be start...completion....I think another year ba...haha

So that is cross-stitch

Today, I had dinner with a girl...a special girl in my life......during my uni time. She is mature, a course mate that I met during my Chemistry uni time......One of the girls that I prayed in my little prayer book for a period of time. Her qualities were also something that I appreciate and admire and too subconscious included in the list of qualities that I wish to have in my future mate/partner. So now finally, Thank God, finding her on Facebook. It is great to find her...she has never disappointed me/ or the other way she always never fails to surprise me or always fulfil my expectation of her. She is a sales person.....sales is in her blood line. However she is really mature for her age and her thinking.....so as I talk to her, I am engaged in all levels of thinking...there are great exchanges and I wish that as I talked to her, she is blessed too. :) God's grace. We have our difference for sure. But it is the difference that make she special and perhaps make myself feel special. She is a friend that I will pay whatever price to keep. :), if marriage is out of the question, for her and for me too.... :).

I am glad that she is doing well and progressing. I am also glad that she considered recruiting me when she moves on to another place. I hope that will come true...it is great to work with such great people/ friend. Yup...I will be meeting her again the coming week....woah....date....haha..you are kidding....but it is a appointment that is like finding your long lost soul mate.....woah....it is just beyond word's description. :)....going to borrow from her a book....I wonder what I can bless her back...I was looking into the 5 love language test perhaps she has not done. Or perhaps the Song of Solomons CD that I got from my friend. Well whichever the case, I will prepare myself and look forward to seeing her coming saturday :) God you are just so good to me....know what I need now and know what really will get me moving and make me remember your goodness :)

Thank and Praise God....oh ya didn't put the name of the girl..... her name is Sharon Chia Pei Yu. Pei Yu will be how she like to be called (though outside my usual comfort language usage of names) I still prefer to call her Sharon instead. Though today I called her Miss Chia :). We didn't call each other names after initial hi.....haha...guess names are just ......

I heard from somewhere that the closest/most relational way of calling a dear one...is not by name but by other ways....though there are others who speaks of a different view. There isn't a conclusive to this and neither did I research ...I will this question or statement to be an opened end one still till it interested me more to research into it.

A month and many things has changed

It has being 1 month since I arrived in Singapore. Alot of things had went through my mind and me. G12 Conference. Uncontrolled fustration, Travel Claims, Job Search, Mate Search. Mission Search, Master Search. There are quite a long way since I arrive to where I am now. Coming to 4 years since I graduated from Uni. I wonder what I have learned much and what would I be if things were different. However those are of the history of me and now it how to I walk the future for myself. Even this week was a challenging week for me. Faith, Temptation and lots of other things that still wumble me around......God God God.....Where am I now? Which stage may I now......Initial Love? Or Faltering Love? Or Transforming Love? Or Growing Love? Or Mature Love? In what order or which every it is ......I know my heart is empty and always needing you to be around......I do not know whether I have what it takes but I believe with whatever heart left of me, that You are the one that will bring me through.

Temptation is a real thing. Something that is challenging me for the past many years. Now it is still challenging me. Thank God He help me made the right choices again and again recently. However there may come a time that I will have to make those choices by myself....with the grace of God in mind and remembrance...in love of him. I will not elaborate the temptation as it isn't the main point. It will and has been the same so I am quite accustomed to it.

There are quite a lot of thing that need to be done. I wonder where is the list of to-do things....I think after typing, I should go and have a look.

Here are a couple of things that I wish to also do and that I will list them here:
1. Record myself and post it on Youtube, illustrating a topic, or 3 points about something. The pointers that I have selected is 3M Life, I was also thinking about the powerpoint slides that I have created previously that was chapter 8 of ???? Lee Chapman book...haha..don't remember....I think I will have to go back to Shenzhen to find the powerpoint slide, then do a record.

2. Pray more, Eat more, Read more.

3. Patiently wait till July for another appointment. The appointment you know who...Also that will mark another age of my life.

4. Venture into different avenues to earn $$$.....This is to sustain the expense and also opportunity to grow myself. I do not have the opportunity to grow myself in any sort of Full time environment.... I wish and prayful for such a chance and change.

Being listen to Bible Study Lesson by CHC on Song of Songs/ Solomon. Very eye and mind opener. Learned alot and there are alot more to learn.....and also apply. I thank God for all these.

I only really wish to be able to work. In faith I put my prayer here that he will give me a job that I can grow, meet my needs and my family needs - SGD 2.5K and above. Also He will provide a house of our own for my parent be able to stay and to store all the things in the Storhub. In Jesus' Name I seek and pray, Amen.

Nice quote from a photo

"Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So - if you give her any crap, you will recieve a ton of shit.

Some jokes and interesting day

Let me describe the jokes that I heard...as close as much I can hear :)......heard from my niece Adel. :)

1. There is a very mystical mountain that is able to grant wishes...thus 3 man went into the desert to find this mountain......after many days of searching. They finally found the mountain.... The 1st man, in flash speed ran and jump off the mountain- He wished to be an aeroplane ....and he became one and fly. 2nd ...followed through and became a train.....the last one......being very greedy and see the effectiveness of the mountain wish.....was thinking very hard.....and trying to think about all the things that he wants.......then a spirit/ghost appear......and tell him" it is approaching sunset....pls hasten or you will be granted your wish...'' The last person replied," I got alot of things to wish for" The spirit replied....."perhaps you can try thinking about it after you jump".....The last person felt it was a good idea......ran and jump of the mountain.......and he continue to think.....then shortly.....he felt and urge.....and then he became a .........sxxx :)

2. 3 people drove into the desert .......then suddenly the car broke down.....so they got off and waited for help. As the Desert is quite devoid of people, they decided to walk out and find for help. The first person took water bottles....and think: perhaps I can drink them along the way.... The second person, feeling being smarter and better, took a fan instead...to keep himself cool... The last person...after looking around.....finally got a smart idea.....he ripped off one of the car doors....and then walked.....his thinking is that ......if it were to be too hot, I can still roll down the window :)

3. Desert Mountain Monk Story :)....yeah that will be the combi of 3 stories.....

Today...went to submit my documents need for DXO Executive job (National Service Manpower Assignment)...then I went to Project Crush.......thank God I managed to catch YC in the same life....Thank God and that save me time and trouble to find someone to talk to and ask about my nephew case....so I heard from the Snr Exe.....saw the expansion of Project Crush....heard about the shifting of Youthnet admin to Chai Chee... heard everything I need...I wish that my mum, better still my sister-in-law is there to listen.....now it is in the Hands of God....Here God, you are the one. Only you....

Today also being fly kite....Thank God again...I just took 2 stops away...SMS before taking the circle line....otherwise... faintz.....welll....guess I just have to ask God instead .....well...only see how my nephew.....say want to use computer to search for things....then within 1 hour....played Adventure Quest......diao.....Only God now...God God God...help help help

Thank God for niece....and the jokes.... :) Blessed night....and blogging :) gosh I am still thinking about her once in a while....I think I will need to manage that...Please God help me ok :)

I like the idea of to do list...so I list mine here

I got this idea from another person's blog...though it is a checklist style...I just type as an article.

Since this is my private blog :P......I can use it to track my checklist. Their are not in any preference or order of merit or importance.

1. Deciding on whether to take up job - I am offered a Marketing Executive at All Eights - Medical Distribution Company. They are willing to offer my asking price - SGD 2250. I wonder should I take it up....or wait for Govt offer/interview...hmmm.... Private - Plenty of opportunity to learn. Multi-role. Just that it is a new position that I have not applied before...and I only have 50 points of confidence only...hmmm......Govt job entry is higher but progress may be slower. Private is more flexible.....however anytime can go during probation. Tough. Tough choice to make...however after hearing. I guess I will give it a go.....regardsless....I would just find time to go for the interviews lol.

2. Doing the Smurf Cross-stitch- Doing it for Miss E. done a bit already....but a long way to do too....

3. Waiting for her reply - yup yup yup...yup yup yup...yup yup yup....yup yup yup....yup just waiting for her reply.......now is peak period.

4.Doing a review on DISC or MBTI profile...... doing that for HK colleague

5. Doing an article that was asked....it is already in draft...so I will not reveal what the title is.....the question is interesting and asked by an interesting person....hope it will be frozen like before.

6. Song of Songs......got the CD....now it is preparing to listen to the bible study.

There is all I think...other than get back to God who is calling me .....who is making me tear as I read book - The heavenly Man....just make my heart cries

Why do you want to be an HAS-ICA Senior Officer?

The upholding of the security is being increasingly difficult with the technology and porous border. This brings being an ICA-senior officer job to a different dimension especially with the real threat since 9-11. It is this challenge and the chance to be exposed to different culture, work of life from different countries that attracts me to ICA. The true operation of ICA and the reality of scale of smuggling, coupling with the consequence of failed detection, makes it increased importance of making sure the checkpoint are able to efficiently pick up these cases. All these intrigue my interest, curiosity and a mind always wishing to seek to the satisfaction of detecting and cracking smuggling cases. for the better of others. The effects of failed detection are very apparent and known to the public.
ICA is also one of the frontline ambassadors for Singapore and to upload the image of Singaporeans. We are, among the first people to encounter when visitors enter our borders.

In all, ICA is indeed a challenging job yet it is a duty not only to the nation but to the security of Singaporean. A one’s part of contribution to nation, I commit.

Some simple article I wrote for interview.

Why do you want to be a Foreign Service Officer?

I have always being looking for a job that is both allows me to sit on the desk and also however I can meet people. Since I still believe and feel that I am young, there are still working years to develop. Same true that I am no longer getting younger; it is also time for me to settle down and specialize in a career. My exposure, working in Medical Lab in Hong Kong; Humanitarian trips overseas; Volunteering for Touch Community Services; playing host to SE Asian conference guest – all these opens up the view and recognize the unique position of Singapore, regionally and internationally.

FSO, I believe will provide me the challenges and opportunities to grow and apply my general skills and experience I acquired. Also it will bring opportunities for me to encounter and experience of the insights of world events, keeping me posted and update with the what, why and where. This, coupled together with a community who have a common interest, I hope, my limited exposure and principles will be able to contribute and serve.

What are the key challenges for Singapore's Foreign Policy?
From my view, there are a couple distinct challenges in Singapore’s Foreign Policy. Talent retention and recruitment; leaking of top notch local talents are some domestic issue that are still too a global challenge. This will bring upon what so special about Singapore? Where is balance of International Singaporean and Overseas Singaporean? Although we are still among the top in terms of trading, efficiency, how long can we maintain that? What is the cutting edge that we have and going to maintain?
Secondly, Singapore is now a developed city, however it is neither a superpower nor one that can provide precious natural resources that the world needs – this will shape the style of our Foreign policy. On what basis can we stand tall in the global community?
Thirdly, currently after many years of hardworking and struggle, we have globally respectable Singaporean. We have established a legacy. Who can be our key spokesman in the future? How can we stand firm as Singaporean in the flow of changing times and shift of powers?
As the Global World; it demands Foreign policy to be “transparent”, flexible and far-sighted.
I personally believe, there are more insights to media’s report of global news.

TGIF and Easter Sunday

TGIF....just a short sharing on TGIF........I only got the assignment the night before to go toXR place.....as to increase male presence there with Jerome......well all things went well......until he left due to an emergency....left me...alone....unprepared....without a testimony.....or have something in mind....but unconsolidated one.......Only THAT HM ....haha...can get me to share......erm...I wonder why did I say I have ....haha....should let her share lol......faintz....anyways...Thank God for that.....that only show how unprepared I am with my testimony........Thank God for all things...the girls are more open.....the guys.......interesting as they share and I know more about them and how they think about the whole TGIF thingy. That is something worthy of praise and glory to God.

Thus TGIF....they had a movie called the Deal.......and the big surprise is they invited the main character to church on Easter Sunday....one thing that is of God....I was on my way....already seemingly late. I was wondering whether will I see the FCBC bus leave....and thank God truth enough, I arrived at AMK Bus interchange on 166...saw the FCBC bus on the side of the MRT.....and when I alighted, it left. Then I took a train instead......I managed to catch Patrick Tan - Lineng's guys (which only now he mentioned to me his name just now).....well...he got me thinking about who he is.....coz I spent a thought to try to remember who he is......well we chatted along the way......managed to reach on time for the Lord's supper.....just in time to paretake the Lord's supper.

That is the first part of the day. There is a second good thing that happen. There was a MPH sales.....So after I had lunch with my cell group brothers - Subway without the Double Chocolate Chips....so I took Cold Cut Trio with Chocolate Chip cookie....with grape +orange. Went a short short shop with them.....then MPH sales.....went to check out what bookes I can buy...was looking into more WoW stories book....nope dun have.....walked around....found some interesting books......it was 8 per book, 35 for 5.....so 1.........2.......3......4.......I had some hard time getting the fifth book. So I just pray in tongues lol.....asking to find a book that I can get and it will be helpful.....I already got a GK book, small knowledge of GK. A book on Why Dogs make people happy. 2 books on English language related books. The final book. Initially I wish to get a book that talks about Jackie Russells.......but I was unable to find one....there was one book I found that says how to deal with dogs with bad behaviour.....then I just pray pray prayp lol......and true enough I found one that mention how to take care of J.R.....although the other book seems interesting too....haha....but not practical to me.....it will have other usage and reference for other materials too.

I got the materials for Song of Songs/ Solomon.....finally. Now soon will start the preparation for the soil to receive the Word. I pray that I will be able and have the heart and hunger for the Word...and the seeds of Word will grow. All these I pray in Jesus name..Amen

A Dream that woke me up

Yes. I had a dream....for quite a long time ever since I had such a clear-visioned dream. And this dream woke me up and I tear-ed for a few drops after sort of understanding what the dream is about.

Here I will pen down the dream and including the dimension of understanding I got. Here the dream story begins.

It is during the night, people are gathering at a tentage, seemingly near a HDB block with carpark. It seems like to be in Blk 24 Sing Ming Ave type, where my brother use to live in. The people are, at in dream are there for a purpose. In a short prelude of why the people are gathered there. Seemingly initially I preceived, was for a marriage was bestowed/granted via my dad's contact. It is like those marriage in the past where the couple have not met before and they get just know each other on the day of marriage. Well, it went on and thus from there, relatives' face begin to surface, including friends. The surprising fact is YP, SH were there. I was driven to the location, seemingly being brought there. And I till then saw my future bride. Well the other surprising fact is she smokes. So as just me, since going getting marry, thus I just flow along and she told me mingle among the people who came. The other weird fact is the guest are seated somewhat not all in tables. Well, perhaps as I look back into the dreams, it may not be the important facts. Lastly, my 3rd uncle (father side) I think, arrived with a "loud" shirt and tie......the dream end .......not at the arrival but as I unfold the meaning of the dream during my sleep.

Here is I interpreted the dream:
1. A seemingly marriage that was bestow/granted and accepted: - At this stage of my life, I view it as a job. As perhaps subsciously, the impression that was stated in my facebook profile was - complicated relationship with My Job helped. I have yet to consult a dream dictionary
2. The future mate is a smoker: I am not someone who like other to smoke, especially my future partner = people who I feel they are close to my heart. However due the dream fact that this marriage was bestow/granted, the smoking fact was seemingly more acceptable. It brings up the question of how willing am I to accept this future mate flaws of which are those that I so-called sworn to "hate" dislike.
3. Invitation of SH among the crowd: Her appearance at the "celebration" surprise me. My stand of interaction with her at this moment is I will not contact her at all, unless to ask help which is very very rare. How then would I invite her for the seemingly "in dream" marriage? That fact also puzzles me. The possible intrepretation is that I read about a dinner ministry that is coming up 15 Apr. That perhaps may have sink in subsciously. However, I feel things are not that simple but I just can't explain the facts why from my circle of knowledge. It seems to be deeper in meaning from my point of view.

4.My 3rd uncle: It is the attire that he is wear that seems to be the focal point. Bright loud theme with a loud tie, arriving in a car. Wearing that type of attire puzzles me. As I reflect back on this fact, I wonder is this whole thing still my marriage or something. Such a short dream, with focus point shown, it is not easy to know whether it is. However, as above mentioned, initial feel is as to be, my marriage

5. YP presence among the guest: This image, as compared to 3 is acceptable in knowledge and in parallel to the social policy that I am implementing for myself for this period of time. However the feelings that it stir the present me remains the same. Well, the fact is can be understood as the dream is a dream of a particular time dimension and I view it from the prospective of the present me. How wouldn't I feel neutral, with the way and direction that I am intending to head for? The feelings stirred shows me a clear signal - the feelings are there present in me. This as I think deeper while typing this, does not seems to be a surprising thing, from my view. I know and somehow, penned down the process in my blog. Another supporting fact is feelings is always something that is in me and always stirs first for relating to certain mattes and issues.

This is how the dream is ....and as I dropped a few tears. I begin to understand as the dream unfolds itself in somewhere, how it reflect the inner self of me. The inner thoughts and also the things that I place in higher priority. It brings out issues and thinking that were re-affirmed or just bring up to be questioned and investigated further. In all, it is a dream that I thank God for. It has being a while I had a dream of any sort of such clarity. It is really the grace of God. This is what I choose to believe.

Well in end the effect, as already shown is. I am typing it now at this timing on my blog coz I felt "woken up" by the dream and I feel perhaps I should pen it down due to the certain clear facts of the dream that puzzles me.

May someone, with divine knowledge of who I am, please explain to me when the situation deems me ready to accept the words of wisdom. This is what I pray and seek. And thus I pray too, please prepare the way and my heart to walk towards that. In Jesus' Name I pray. Amen!