How to be a Lover

DATE: 06/27/2005 08:37:40 PM

How to be a Lover – Luke 7:40-49: Parable of the two debtors

Just a few simple facts that are being brought forward; firstly, gratitude is the true motivation of love. When we are aware of how much God has done for us we are truly grateful. A heart of thanksgiving for life’s blessing and opportunities enables a sense of indebtedness but may not make us sensitive to the needs and plight of people less fortunate. There is a situation that some may relate to; we are grateful to what God has done, but not able to break out of the cycle of the idea that God has blessed us because we are good, and we try to be good because God blesses us. This problem is hypocrisy. Another point to include is profound gratitude is the result of forgiveness. For those who love little, they because they have been forgiven little; for those who love profoundly because they had been forgiven immensely. The twist of this parable is that, it is not the adulterous woman who had the larger debt, but the Pharisee’s pride-festering hypocrisy was a far greater debt. Carefully constructed self-righteousness has led to self-sufficiency that will begin to lead us to believing that God is privileged to have us among His chosen people. The sign that we are overextended in debt is that we think someone else needs forgiveness more than we do.

The forgiven woman becomes our role model, our focus. The warm and gracious people of the world are those who have been forgiven. The greater the depth of contrition, the higher the heights of compassion. When we know that we are sinners saved by grace, we become lovers communicating hope to others. There is nothing we can do or say that will negate Christ’s love – except the pride of Simon. Only a sinner needs a Saviour. If there is no realization of our need, no sensitivity of the distance between what we are and cold be – then we have blocked all possibility of being a lover.

Lastly, Jesus could give His beatific benediction only to the woman. Her confession of need was rewarded by forgiveness and the promise of evolving peace: “Go into peace”; go into an ever-increasing experience of God’s unifying, healing wholeness. What that means for us is that peace grows with each new realization of our sin. Each day has it realization of failure and missed opportunities. We will never be free of the consciousness of our potential or of the read availability of grace. Life can be separated into the tight compartments of daily adventure and freedom to fail. We need not carry any tension of unconfessed sin into our tomorrows. Peace is the gift of God that replace the anxiety of guilt.

To be a lover is to let God forgives us! Forgiveness will lead to a burst of gratitude. The way the woman cared for Jesus, is the way we are to care for people. We will never be able to do enough. For again how the woman cared for Jesus is how to be a lover. The more our Lord forgives us, the more we will become more sensitive, compassionate, open and forgiving lovers.

Imported Bdae Wish list

AUTHOR: Fredrik Freggis
TITLE: Imported Bdae Wish list
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DATE: 06/27/2005 02:56:57 AM
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Birthday wish List:
1. Corrinne May Fly away album (better ask b4 buying as I may get it myself)
2.Board game - A&A 2nd Version by Avalon Hill, Strange Syngergy by SJ Games, or AOB (Any other boardgames I dun have but ask first)
3.A date with me? I am seriously thinking of a makeover around my birthday(if you can guess when is mine) (but will need my cell leader approval first, plus my mum)
4. Just dun...
5.Saw $45 Masimaro + Hamtaro at Orchard Cineleisure...they look so cute.
6.No MS-G added...for those who know. = Mono-sodium Glutamate??

I will evaluate the above mentioned wish list individually.

1. Corrinne May Album - Fly Away - It is an album that brought me thru my 1st and 2nd year of Uni, especially when the dramatic 1st year when I invited KHB for some show and AOB. Anyway, it is not due to her recommandation, but also the songs was so rich with meaning, and if related to Christ, it is could be one of praise and worship, admiration and giving thanks to God. Thus it is an album, perhaps yes whatever you may say and know, I may abmit them because I can't deny them But one thing for sure...this time round, I wanna to watch her concert in Singapore, regardless of whatever reason or purpose it is going to be.

2.Board games - A tool that I have a gaming group that I have yet to organise to meet yet ( basically they are my camp mates.) Furthermore, with my $$ diverted to VS, also due to lack of space at home, I have bought less board games and the market offers B.G that are sometimes beyond my budget or my taste. Thus AOB is considered when you wanna to get any for me as currently there isn't one that is displayed at this moment that caught my eye, or arouse my interest yet...yup I admit....I am seriously distracted.

3.Makeover....yup I have being considering it for a few months already, perhaps even up to 1/2 a year. Just that there was no reason or motivation for me to do it. Also, I didn't want to makeover because of attract or chasing purposes. But thank God, he gave me a vision already, which have some uncertainty of the purpose but I will still continue to pray (start to pray to be exact). A Date...haha.....I dun deny the desire, but it is a dangerous one. Thus, just out of serious joking, with serious consideration, this is just a point and remain a point. A date is a bit too far fetch for me to handle, but upon God approval and his will. There is no denying of this, but if it gone too far, I am prepared to cut off this / reject it totally in the name and power of Jesus. I hope it is not a trap that I am setting for myself to fall into. That will quite frightening. As speaking in faith, I drop into a faithful trap. There are other accompanying issues but all are in the dangerous frontline of warfare, a place I have always find myself in, but always in high stress level and only a wrong choice will kill me, but a continous walk will bring a growth and experience that I will appreciate to great due later

4.Just dun.....well just dun can refer to 3 too, but it has a more indepth meaning to that.....as I have always have plots twist around to get myself off....the thing that I desire the most is the thing that I fear the most when I get. Such fear is unhealthy, and have to be constant checked with the holy spirit. Thus just dun.....can mean more if you fully understand me, what I have walked thru......

5.Yup,.....I was led to walked into a shop that sold large soft toy then I saw the hamataro and Mashimaro. Also Steve mentioned them out of the blue, not seriously I believe regarding them. Thus what ......but anyway....yup I dun deny wishing for them, but practically and realistically, have to consider they are both white colour...so can get dirty.....hmmmm....also space on my bed.....and my other bear bear may get jealous....when so far from my knowledge, no one have caught the art of what type of bears I like....and how do I choose them.....so will need a more sensitive person to choose them.....this skill, from what I know, does not belong to either gender.....it is all about the heart of looking.

6. No MSG...it is double meaning....MSG is a flavouring.....MS-G, well it is an encoded language again....but well, as it is a common one.....however after going thru a poor week, I am considering at this moment to include flavouring as one of my fasting item too. Yup MSG also rumoured to cause hair to drop more.....either in the body or due to stress....yup yup..

Anyway, be very sure before considering all this....there is more preparation work done and earlier before I wrote the birthday wish list.....so beware.

First Personal Games blog on DOTA

DATE: 06/22/2005 09:38:42 AM

Yup this is my first Game blog on DOTA....well the heroes I use are the following

1. Fire Babe - Linu Inverse, Slayer

2.Homy missile- Boush, Tinker

3.Icey Babe - Rylai Crestfall, Crystal Maiden

Zap, Homing missle, bite....they are my trained heroes and better run when you see them......as again, this is meant to be a SP = Spiritual Personal blog....I will speak of some stuff from this.

1. Slayer, quick to kill, no mercy. Accurate calculation of HP needed together with mana. These are the game aspect, but in life, we need to know who is our target, their potential and our reserve and ability. From here, act quick and decisively and...boom...there it goes.

2. Tinker, hit hit and blind, then missle. HP again as usual, but no need to aim.....plus of course one other stuff... What to learn? Know your keypoint in life, your movements in life and where to position yourself is an important key. Then when to hit the mark...and let the work do itself.

3.Maiden, bite bite, hit hit, frost, or bite and freeze. Cold jokes...yeah that is the way to make own self freeze.....but no good. However, in general you have to know when to make the humour and the correct time, when there are audience. In conclusion, something there is only one shot.

Well, as again I believe MS will not read this blog....so there is going to be one shot. Cold jokes...haha.......I bought a joke book hoping to change the style of my jokes...haha, have not started reading it yeah...playing too much game...no good. Fasted for a short moment only....guess I wish to fast some more....for a better purpose, a better use of time. At this moment just a little disfocuse (little...hmm), anyway...yup yup MS is back in SG, Corrinee May is back in SG on 10 Aug 2005 for a concert at the "durian place". Anyone wish to accompany me? Any ideas on how to get MS??? hmmmm...bad F.F, bad F.F. only know how to try to get MS out...bad bad bad.....well...a little derviation may be a little good during stress moment. However, focus on ministry, focus on entering the vision. My 12, my 12...where are they

Yup indeed Thailand, Lord is that the place you wanna me to serve...SL...Wonder what can I learn from the up-coming Gateway Youth Convention. and it overlaps with that T.G. event.....where can see photos......what a tough decision to make.....yup I must always remember as I type this.....To Lord: Disrupt everything that is not of you....Something I will remember as the same as Isaiah 44:20 " He feeds on ashes, a deluded heart misleads him; he cannot save himself, or say, "Is not this thing in my right hand a lie?"

A verse that brought me thru these 4 years. A simple verse but yet multi-meaning and stuff can be extraced from it. Of course some of the related verse are taken from a study bible, which is a gift to my cell leader...yeah.

Anyway there is still one issue to settle at this very moment....but I have yeah to act...guess the current situation may implies that I am not ready....well....patience...yeah...be patient.

Yeah my good friend bought the lastest album of Corrinne May for me......how sweet......will try to get it autographed if possible...... :)

There all folks of updates

New happenings

DATE: 06/16/2005 10:25:00 AM

Thank God....it has being a while since the last blog....lots of things happen....yeah finally NYJC made it....they won the championship.......it was a overkill by bookie Cheekit training system. Though still I was not happy with some incident, but joy still overflows till the extent with stress....upset my stomach and devoid me from a good dinner......but of course manage to play DOTA with them.....well Gary is really too good.......have to pay attention to him. Farming too well is a great threat. Any way....so much for the IJCOC....finally I can fully retire.....where is doramon?? oh boy....where is shifu.? where is WY?

A poor decision / poor organisation skill....now I missed most of the RLL cluster camp.....also went back with a poor intuition act to a 05-03 room incident......sigh......I should have being more C and D. Guess I was too tired and a bit of negligence. Well well....now have to train my C details more. Learn from Ps Lily...haha.....also plus arrow warning........a too cautious move....well natural I believe is still the best way out. Focus on God in all things. Yup that is what I learn...plus.....in all things speak when necessary on such issues....R issues and dun speak too much...act too weird.....it will ultimate give a signal.

Vision, yes from the cluster camp, I receive. Vision of a opening door, a path that I walked....written I have....plus another vision...Long.....White cap.....Pray is the word I got......after having increased my faith level to believe in a ....., after RL combined meeting, Casual with M S, how abt my S M-men? Outing with them...to what extent? should I continue? A dilemma now that I have to set certain limits.....set certain boundaries....for now I know, it is hard....but thank God for all the chats, phone calls....thank God Thank GOD. Mindsets are starting to clear, faith is starting to rise up......yeah I know I am still not ready....responsibilty and authority for his service. Spiritual maturity...yup indeed important. At this moment, with a Corrinne May concert coming up....how how......should I or shouldn't I?....better ask my cell leader.......am I going to fast? should I or shouldn't I? The barrier will be the G12 vision (which is important to me) and church...but I believe now, God have the best for me and he has the best plan.....pray pray pray....that is what he wants me to do.

Chalet, a chalet that was relaxing, but yeah with new changes....thank God. Well at least IJCOC is over...cluster is over....now trying to pack my room. My stuff that are back......next week packing week. Yup new changes at home....new changes I need to do.....but I know those are things that God is preparing me for.....Lord just let me not strife away from what you intend for me. I believe you are doing a new work in me. I learn something " Fear is not to be the God of your life. Fear of God is to be part of your life with God" A prayer book I have bought to record all the prayer request, prayed stuff.....prayer list....whatever....recording too all the words/phrase of wisdom that God gave me.....for future use. ..opps....as I write this blog...I realise forgot to pray this...forgot to pray that....oh boy....thank God.....I better act next time round.

Really late already...guess I gtg....and rest......pray pray abit.....also with NUS dialup almost time up....BB....still thinking.....$$$ issue. Makeover......still thinking......perhaps when my birthday approaches. Just makeover for once......but if I were to....sorry no pixs uploaded......but you can request from mi...ask and it will be given. Who gave mi that makeover idea.......or affirm that idea.....hmmmm......just guess and you may hit the right person....for what purpose.....well...perhaps for a change...yeah......a preparation stage.....

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Shrewd Saints -A One of ones

DATE: 06/16/2005 09:49:37 AM

Luke 16:1-17 - Parable of the Unjust Steward

Shrewd = Keen, artful, astute, innovative. Words that are associated to the word.

This chapter that I read is really interesting. Shrewd, a not so good word but yet something that we may neglect the benefits when we serve. The two things that shrewdness one that could come to grips with a crisis of a real situation and one that produces an energetic, sagacious plan to solve life's problem. Jesus affirms the willingness in us to dare to believe that there is nothing too big for God. Seek and ask for wisdom on matters on our knees in consecration. James 1:5 - ?.... a verse that God already have affirmed his willingness to give wisdom when we need it. When the Lord allows us to drift into complexities which to us seem to be unsolvable, so that He can be the source of the solution, let us see these opportunities as potential, potential for God to use his given intellect, emotion, will in us to devise a plan that will astound us and the people around us....may the glory of Him be magnified. Let us see difficulties as a dynamic prelude to new advancement. That include what is describe in this parable. If an unjust steward could us money to gain friends, why can't the children of light use to make friends, influencing the people with the same power available that raised Jesus from the dead instead of the media. Our purpose is to use material resources as an expression of our friendship with God to make others His friends. That's the purpose of tithing and giving to Christian causes (woah from the book)...Indeed I fully agree. As Wesley was right: "Earn all you can, save all you can and give all you can." I believe as what the book have written, The Lord wants shrewdness in the earning and distribution of our money. In v13 speaks clearly, I just like to add another verse Mark 12:28-33 - Love God with all your heart......everything's possible now with a keen ardent, wholehearted response.

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PvP, Prayer of People

DATE: 06/08/2005 06:23:10 AM

The Prayer God won’t Answer – Luke 18:9-14 Parable of the Pharisee and the Publican

Both of them are Jews, in common not being admitted to temple for P-rayer. Firstly to see how the Pharisee prays; a comparative one that is not only odious, but opportunistic. He is a prayer that tries to lift him up by putting another down. By right, we are all on equal acceptance of Gift of Jesus. We are not based to being better than others but how God has gifted us to be. This, together based in externals, based on deeds and not character / personalities, shaking foundation that can fully be horrifying independent from God. A life that is without God’s deeds and all based on self-deeds. A deception of our mind into thing that we are right with God, however, it may be rationalizing to protect our ego, to fight to make us secure – even at the cost of fighting God. The purpose of prayer is to see things as they are; ourselves as we really are; God as He has revealed Himself to be. A pride that distorts our capacity of self security it may lead to without our security in which we are in God, in his world. When without an identity in God, where will our humility comes when we do not recognize God’s authority in all. Comparative, external, prideful and humility lacking prayers are ones that God would not answer.

Humility is an outward expression of gratitude, honesty, and courage to grow. Indeed this is a difference between the two Ps in prayer. Sin, common to both, but easily misunderstood in this case. Sin is separation from God, but from one’s purpose and potential. We will never able to outgrow our need for God’s love, forgiveness, guidance and indwelling power but only increasing grow in our desire and recognition of their importance in our life, more important is HIM who freely gives. The opportunities, not just the failures that drive one back to him. Ultimately, humility, an avenue that God will reward with justification, which the publican received graciously. A prayer of humility is a prayer that God will answer, and humility, itself, is more than an outward expression, but it too is an inward experience that I believe will have to come first. An infilling of the holy spirit and a surrendering of a life of sin for a renewed heart and life that is God centred, and God directed, with a humility of God. A God’s humility. Woah.

Gift, u wanna to receive?

DATE: 06/02/2005 08:36:42 PM

God wants to give you a gift – Luke 11:1-13; 18:1-8: Parables of Importunity

A simple title for an article, but yet it may take great faith to receive it. How much truth is this statement depends to the measure of faith we have, towards this statement and ultimately towards God. God, here is the giver. I personally believe that God know what is the best to give us, but he more willing to wait for us to pray and believe that he will give. Nonetheless he very much wants to give us a gift. However, our perception of God will determine what to ask for, how to ask for and the most important step, whether it should be asked. This may be why we always struggle to pray. There are a few things that I learn, the whys and how. We may have tried to find time to pray, but a more in-depth rooted, that is our conception of God. Praying is not trying to overcome God’s reluctance or as a guilt-ridden accountability time for an inventory of our sins. Neither of these motivates us to a communication with God, of prayer or of announcing his asking. In fact, he already knows how needs, and is more ready to give more than what we pray for. He is that unreservedly willing and receptive listener. He is a friend there who longs to loves us and to have us love Him. A prayer to such a friend is already one that is like banging on an opened door, or convincing a judge that is already in our favour. Secondly, God is not a reluctant neighbour, whose presence is just there but not approachable or non-negotiable. Importunity is a virtue of prayer. His silence was His blessing. From Romans 5:1-5, we can exult in our tribulation; knowing that tribulation brings about perseverance; and perseverance, proven character; and proven character, hope; and hope does not disappoint; because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us. The hope we have is in God and not the solution to the problem. HE knows what we want, and anticipates our prayers before we are beforehand, after passing the consideration / willingness barrier, to ask Him for the purpose of the prayers. A great guide I read and fully appreciate is how we pray from “I want” to “Lord, what do you want” to “I will!” I know personally I am still at the stage of “Lord, what do you want”. How I know and why do I know will relate to an article I read weeks after this, that I read at the same week as I write this long-due article. Be patient and let these words sink into your heart. Finally, the answer to our prayer is not just merely fulfilling the details of request of the prayer, the needs and the things. But He has more than that to give. He wants to give us Himself. As in Luke 11:13, I personally feel, we know about the trinity and give the Holy Spirit isn’t just like God giving himself to those who ask of him? Know beforehand, our prayer is not just getting God’s attention, but to appropriate God’s His attentiveness. The seeking period is the perfecting period as like Jacob, who prays not to want God for what he could do form him or the people, but want God for God himself. As what Mother Teresa have managed about prayer: Prayer enlarge the heart until it’s capable of containing God’s gift of Himself. All of life is prayer without ceasing. With knowing that prayer’s purpose to for God to give himself to us, lets us not distance away from prayer, but take prayer from a different perceptive, one that will change our heart for prayer and our willingness to pray…the joy of prayer, yup I praise God for that. How, thru his parable of humour, he speaks so deep of teachings he has for us, for his ultimate purpose for us, that is himself for us. How wonderful and gracious he is. : )

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D&D after D&D

DATE: 06/02/2005 09:53:21 AM

Beyond Duty to Delight Luke 17:1-10

A parable of the unworthy servant, unprofitable ones that are owned by God. He own everything of us, he owe us of nothing. Familiar systems of give and take may still be in our lives. Love to be loved, give to receive, work to be praised and paid handsomely can be part of our ethic. I’ll love you if-syndrome, encouraging people in keeping what we want from them, and the list goes on. Perhaps these are the things are very uncomfortable to mention, but one surprising thing I learnt from this book. They actually commented that thankfulness is actually a human response. Woah what a hard-hitting comment! I personally always think that thankfulness is appreciation what God have done in my life, or the things that God have allowed me, or called me to do. The duty of servanthood is actually not with divine expression of thankfulness, but it is a duty. A duty that comes with no special motivation for good but one that is common as breathing, eating and sleeping. It is also not serving a duty that helps us accumulate IOU from God. We are instead always in debt with HIM. How can we appreciate a work that is always in debt? A duty that is always of obedience? The answer is already given. Beyond duty to delight, an approach we can choose to adopt. Beyond the duty that we do to God who owns us, there is joy, with faith as is reward. As we do more of our duty to God, the more faith we cultivate and harvest. A faith knowing that God is in control of all, a God that owns us and know us well, a reward that accompany joy and delight that I, at this moment could say, only being it thru that one could fully understand what it fully truly means by beyond duty to delight. As much as we could serve and fulfil our duties with joy and delight, the unfinished tasks are usually faced in the gratitude for the finished gift of

Calvary

. A final question which I just like to bring forward is regarding the life of Job, someone that I always admire and imitated. In Job 1:9, KJV, Does Job fear God for nought? Which the real question is “Does Job fear God for God?” Using the same structure, I will try to ask, do we serve our duty for duty sake only? I am glad that now, I know what does duty means to me, duty just means a in very simple words that may not able to catch the whole spirit of it – doing for a friend called Jesus Christ who have already own us.

Finally, catching up my spiritual blog…with tons more to come…help help….help me lord….Learned some more stuff at Ps Ronald 144 regarding relationship, which will be shared when time allows and opportunity arise..

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