Test out the voting poll

Here to test out my voting poll for the following:

"Would I chase a girl in the year 2009?"

The test vote will be Yes.

This is a remindar that the extra one vote is mine.

Some policy declaration and updates

Since no one is going to read my blog, I will just write these declaration.

Yup. It is some policy declaration my side.

1. I owe Miss Evonne $3.90 for the purchase of a bottle -->>

if I don't achieve the condition of ...... Miss Lin. Condition is valid for 2 years.

2. I should stop complaining / whining about Miss Lin.

3. If things continues as it is now, I will need to treat Miss Chia to a good meal.

The above 3 mentioned, as written here, are kept for records in case I go thru another record deleting period. So they are for my records, as I mentioned above, I doubt this blog got anyone will read it.

So here are some updates. Yup...there aren't much to update. Other than the almost cabbing. Well I just have to give thanks....at least the call was picked up. That is better than nothing. However, the upsetting of peace thing is I have stopped giving up "giving up". This cause a dilemma at times. And in the same time, I feel a little of giving up of my other aspect. Unmotivated, a little depressed and pessimistic about what is to come, despite going for a transformation conference just 1 week ago. I only managed to take to heart the first day of the conference. The second day, well despite having more sleep and less travelling time, I couldn't get much. Anyway, I HAVE and SHOULD take away a thanksgiving.....well at least this is what that is carrying me on with life. When will the breakthru comes.

Also just in case I forget, I was told that when I start to look into the fundamentals, He will come and share what those that will be turned around. I am really not sure and uncertain, though deep in my heart, I know that is from Him. Well let's just say I feel a little reluctantly challenged.

Back to the preceding paragraph, as I mentioned I should stop complaining / whining...that is what I should. However as I continue, I feel there are so many obligation, shoulds and musts to fulfil. Perhaps that was how I filled my life with before the break. I really wonder how did I survive that. Perhaps there was real hope and faith in my heart that is forgotten. Or was it meant to be forgotten? I just feel like giving up going to church service. What is the point of going when I dun seems to receive anything? Or reluctant to receive? Aren't that not an encouragement to fellow brother in Christ? Or my presence is one that encourages? What I can do now is to hug my bear and seek some comfort from the turmoil of my emotions. Am I now more emotional or more labour-focus...or just that I am undecided?

Typing more perhaps is therapeutic in nature as I continue to type more. When I dun initate the conversation with others, other wouldn't. Perhaps I am just so selfish person, insignificant in people's life as I didn't even do anything significant in people's life. But as I type, well someone do say hi...only after I mention this in my MSN: "F**K,....Not Motivated....not inspired....who know what can pull me out of this pit?" God is just good. Well I just continue to type until something better will come about.

Well I got 2 person confirmed for this sunday gaming session. What will be the target number of people, I am not sure yet. All I know now is I want Subway....Subway....Double Chocolate cookies. Be a fat pig, a fat potato.....a big big big hermit crab.....and a safe heaven in a turtle shell....Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle.....Turtle is a hard shell....Turtle power. ? ? ? Wonder did I get all this correct.

Well as I type, God is just so good. Talking to Geraldine, one whom due to my ignorance and unbelieveable action or whatever, asked her to come my house to help me in shelving my notes some time ago....cant remember when....I think when she is Year 1... talking to her as she is earning from tuition. Well I am meeting her for dinner tomorrow at Northpoint.

Anywhere, talents of God. It is not about the numbers as both parables of God have clearly mentioned. It is how we use the talents. As a few occassion I re-think about this parable and reflect upon my life. Have I fully used the talents that God gave me. What are the talents that God gave me?

I just wonder if some time later, someone will kiss me on my cheek....? One thing I know is...I give thanks to God and ask any addition words? Reply maybe do what the Lord has placed in your heart. Sometimes I find it hard to differentiate between vision, dreams or just self illusion. Well that is quite hard to say. Perhaps I take a short breathing from this article and continue on another....making it 2 in a day? ? ? haha...funny