Here is the report for 18 Jan 2010

Pre-18 Jan 2010

Again, for real, I forgot to bring my cell phone to service on Sunday. The final sunday in Singapore for the short trip back to SG.Well, so thinking it will just be another missed opportunity also needing to get ride of all my clothes, the extra ones.....so the quick solution to the situation is to go home. No reply which can be understandable with a happy late night celebration for her brother wedding..... woah......it was such a distant but real experience to be a close relative to someone who is getting married. Mine happen like some years ago already. A close but yet distant brother, whom have changed alot thru all these years. Marriage do change people's life

Well back to the main topic. So off back I went home. Just took a Smart Alex with me.......into my stomach from Breadtalk. Went back home. Got my phone and then replied my sms to my g-sis. As her mum got something for me....so I were to go her house to take it. That is after I went out with my mum to settle all the outstanding issue with singtel stuff at my grandma place. Letter and stuff......everything ended in the late afternoon already. Thus after that I went off to meet g-sis at Tiong Bahru for dinner. Hotpot....yum yum.....then we have desert downstairs.....and so we just chatted. Work, anything under the sun. She took Waterchestnut, I took Green Tea Ice. So as we were talking, I was just telling her and pondering in my mind how I could not call YP...the usual complains.....gosh which guess are just desire in the heart....perhaps making more effort to reduce complains is a measure to take. However, I guess I really was easily satifistied. My g-sis took my phone and made the call for me. In my mind I was thinking....I called 2 times already, and she didn't picked up....based on what will she pick up this time round.

To my surprise, someone else picked up the phone. So HP backed into my hands and I asked for the person. And here starts of the perfect example from my view, of something learnt in the bible....something like xxx favours the prepared minded.... This will lead on to a total of 3 calls in the span of a short time.....first time round: Question asked were what u doing....who are you with.... then a mention of when I am leaving and plans for monday.....asking out for dinner and so.... It ended of as the end of the call.....
2nd call.... as got a knock from my g-sis and also I wanted to spend some final time for the moment in SG with her....catching up with her....so my g-sis helped me called again...and so I took the phone....perhaps already satisfied with the answer but yet still want to meetup.....here is when a divided heart that really make doing things so different and inefficient. The second time was a little better....although still equal as the first time....except I managed to keep a live line....but saying I will check on my schedule....failed to arrange to meet on 17 Jan 2010 night itself. Well thanks to Jennifer....haha well it is not really an excuse...also it was getting late and well already informed that I was with my g-sis.....whom I already met 3rd time for 11 days....haha..well my g-sis already know whom my heart point towards.....just that it is kept as it is for the moment till revealed. Well it was only the thired attempt...also still not me who called initially,....gosh.....things just have to come in 3s....haha....that finally I managed to arranged the lunch......as the reality makes meeting for dinner quite impossible and time will be very limited....also there are other factors to be concerned of..... Perhaps I was just thinking I would prefer to be more of control of the time and be able to spend more time. I am glad, excited and still cautious as I reflected my performance for the night.....Well I just have to prepared myself mentally and also being relaxed as the next day approaches.

18 Jan 2010.

The day has come....Morning I accompanied my parents to see Dr B. Thio. with regards to my dad's condition and medication. So it was a ok wait.....everything end by 11+....so I went straight down for Tampines. Managed to reached by 12.10 after returning books for my mum to tampines library. Toured around Ikea.....didn't have much success into finding things that I can buy for future usage...like the boxes that I found the other time....went to Giant.....looked around and then to Courts before YP called me.....then we went to Giant's foodcourt to eat....yeah I got a 30cent discount....and guess what I ate? I ate Mee Hoon Kuay....the same thing I ate when I came back in SG......She took porridge, mushroom, veg and pig liver......yeah pig liver...haha...the thing that I dun really eat in the past and I do eat them now.....as we ate we chatted lol.....and the first question.....she asked and I also answer more or just not to the question is....why did my g-sis called her using my phone. Gosh I gave an explaination all around the bush...except after I answer the whole thing.....it was to answer why I wanted to call her....and not answer to the question....haha I just answer coz she had my phone to call......which after my explaination, from understanding may means otherwise...well I will just have to say it clearer here...typing is clearer I hope. Perhaps I just couldn't believe that I could catch her on the phone....giving myself excues to just give up.......This is something that I should work on...something that linger behind after last month turmour.....well I think it can be worked out again and restored....by God's grace. Then the second topic......and the bridging one was whethe my g-sis is a potential one....I firmly answer nope. Not possible.....well stating the reason that I will not marry a relative. Of course the common reply was there are always...... well to me, I am very clear on that...and I understand why I used the term g-sis....it allows me to be clear that the care, love and concern is far more than a friend, but it is not that of a gf or wife..... As I type this...I do think I may have to question this aspect again. So what is the differentiating factor? This is one question perhaps I should persue to find out what is my stand. Then back to the second topic..it was one of the first topics that both of us talked about......in another form....Requirment.....so I just stated my basic requirements.....which is redefined as the deal-breaker one.....Love God and follow God. And then she followed up with another...with a what if....coz that is something I wouldn't believe would happen.....however as I reflect back...how it is so illustrating....of a real example.....and wonder now.....it is reinforcing what I am standing on...or it is starting question on my stand now.....For now I wll maintain my stand. So what stand...the stand as it is....and for you to find out....stand = situation and reaction to situation. So then we went to giant...she went to get a drink....Snapple.....a glass container so that can put in hot water...and sweet...she took clorest....and asked for my opinion.....I said I would take tick tae....coz it was my childhood favourite....and she took orange....nice striking colour which I still like today...though I rarely eat them already...she said she will listen to me took tick tae....haha gosh....mind winding....haha....now I sort of understand alittle why there are some phrase about such mass-more-rise....haha...dun really know how to spell the word....hack... :)

I was close to 1hr+.....saw her colleague and team leader.....as usual will be mistaken as bf...which I am already very used to it... with my g-sis.....anyone would mentioned similiarly too.... her team leader said she should spend alittle more time.... :) :) nice.....but her english was really good....she can really pick up other's accent quite well....I still remember how I managed to imitate Mr Bosman advertisement for credit card...haha..welll gone were those days. ..so as I think.....how good I am .....what do I have to offer......well there are many question that can be asked...some can be answer..some can be proven...in the end.....perhaps I am still right to say....I am just interested in her = YP...Young People (contributed by JJ)........not liking......loving as loving a sis in christ, a neighbour......so what is the route to come.....I would just say leave it to God for His plan is greater and clearer ....size is not the matter of the fact....it is the fact of the matter. What lays within weighs more than size. I not sure what was the really joke about eat more chocolate or something will increase what size....guess my eve-dropping skill have detoriate....time to sharpen those sense already... :)

I guess as I reflect upon the day ...there is more to be written here...like pre-act-post.....etcs,.....may it just continue on on a life of learning