It looks like a very similiar situation as before, as of last semester. Reading week and here I am, mugging in library. With thoughts and interest that seems the same as before, however, there are some difference I believe since then and now. There is a greener and clear vision of what to do now, with what objective to set and what are the boundaries that are there. However, within such situation, there is still always a God that is always in control. At this point, there are a couple of observation that are different, which I will try my best to elaborate on them as I remember.
1. Cell groups is going through a tranformation, a time of challenge and a time of building up in faith of one voice. There is a deeper calling for everyone to work closer and more united, in a community in tune with the calling of God in mind of all that will come about. Although the roles are being spelt out, I believe since the recent prayer meeting, there seems to be something still lacking, a level of a different that is the gap between what we wish to do and what we hope to achieve. However, I believe with all my heart that God is always and will be in control and will speak clear to everyone in the cell group. The only question in mind that I have is for God, what do I need to do now and what role and aspect do I play in such a progress. Well these are just thought swhich I dun think anyone will know as noone will read this blog. Thus, I could safely say this, I really want to see some change, united in spirit and to see God move powerfully in the cell group. And also, I dun really wish to do it seemingly alone with the preception that I am alone in this. It is tough unless I know clearly that God is in the mist and I am being called clearly for it. OH GOD !!!!
2.The very strange question to ask myself, am I indifferent now or I am just merely suppressing it. Or I am afraid to admit the truth or I have not yet surrenderred it? Does missing someone means anything? There are question that are remained unanswered and remain questioned, but however, there is a difference now. There is a change of priority and there is a clear goal in mind to walk towards. That is an area of ministry. I believe and will continue to believe that God will speak to me clearly when I have continued to perserve now till next semester, continously listening to HIM and learning to obey HIM. As like a blind man without sight should not lead another blind man, for me, I should hear and see God's instruction and move in according to his instruciton with full faith and openess that he is in control and all-knowing with the heart giving the best for me. Although it may remain incomprehensible, unclear and this moment, persist in the promise that God has given and not stride astray. Now with more people knowing who the person is, perhaps due to myself, well, now I must have created such an outcome for myself to bear with.
Luke 11:35-36 (NIV) See to it, then the light within you is not darkness. Therefore, if your whole body is full of light, and no part of it dark, it will be completely lighted, as when the light of a lamp shines on you.
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