A letter that I intended to write....I just post it here for the sake of accounting..

This letter was typed here as the title has mentioned, for the sake of accounting purposes. As I was pondering over should I even write this letter, I felt the objective of writing this letter is not that it will be made known. However, it is to make accounts of the process of how things have went through. This is also to reflect through the whole process of what are the trigger and turning points that may be significant. Well it is just something that may be new, that still is new to me.

I am a little lazy to type out the letter format... I will go straight to the point though

Dear Ms Lin,

"Gosh it is just so difficult to start this letter....when I wonder how am I going to start this letter going." Perhaps I should start with the things that I want to do account for.

1. 1st time working at Christmas Cambodia. PowerPoint slides.

The first impression about Gladys Girls... Like to chat and so different from the us(Jerome guys), still in the midst of being task oriented. Well perhaps at that time I was quite tight with time and also trying to figure out what are the things to do.

That impression was quite mild....though the opportunity to work together is as I feel now, the start of things to come. Your honest sharing of how trembling it was to be in front of the crowd when presenting the short ad about the Christmas celebration to the Cambodian. That in ways presented how confidence and openess one is.

2. Helping bringing stuff to one of the RL camps at Temasek Secondary School.

This is one experience that I could not forget. Just a plain simple thought. Offer help and also I get easy ride together.

Thanks to GSM and SMS. SMS delays and stuff. Hungry and thoughts wonder in my mind that led me to the doorstep. Wosh. When I arrived, I just wondered. Wosh. What am I doing here? A loyal friend at the doorstep with greetings. And then at the dinning table, with both paws seeking for some food. Completely mind blank and wonder what have I done. Well, but as I look back, imagining the wiggling tail of Kopi, if I was in a more prepared mind state, perhaps I would ask and then give some.

That was part 1. Part 2 Simple question and comment from the taxi driver.
Part 3. The surrounded "interviewers" at the canteen of Temasek Sec. All asking me question that is so related to what the taxi driver commented. Silence is my best defense. Felt so cornered, there is also when I decided. Perhaps I should find out more about you.

3. NDP 2008
This is the period of time that the most time is spent and for interaction. Although we are of different departments. Time spent, as in a book entitled "Too close, too soon". Time is an essence of time spent to understand and know a person. Quality Time. I just had great time when all 3, plus Neng....conquering the Mango Ice "Everest" .... so funny....haha

4. Bus-ing/ cabbing time + Lunch appointments
Also mentioned in the above. Plus the lunch appointments where interesting question were asked. Things that to me, that I rarely asked others that often where I am just simply at times predictable via Online chat for a period of time. A standard question for me is "How are you?". Perhaps that is what I always like to ask. Simple systematic answer with always a simple answer back. With more depends on people. With Point 2 reinforced/in progress, all the time spent are knowledge and info. As work starts to accumulate and time is becomes more a luxury with higher prioritising is required, it gets harder.

Perhaps it is the thrill or an adventure. I am so science person that knowledge is something I always like to seek for. Especially about people. In depth at times. Being High S. Systems and models. However, you have always surprise me always. Or in other ways mentioned, God is always a surprising God. Thus God is super high S...haha. The headlines of your News with a 1-liner always make me think...woah....that is really something happening.


5. Handling of Jo Chia's gift
One way of saying. A return of favor. The first time was I got Jo to pass your gift to you. As before I flew off, being always mindful of QC QC QC..... so I hurried one so that it can be given back to Jo. The ironic of it is, it became a 2 "pass" system. I.e. I pass to Jo, then Jo pass to you. And till the time comes, you pass back to Jo. Not sure with the fact that I will be back the year after 2010, I could only think that this is a more reliable way. And also to allow a repayment of favor from my prespective. Since the item is going to be the same and packed in the same way. Just the design was slightly different due to time (i.e Year)

And it went as planned from my understanding. This really impressed me significantly. Upon reflection, I had setup something that will in the end impress me more. This was on top after one session by Ed Silvoso conference/sermon => there was a time of .... where "male" to apologies to the "female" for somethings. At that timing, after played out by a friend, habitually not take certain things tactfully, repented. Thus from that time onwards, I told God: " Please help me on this that I will reduce/eliminate the negative words and framing." 1 & 2 May 2009 I think.

Well I too a culprit of slow or even no response. :)

For the being played out by friend, it will just be an experience of life...or a story to tell then :)

6. Others
Being becoming more aware of the nature of S and C in the DISC personality, and upon reflection how I work and what things seems comforting to me. Systems are current what I adopt.

Benchmark, or yardstick that I recently learned, are measure in which are standards to follow or as a guide. As I venture through this period again and again (sounds like a lot of times), 3M that I managed to hear from Jerome, and as I read other books, I being to set certain list or criteria that I know are essential. So I went back to the stack of paper that I managed to photocopy during my time as FCBC Youthnet Admin CSO, (got it off from Ps Debra). Detailed question that asked almost everything that have influence within some one's life. So I spent some time to fill it up.

Submissive Dominance, something that at this moment, seems to work quite well with me. My understanding currently is Male is still to lead, which I at times is still reluctant. I always like to serve. As I am slow to change, it take times for me to accept and integrate things to my "policies" (sound like government).

In simple summary, I always have these thoughts in mind:
1. With such great charming character, how not being "hot stuff" isn't being noticed by people? What is the deterring or determining factor?

2. I always believe God protects His people until to the point God knows the right one arrives. That, in ways that I can't have no words to explain, but in simple faith and from oberservation, I believe God... For who He is.

3. Why am I always still attracted to ladies with character? or Godly character? Simple question with simple answer.

Curosity Kills the cat. Am since I am a curious cat, curosity always kills me...haha.

God is just always good to me. In all, as I always seek, in ways all things still points me to Him. For He is still the ultimate Person that I am always attracted to too. Just only easily distracted away from too. :(

A letter intended to write, which was almost 2 year ago, 13/08/2009. A time that I was already away in HK and starting off a life. But now 14 Jan 2011, in a year that is to believe to Live Big/Large in God. I finally finished typing this letter. However in a different situation, over a year of ups and downs, hilltop experience and valleybottom distress. With more understanding of what I still lack and what issue I still avoiding.

One thing still remains, it is a life that I thank God for. Every breath upon the first each day, is a day that is God's gift of the present.

A verse that is dear to my heart. A verse that lift me through life:

2 Corinthians 1:3-7 (NIV)
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 5 For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ. 6 If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7 And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.

A verse that was given. Thank God