13 Sept I meet my friend and received a message 14 Sept K and I talked

 12 Sept 2016 - 1500 - 2330 => 8.5 hours => 156.5 hours
14 Sept 2016 - 1 hour lunch + 1830 - 2330 = 6 hours => 162.5 hours                        
16 Sept 2016 - 1730 - 0000 => 7.5 hours -> 170 hours
17 Sept 2016 - 0000 - 1130 => 11 hours -> 181.5 hours
1400 - 2330 => 9.5 hours -> 191 hours
Again: 160.5 hours

13 Sept didn't meet  K lunch. Then dinner Finally meet Sharon,  Day was effective in some ways.
Lunch with Smoky.... with her as she politely asked if she mind I join her....sooo sweet and kind of her. 2 times.....and she has her own lunch.....already and she still don't mind joining me for lunch. Chatted and talk....she shared her life, and how her date is.....well I shared abit of mine.... mostly hearing her out.

Evening, dinner was quick and good....Japanese food.  talked about life, work, biyang, then as we proceed to a place where Mandarin Gallery, Artique Café

Then chat .....K message she feel jealous...so I told Sharon Chia, I need to attend to this first....

I learnt: Destiny. Support group, Otter sleep, PT on a intimate level beyond marriage.

I was concerned and shared with K about things.... on the next day 14 Sept.  We pray through the phone and talked about something....

14 Sept.... I told her that for lunch, lets spend time together in love.....just really as a couple.... nothing else..... enjoying each other and showering each other with TLC..... let the evening be the evening. It rained still and she grab me close to her heart..... But it was nice

Evening comes...... I napped in the afternoon in prep...didn't do much but the time arrives...... I used about 5-10 minutes to prepare...... Negative emotion and its impact.
1. What are negative emotion
2. How does Negative emotion affects our lives
3. Our reaction / responds to negative emotions
4. Factor of consideration and the reason why it is a concern.

So on myside, aloof, disappointed, upset, jealous, self-critical.
Reactions: Sin more, Can't be bother mode, do more harm to self and to others, being extreme.

Affect our lives - we doubt, we argue, we can't love each other purely, we spilt up, we just do the things we agree not to

Factor of consideration - one major one for me negative emotion => creation of  desire for love via PT - > with the right amount of arousal, lead to G to G, then hurt or guilt that hurt me....and I don't know how I will respond to it......

Thus as I thought of it, I am prepared of the possibility too...I thank God.... I know I will keep to the commitment and the promise told to her..... just that there is another issue to clear

So we finish 2130...... we walked back.....she lay her head on my shoulder..... then we start to escalate a little..... I told her as we walked what I appreciate her....one which I like at time girls to take the lead..... so as we were not be able to interact with people around..... I know in my heart I sense it....she also ....then she told me let walk around.... I told her you lead the way....so we walked.....and she brought up the car park...as I approached the carpark.... I already sense it....and I just prayed in tongues..... in preparation for what is to come..... so yup we walked all the way to the top...... found a place out of sight near the lift...... and we started...... I asked permission as usual..... and she just take it off. It is more difficult but yup a least a few moments for her to release.....until time does not allow....and she feel like why is she the one who wants it..I told her....it is ok....coz I already know I am at stage 8 unconditional love.....stage 7 is just one type of expression.....when stage 8, whether stage 7 exist or don't have it is fine with me..... I desire and yearn but I can live without it. I assure her.... with just 15 minutes... one last round for her.....sooo near her place....I told her I will find the place ....I lead then since she is not satisfied.... after that I ask does she wants more....she said enough already..... due to time ..... I am glad to hear that....that I allow her to release those desires....safely....

I went back to my home.....the moment my undies were off..... I felt soooooo weak and desire....just like the day before.....she just message....quick shower and get dress up.....immediately the weak feeling left me...... and I could just shower quickly and go and sleep....Thank God for everything and Praise the Lord...... this is really accelerated preparation for Marriage lol