07 Sept 2016 - 24th day knowing each other - plus others

06 Sept 1 hours lunch, 1830 - 2330 = 5 hours instead.=> 106 hours
08 Sep2016 - 1 hour lunch, 1830 - 2330 = 6 hours => 112 hours

07 Sept, marks the 24th day. It is just a unique day.... I have to wake up really early. Bring my boy for competition. They have prepared hard and long for it. It is final the day has come. It is also a day that I don't get to have lunch or dinner with K. First planned day due  to competition and courier..... so it is a seemingly difficult choice to make, however unexpectedly it reveal something more beautiful. It is the thought and feeling of really missing someone. Though it is only for 1 day, a good start is seemingly pleasant. However it needs to be managed otherwise it will turn out too overwhelming and may cause undue desires. Well there are moments of missing....though I think work is more focus..... or somewhat distracted.

I am glad that the boys enter the final day...though it is for the side events, the main event we didn't get in. That sadden but at least they made effort...torturing me for 1 month. So it is now toward Saturday that we go forth...

Also today is a day that we have a planned prayer call.....nothing just usually....praying for holy and righteous..... soo contrary to what I am planning for tonight. It was a struggle for me as initially a simple experiential activity become taint into what is planned tonight. After 06 Sept experience in the dark park. I somewhat regretted letting those desire fly loose..... Thus it will be a struggle or a solidified commitment not to let desire fly too loose....and let them contaminate other things. Not sure if K enjoys it or prefer not to be used to the pounding heart and ticklish. At one point I didn't really want to do it.... I just don't want.....I wonder will I cry, will I react, will I bring it to the next level beyond what is limited? Well I was really feeling mixed and vulnerable...not knowing what are the consequence will be..... So thank God that the idea is....shared the plan with K and see how she is for? unlike the previous 2 which only I know what is in for, now she will come into the picture. She really trusted me a lot.... that is very assuring. And that also reinforce and make me believe that I will not go beyond the limits. Though this is test the boundary, it will be kept within the limits....The learning I hope will really set things free and let us learn about each other. I was concerned about myself in it too and for her too..... though the timing, I don't think this is the best timing. Well since my desire surface, ok ...plan for it...and see how things flows....with guidance. I apologies and may regret but what is there anything new to regret about..... I am looking forward to this exciting night where perhaps God will reveal more than what I planned for.....Let it be controlled and monitored.... Carefree accident free trust-free.....an activity to build trust even more and set some things free too....for this is the only time it should happen and not happen again until due time.