Some aftermath thoughts for today....after service and after A sermon on Exterme Joy/Delight

This is a write up on my after thoughts, thought process and a journalling, savoring the moment in gratitude. Also after managing to write 1350 words reflection selfawareness assignment today from 12pm to 1.10pm.....in just a short 1hour...impressive.

So with that begining and in the end I was late for class......things just didn't start off on the perfect note...other than I managed to continue my WoW and managed to level up my characters to which one was 85 a day or also...or ....Things just didn't start at the right music for me. Things are so hay wired...though with the interview SFBT assignment, I was already having thoughts of her.....well you know who... but well they are just some thoughts....nothing substantial. Just looking at the people, the circles of friends of potential pseudo clients to work with.... so with that note I finished the final lecture style lesson for the year....and looking into december with 3 assignments......2x1500 words essay and one full transcripted SFBT session to record.

So service....about extreme delight....and well I went into service at the very last moment and barely could find a seat....only finally to find one at the "extra" room....so be it.....it is fine with me.....saw JJ and Steve.....thinking that most prob JJ will be attending Steve cell group under Ps Jeff team. So worship worship...in an enclosed room....the achostic is really of a different feel....and the feel is so different.....perhaps due to sterotyping of such.... nothing too special.....just plain normal...other than I am sitting by myself with no one else I know in this life time of mine around me in that room...... So the word.. I am quite distracted.....taking down the key verse, although the key verse did strike me...Ps 37:4....something that interest me....but didn't keep me from distracting myself and getting myself divided between.....looking and hearing...well there isn't much to see about.... but in the end...it is a session that reminds me of God goodness and gracious in spite of the little faith that I have.

So service ends.........seems to me like Gkidz ended or there is no Gkidz....indicators.....I saw JN (new abb).....so went to 7-11 as usually, seeing what can be purchased to drink....already thinking that I will not see anyone that will know me......so far only saw 2 ....so still ok..... in the end, I didn't get anything for 7-11.....and best still, I missed my 855 bus.....as it passed by in front of me....well it will be a long wait from how I view it.....so still I waited.....wait wait wait.....looking at my iphone.....thinking at some corner of my mind...well perhaps I may just see her.....well it is just perhaps... so finally 855 came.....in the midst....and before....I was already thinking......well I think I should be more persistence.....I should just simply ask....I should just simply be nagging......and just continue to ask....or perhaps just ask the question... taking that it may be the last appointment to come. Popping 3 out of the 5 question.....from Steve Havey....asking the "miracle" question (not the SFBT style)... the question I at one point liked to ask....well.....back to my iphone....not expecting to see anyone.....not really to expect anything....although points of moment the sensing of something is coming......and indeed.....someone came up.....as I was just sitting behind the bus driver....a single seater.....didn't really notice who came up....it only don about when the person greeted me......and OMG.......God's gracious.........indeed it only the scale of God's graciousness.... that I see her in the most unexpected place.......we had a brief conversation about the bus.....and how long it took...and there is......a blind man came up....and she offered her seat....which is so gracious of her.....so it took a while for me to react....not used to such surprise....surprise surprise...that is down to the gut feeling and sense....the sensing....the coming of thoughts during the hypothesis of Law of Attraction. After I settled my game ....and did some reflection.....and reconsolidation....I managed to stand up and look for her at the back....well......just seeing her and being near is just sufficient.....well it is too me......reflection that just being in God's presence is so sufficient.....as I look back to that situation....I realise that no conversation, from my perspective is required to be in the presence of God. Thus in the similiar situation, as I did disturb her on Whatsapp by dropping a message......and then realise that she is busy with organising something....I just take time to savor the moment......to look at her ....noticing every details...and wondering....... really this is the moment that only God can make....and only the grace of God that is sufficient to give it......and here I am journalling it down. For myself to know....and whoever may perhaps going to read this. So just to occupy myself, I just post on facebook....

"I just can't believe but only know one thing. Only God can create miracles. The experience of extreme joy.

It still takes me a while to recognizing it while I am savoring the moment. Just being in the moment when already in my mind and sensing the prompting already but find it difficult to believe until I do now in exceptional unexpected times and place. Only thanks giving in gratitude are some measure to express the basis of basic of it



So what will come next is still untold. Only time will tell. What can be asked for. 5 stops away. "

So only when I am about the alight that it all ends.......even someone has to get the his friend who is blocking my exit to move aside.....and I get my chance to say goodbye...and a smile. and that ends of the journey......

also thank SS.....for liking the status..... it is nice.....and I really thank God for this moment..... these are moments to charish......moments to remember.....2 times in a month......how gratefully I am......