A month and many things has changed

It has being 1 month since I arrived in Singapore. Alot of things had went through my mind and me. G12 Conference. Uncontrolled fustration, Travel Claims, Job Search, Mate Search. Mission Search, Master Search. There are quite a long way since I arrive to where I am now. Coming to 4 years since I graduated from Uni. I wonder what I have learned much and what would I be if things were different. However those are of the history of me and now it how to I walk the future for myself. Even this week was a challenging week for me. Faith, Temptation and lots of other things that still wumble me around......God God God.....Where am I now? Which stage may I now......Initial Love? Or Faltering Love? Or Transforming Love? Or Growing Love? Or Mature Love? In what order or which every it is ......I know my heart is empty and always needing you to be around......I do not know whether I have what it takes but I believe with whatever heart left of me, that You are the one that will bring me through.

Temptation is a real thing. Something that is challenging me for the past many years. Now it is still challenging me. Thank God He help me made the right choices again and again recently. However there may come a time that I will have to make those choices by myself....with the grace of God in mind and remembrance...in love of him. I will not elaborate the temptation as it isn't the main point. It will and has been the same so I am quite accustomed to it.

There are quite a lot of thing that need to be done. I wonder where is the list of to-do things....I think after typing, I should go and have a look.

Here are a couple of things that I wish to also do and that I will list them here:
1. Record myself and post it on Youtube, illustrating a topic, or 3 points about something. The pointers that I have selected is 3M Life, I was also thinking about the powerpoint slides that I have created previously that was chapter 8 of ???? Lee Chapman book...haha..don't remember....I think I will have to go back to Shenzhen to find the powerpoint slide, then do a record.

2. Pray more, Eat more, Read more.

3. Patiently wait till July for another appointment. The appointment you know who...Also that will mark another age of my life.

4. Venture into different avenues to earn $$$.....This is to sustain the expense and also opportunity to grow myself. I do not have the opportunity to grow myself in any sort of Full time environment.... I wish and prayful for such a chance and change.

Being listen to Bible Study Lesson by CHC on Song of Songs/ Solomon. Very eye and mind opener. Learned alot and there are alot more to learn.....and also apply. I thank God for all these.

I only really wish to be able to work. In faith I put my prayer here that he will give me a job that I can grow, meet my needs and my family needs - SGD 2.5K and above. Also He will provide a house of our own for my parent be able to stay and to store all the things in the Storhub. In Jesus' Name I seek and pray, Amen.