The 0900 - 2200 day @ JB 27 - 28 August 2016 Part 2

- Movie action
- Going back to SG on the bus

Count hours:
14 Aug Blind date about 9 hours
16 Aug Dinner for about 3 hours
18 Aug dinner for about 1 hour  + pokemon go intro
19 Aug dinner for about 2 hour
20 August for about 2-3 hours
21 Aug for about 6 hours including church service
22 - 25 August for dinner about 2 -3 hours each
23 Aug - Macdonal incident
26 Aug for cell group + dinner - 4 hours
27 Aug for service - 6 hours about
28 Aug - JB trip - 0900- 2300 = 14 hours
29 Aug - 3 hours + prayer
30 Aug - dinner 3 hours
31 Aug - Went to get uniform about 2 + hours
1 Sept - the official mark of start - 1800 to 0000 - 4-6 hours
2 sept - Cell group + dinner => 1800 to 2300 - 5 hours
Sub total = 72 hours
3 sept - 1500 to ?

Just some points before I type continue that day to remember. Day of His power.... Indeed.......since 0900 or earlier which I was awake, The Friday before hand, I had to survive a day with waking up from 2 am all the way till the night.... The first cell group night. With K around. So after Saturday rest.... and talk quite a lot since 0900 till about 1600..... shared from the book I kissed dating goodbye, she was sharing a bit. While I can't really matters, but all I know we had Black Forest in Coffee Bean... which I thought there wasn't any. Yum yum..... caught some pokemon and just chatted.

Then really as she did wanted to watch movie before the coffee bean, we noted the time and we went up to find a movie to watched....the choices were already limited....no horror movie.... the reason I gave her is I will be scared....not that I want to eat her tou fu ......not soooooo early in the stage of the relationship.....haha..ops.... Quality time is more important and She as a being is more important....So we chose BFG. A movie. So it was cold..... I told her....haha and we teased and joked.....luckily she brought a shawl....at that moment I am quite drained from talking soooooo much....just need a rest....she shared the shawl with me...... she even offered the whole...but I told her she also need ....coz it is cold.... but of course other reason is to cover herself too......well.. as the movie started... I could feel the effect of being tired.... didn't focus a lot on the movie....or think about much into the movie.....then I think I somewhat was giving hint....."let hold hand"....hehe notti me.....and she got the hint...so we held hands under the shawl. for the most part of the movie....until she started to really get cold in which she retracted her hands to make herself feel warmer.  But that nottie little act in the movies...haha.... just writing to remember it....

After that we went to eat something simple. Macdonald I think...to be check again. Dinner....more chatting more sharing....what is more surprising...haha.... We ate until about 8pm, the time which should be past the peak period....then we decided we should go back liao...as the estimate of timing has reckon...otherwise tomorrow is a working day for both of us...and I talked a lot, she has thought a lot.

So as sensing it is coming to the end of the day, while trying to figure how to go back with all the crowd, I shown her the signs that I was praying the night before. Though I am a little disappointed not see God's hand in it.

As I look back now, there were actually signs before hand....the playing of my ring and putting into her ring finger...... grabbing my hand, willing to wait for me to settle my things, making breakfast, being honest and comfortable about herself. conservative yet open minded. Smart and witty, would I really want to let go of this girl.... Perhaps I didn't look at the right direction, do I really need signs to move? Sign are from God.  They spice up faith. However being with her is already a miracle of God. Being ministered to and by, I cannot believe myself whom have being single, committed 10 years to remain single, tried to chase girl but to no avail. Man don't live on sign alone...and don't always ask God for signs...believe in faith....blessed are those who believe without see it. Thus one step is to just clear with CGL which later I did.

Anyway I did show a little disappointment after showing her the signs that I prayed.... she looks deeps in thoughts..... I could remember... I was also speechless.  We didn't really talk much..... using the reason coz we are tired. I left no with a down heart, but one that just know, I can no longer sit on the fence. After what has happen, it will be painful for me to sit on the fence... I know regards of what is the past, I will need to move on...... If I don't forget and heal from the past, I will not be able to appreciate the present, if I don't do what I need to do in the present, I will not be able to move into the future, into the plans of God. Into what God may had planned for me. So she ask whether she can delivered her punishment on me..... I nodded and she put her head on my shoulder..... I just wanted to spend more time with her.....so took the bus with her to Queen street.... didn't take to nearest MRT.... Thank God for that.

After a moment, I thought why my left upper arm got something wet wet one.... then I brush my finger .....didn't detect anything..... hmmmmm I wonder....after a while, when she sniff..... I know for sure she is crying.... I was like......oh no... I made her cry again.....2 time in a spam of 2 weeks. In my heart, my heart soften. How I can let a girl who has done soo much..... I can't let it be like this. So what is my past be, so who I were....I am who I am now.... thus when we got down, after I woke her up when the bus is arriving, I tried to cheer her up saying lame stuff..... console her.... which I can't remember how I did it..... know it seems to be intermittent, I signal whether I can hold her hand, she obliged....and took MRT...in the midst.... when nearing the MRT, I just kindly reminded her.... we are near the MRT with more people.....you can still cry..... u can hold on to my hand..... I will not let go unless u want to. I think she cheered up, though still uncertain. I was glad but more determined.... So I ask if I can accompany her to Paya Lebar...she agree....then we checked.... I try to comfort her...coz I was not 100% sure....but ask her not to give up..... and the most daring thing that I believe I could accept as words are powerful and comforting... I told her I will try not to say something if I can't see it through.

Thus I told her.... coz I don't want to lose the moment, I desire to be with her.... I told her in a less simple way after she confess she has feeling for me: I have feelings for her. We talk about it days later after. So we chatted abit more on the train....try to reassure each other more is to come....and encourage each other....

And indeed more is to come....stay tuned. This is just a day, that she said she will remember and always cheer her up when she feel down.... This is also a day that I will remember for a day I dare to make a decision despite all the uncertainty.